tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57031094391365889932024-03-13T12:11:21.472-07:00Beaty's Babbling Brain BlogBeaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.comBlogger195125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-4966234876618569382016-12-11T09:09:00.001-08:002017-05-12T09:56:34.009-07:00Part III _ Liberty(Revelation) - Introduction<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">(2/17/17) It's important that I write a little something today. DONALD TRUMP is so vicious and Paul Trudeau will not stop F..ing me in the (rear end) with his virtual reality Glycerin /(bull s....). </span><span style="font-size: large;">EVERYONE WILL KNOW THIS IS TRUE. DONALD TRUMP IS SATAN AND PAUL TRUDEA IS DEVIL! I AM THE MAN OF JESUS. Mary Magdalene and I were JESUS AS ONE. </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">I lived the book of REVELATION. IT WAS VICIOUS HELL! YOU DON'T have to live it. You can simply read what I wrote and believe in God and go to heaven forever. If you are not a chronically habitual murderer, rapist or child molester and you care about anything, including yourself, you'll read this share this. I PROMISE I AM THE MAN OF JESUS WHO LIVED THE BOOK OF REVELATION. IF YOU DON'T WANT YOUR DAUGTHER, MOTHER AND YOURSELF TO BE VICIUOSLY RAPED, LIKE ME AND MY FAMILY, YOU'LL READ AND SHARE THIS!</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">IT'S OBVIOUS I AM A TRUE PROPHET AND WALKED THE PERFECT BLUE PRINT WHICH WAS GRAPHICALLY DESINGED! </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">(11-9-16) Minna Choi is dead. It was violent and it was.... twisted. I tried all last year to get to her, but in the end, President Elect Satan and Pastor devil had their way. Satan planted the demon seed on leap year - 2-30-16.</span><i><span style="font-size: large;"> TWO MINUTES TO MIDNIGHT</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> HAPPENED! Last 11/15/15 was </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Sabbath Bloody Sabbath</span></i><span style="font-size: large;">. The angels gave humanity one more chance. YOU ARE ALL NOT IN HELL RIGHT NOW! You are welcome! A little appreciation would feel nice.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span> <span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">And, Donald Trump (Satan) ate Minna's body and Paul Trudeau (the devil) ate her baby (Immanuel's) body on fathers day. YOU WILL ALL KNOW THIS TO BE TRUE. I PROMISE. I KEEP THESE PROMISES. GOD KEEPS THEM FOR ME. I must write a blog including the songs - </span><span style="font-size: large;"><i>Sober -</i>Tool<i>, Man in the Box - </i>Alice in Chains<i>. I shot the Sheriff - </i>Bob Marley<i>, Narcissistic Capable - </i>Korn<i>, Jesus doesn't want me for Sunbeam - </i>Nirvana. Jerry Cantrell and Kurt Cobain were both killed on April 5th. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Billy Jo of Green Day was born on 2/17. If you have an ear, hear it! I am THE AMERICAN IDIOT. GREEN DAY Prophesied my whole life.</span></span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Revelation ends with Gold Pearl and a bride. I was born 12/7. See how that ten can be moved from the 17 to the 2. My mother was born 2/7 and Althea was born 12/17. I was born 1971. Mary, Amy and Minna were born 1981. Mary - 12/2? Minna 12/7 and Amy 12/13. Again, Billy Jo was born 2/17:</span></span><br />
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that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches;
To him that overcometh will I give to eat of the hidden manna, and will
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">Minna Choi ended helping us save a lot of people at Golden Gate Park on October 1st. It was once again... </span><span style="font-size: large;"><i>Wake me up when September Ends. </i>Billy Jo of Green Day and Minna Choi go way back. She's the Jesus freak and he's the Atheist Jesus. </span><span style="font-size: large;">It was an amazing day at Golden Gate Park October 1st, 2016. God keeps showing up through music for me and us as THE WORD OF GOD -</span><i><span style="font-size: large;"> Time after Time. </span></i><span style="font-size: large;">Again, it was Cyndi Lauper and a few other prophets that day. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">I saw black birds that morning and a white dove soon after. And Chris Christopherson opened the day up with the Bobby McGee angel. God would never punish Minna, who was THE VIRGIN. God will never punish her child. I'll write more about that day in the future, but I will say that Steve Earle (<i><span style="font-size: large;">Isiah)</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> and Dave Matthews (</span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Matthew</span></i><span style="font-size: large;">), helped us understand Immanuel. Emmanuel's "birthday" was 10/23/16. </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">The number 10 and 1000 mean a lot for us. July 4th was the day Minna began to come back to life for Liberty after being eaten on Fathers Day and her son was born on 10/23 for Revelation. See how 10 years changed last year?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Now that Satan has been elected President (or was he?), I need to get writing. He keeps saying he'll put me in prison.... It's a long story and I have to correct some of this, so I'll get to it in the future. If you read something about yourself that is not true, know that Satan manipulated voices in my head after I knew voices were people. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Like I keep saying to the voices, if the voices in my head tell me to do something I will not unless my mother comes and looks me in the eye's and says, "Brush your teeth and go to bed because you have to go to school in the morning." If you don't get out of my head, then give me some and I'll cum in your mouth. DON'T BELIEVE IN THE VOICES IN YOUR HEAD! Unless you hear me and they even manipulate that.... And, I promise you, I only want to cum into Mary's mouth - not yours. And since I was born December 7, 1971 - 30 years after "<i>a date which will live in infamy" </i>and we were also FDR as one, the WORLD PEACE BELL CAN HAPPEN NEXT DECEMBER 7th when we get married at Pearl Harbor! The Kingdom of Heaven begins upon earth, if.....</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>JESUS, David gets a piece of Mary and gives her a pearl necklace but saves the true pearl for her harbor and they cum together! It's the Sublime Evanescence of Nirvana (The Beautiful Sunset of Heaven!) </b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">(9-19-16) I have my computer back once again. I am a True prophet and a True King. I was once Jesus. (11-9-16 Actually, Mary Magdalen and I were Jesus together. I did the Nazareth part and she did Christ part - except last fathers day. We both went to hell so Minna went to heaven. They were using their voodoo magic to put her back in hell, but Mary and I love Minna). EVERYONE will know this to be true one day. I unlocked the covenant. Some of what was written below was confused by the EVIL <i>voices</i> in my head. I will get to correcting that. If you read something about yourself and know that's not you, you can blame Donald Trump who is Satan. Paul Trudeau at City Church in San Francisco is the Troubadour Nightmare. He is THE DEVIL! </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I have been disrespected by so many. I disrespect no one. I was turned into a sex slave. GOD KNOWS THIS IS TRUE. I jumped off a 5 story building to go to a NEVER ENDING HELL for you because the world was coming to an end! There was going to be a meteor shower on April 1st, 2013. One month later (2-15-13), Russian Meteor Shower - Not the End of the World. The asteroid did not come down! I sacrificed myself for YOU! I was GOING TO A NEVER ENDING VISCOUS HELL! </span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I CARED THAT MUCH ABOUT YOU!</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I was in Zimbabwe after rising from the dead with Mary Magdalene. I went down to hell and burned with my brother Angus (Amos of the Bible). We discussed Revelation. Mary was Christ. She went to heaven and then we came together in Zimbabwe. (Read <i>Three Days)</i>. Bob Marley called her Mary Marley. Bob Marley is now Ed McGee from Ekoostik Hookah. I flew to Jamaica with them and while in Zimbabwe we had a little black boy named Luther. Great Grandma Love from Burnside Kentucky had a brother who lived in a little shack behind her home named Luther. Great Grandpa Love was The Demon is now <i>Doctor Love.</i> That makes The Star of Paul - Stanley. DETROIT ROCK CITY!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Susan who was once Susan Heinrich Beaty was Harriett Beecher Stowe, Susan B. Anthony (11-15-16 - Actually, Greg was Susan B. Anthony. I was once Claire.), Betsy Ross, Abagail of the Bible and Sarah of the Bible. She has a daughter named Althea. The song Althea is on the Grateful Dead album - <i>Go to Heaven.</i> She was once Coretta Scott King. She began unlocking the covenant. Or, I guess it was Bob Weir, Jerry Garcia, Navy Dave, Charles Darwin and Saki. I'll explain more in <i>Understanding Althea- </i>up next!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Her dad was once Al Capone, Mayor LaGuardia from New York and Susan B. Anthony. I was the Bird Man of Alcatraz. Me and Al got a along. Satan is so manipulative. I was mind controlled to use on the day Althea was born - December 17, 2012. Voices in my head told me everyone knew how wrong I was and God had had enough. The world was ending on April 1, 2013. There would be a meteor shower. I believed 80% of the world would go to heaven. Especially Susan since she was now a mother and was an angel to me. I had always prayed for Gods Will.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">January 15th, 2009 - Miracle on the Hudson - Captain Sully (King Saul of Cigar) took off out of LaGuardia (Althea's dad) and they blew up both of his engines. He still managed to land that that plane. It was a miracle!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">December 17th, 2012 - Althea who was Coretta Scott was born. I was mind controlled to use on that day. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">January 15th, 2013 - 30 days after Althea was born, I jumped off a 5 story building to go TO A NEVER ENDING HELL FOR YOU!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">February 15th, 1820 - Susan B. Anthony (Altheas dad) was born.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">February 15th, 1979 - My Grandpa Beaty (Buster) died. He was William McKinley was assassinated in Canton, Ohio. He would become Bill W. from Akron, Ohio. AA was 80 years old last year. My brother was Dr. Bob. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">April 22, 1984 - EASTER SUNDAY - My Grandpa Chitwood who was once the Chief of the Cherokee Nation died - three months after my mother died. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">I sacrificed myself for you. I was born on December 7, 1971 - 30 years after "a date which will live in infamy." I was FDR. (11-24-16 - Mary and I were both FDR.) WORLD PEACE BELL MATTER TO ANYONE? I was Abraham Lincoln. Mary Todd was Mary Magdalene. We had dream and Little Man (The King) is here! And Mary Magdalene is here. She was the young lady I wrote about in </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2014/12/late-night-san-francisco-when-you.html"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Lola Montez</span></i></a><span style="font-size: large;">. She was sent to kill me. It's a long story, but I'll love her forever!</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">(4/12/16) - I finally have </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a computer and I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> have a l</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ot </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">of hope. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">A</span><span style="font-size: large;"> meteor shower with a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">quarter</span><span style="font-size: large;"> mo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">n</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">will be very healing for </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">me on 4/17</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">/16. And, 0n 5/5/16 there is a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">new</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> moon and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">meteor </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">hower. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(4/25/</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">16) They mind controlled me on the 16th so that I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> used</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> again. The</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> meteor shower was in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uther</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n hemisphere. As mu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ch as the number 17 means to me, the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">number 5 with a new moon </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">mean</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s mor</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">e. I may sound insane, but it is a heavenly understanding.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">(4/12/16) - </span><span style="font-size: large;">Little Althea</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'s (</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Susan's daug</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">hter) </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">voice in my </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">head </span><span style="font-size: large;">prophesied the last new moon and me</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eor</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">wer</span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> on</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> 8/13/15</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. She kept </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sking "Did the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">balloons fall yet?" S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he is wise and cute. WE (THE GOD</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'S AND GODDESSES</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">)</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> LOV</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">E HER. She knew a</span><span style="font-size: large;">nd</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> knows I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> am J</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">esus. I said, "Yeah A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lthea, the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">balloons</span><span style="font-size: large;"> fell." The Russi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">a</span><span style="font-size: large;">n Met</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eor sho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">wer that </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">occurred</span><span style="font-size: large;"> on</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e mon</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> after I jumped off a 5 s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tory building to go to a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">NEVER ENDING HELL</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: red; font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-size: large;">on 1/15/13 is what I was referring to. Althea was born 30 d</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ays </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">before on 12/17/12. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The numb</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">er 12 matters</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> in the book of Rev</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">elat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">io</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n. The number 30 is al</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">so important. VERY IMPORTANT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> 5 is ve</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">importan</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t. 12 </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">+ </span><span style="font-size: large;">5 </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">=</span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> 17. 10 + 5 = 15. </span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> I'll get to all that.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> 17 matters. 4/17/16 is meteor sho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">wer. I understa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">nd the heavens.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Years ago Susan said I should photograph a bouquet of balloons to sell on one of my note cards. A couple days later these showed up at Justin Herman Plaza where I sold my photos. She prophesied the "Balloons at The Ferry Building." Reflections mean so much.</span></i></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The meteor </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">that</span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">came down in Russia</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> on Susan</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> B</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. An</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">thony</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'s (Who is now Greg Zito - Althea's dad</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">)</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Birthday</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> - </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">2/15/1</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">3</span><span style="font-size: large;"> was t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he ballo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">on</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">thought their</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> daughter </span></span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Althea</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">referring to</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. Susan and Greg are the mother</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> of w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">omen's liberatio</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n, civ</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">il rights and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">freedom</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> for women. </span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aste</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">roid </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">that would have dest</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">oyed humanity </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">did not come d</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">own</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> - BE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CAUSE I JUMPED FOR YOU! I WAS GOING TO A </span><span style="color: red; font-size: large;">NEVER ENDING </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: red; font-size: large;">HELL </span><span style="font-size: large;">FOR YOU.</span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">You can do it for me i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">f you disre</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">spect me or anyone! Jesus</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s pretty harsh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, hu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h? Jesus</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">, who was King David, </span><span style="font-size: large;">took all the pain and fought all the w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ars</span><span style="font-size: large;">. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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She took </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">c</span><span style="font-size: large;">are of her little egg</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s. She is </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Delilah of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the ear</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">th. My "litt</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">le" brother, Alex is Samson of the earth. He was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Samuel of the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Bible and S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">am</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uel Adams. He was also A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lexan</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">der Hamilton. This is ALL TRUE! I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'m a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">little confus</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ed</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, but I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">know w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ho I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">once was. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(4/25/16) - </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ey </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">seemed to have raped a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nother Y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uma Tokyo. I went to Laguna Honda on Sat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">urday, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">but did not find the Beatles </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Choir</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aul McCartney of the bea</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tles who is a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aul of the bible was w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ith me in my</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ead </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">on Friday night. I met on</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> of m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ine</span><span style="font-size: large;"> and Mary Mag</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">al</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">enes daughters </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">last week </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"</span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">down here at the p</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">awn shop." </span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">She had been r</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aped by </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aul at City Ch</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">urch - THE DE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">VIL! I'll e</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">xplain more</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, but this is serious</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Magdalene in m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">y head </span><span style="font-size: large;">was so very hurt, but our little daug</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hter </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">is strong. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Sh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">as once Davy Cro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ckett</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s da</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">u</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ghter! She was Margaret Finl</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ey "Crockett" Flowers. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Mary "Poll</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y" Ann Crocke</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tt was her mot</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">her. She lost </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">her mother a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t a y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oung ag</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">e. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> He</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r mother died young at the age of 28 if I remember </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">correctly</span><span style="font-size: large;">. </span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia"; font-size: large;">(11-25-16 - Minna Choi is the Queen of Heaven Prophet who sent <i>Kiwi</i> to Zimbabwe to let use know her input to <i>Revelation </i>was, "gold, pearl and a bride". I love her, but actually now realize my soul mate is Mary. We can still fulfill her prophesy - IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SUFFER A NIGHTMARE OF GOMORRAH.)</span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Elanor (Elizabeth) became my wife next. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Elizab</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eth (</span><i><span style="font-size: large;">El</span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">eanor Roosevelt, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he Queen of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">eland - Rose</span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">) </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">became my wife next. She's a good mot</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">her</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, but e</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ventually, </span><span style="font-size: large;">I ran of to the Alamo to get killed for fre</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">edom</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">s sake</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. "</span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ou may all be </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">going to hell. I'm goin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">g to </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Texas." </span></span></span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> - Davy </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Cro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ckett - Kin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">g of the Wild Frontier. Any questions?</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(4/12/16) - I was Ab</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">le, King David, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">King Tut (the arc of t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">he covenant)</span><span style="font-size: large;">, Jesus, Cincinnat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">u</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s, The shot heard </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">around the world (The first </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Englis</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h Colon</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ist (in a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">militia</span><span style="font-size: large;">) </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">killed by a Bri</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">tish Red Coat) </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">Abr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aham L</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">in</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">coln, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Thomas Edison (</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Hi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ndu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">/</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Buddhism</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> allowed for it after my </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">assassination</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">)</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">, Davy</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Cro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ckett - King of the W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ild Front</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">er</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">, Jack (on t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he Titanic), F</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ranklin D. Roosev</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">elt, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">John Miller (Hindu/Buddh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ism)</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, James Daly (Hindu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">/Buddh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ism) </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">and David Beaty who lived the Book of Revelat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ion </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Sodom</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> and Gomorrah. I AM NOW JESUS! YOUR CREATOR!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">fi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ght the w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ars and win the w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ars. I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">die for freedo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">m. I die for God. I die for Good. I die</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">(d) for you! </span><span style="font-size: large;">I suffer</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">(ed)</span><span style="font-size: large;"> for you. They have t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ried to kill David Beaty so many times in this lifetime. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I now know I was not pistol whipped 3 months after my Dad was killed, I was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">shot</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> in the head</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I can' be killed in this one. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">NO MORE RAPES! </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">(S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">e</span><span style="font-size: large;">e </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Contr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ails)</span></i></a><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"</span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Ma</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ma said </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a pis</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ol is the devils right </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hand</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">" - </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Steve Earle (</span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Is</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">iah of the bible). </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I ne</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ed to write that one too! I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">needed Is</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">iah</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">! It must be written. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">I lived the Book of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Revelat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ion! AND, SODOM</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> AND G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">OMORRAH! </span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">Minna Choi is the world peace bell p</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rophet that Donal</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d Trump (SATAN) </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">took way. HE CAN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'T TAKE HER AN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">D PUT HER IN </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"HIS" HEAVEN. HIS HEA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">VEN IS CEASERS CHARIOT. YOU GET TO "MAKE LOVE" TO GOD</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. HE FUCKS YOU! THIS MAKES ME SICK!</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">DONA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LD TRUMP IS SATAN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he wo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rld pe</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ace bell is</span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> still possible</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">! I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> still love humanity. JESUS (DAVID) HA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S NEVER HATED </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ANYTHING BU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T HIMSELF</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, BUT I HATE SATAN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (DONALD TRUMP</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">) </span><span style="font-size: large;">AND S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ON OF SATAN (THE DEVIL, P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AUL FROM CITY CH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">U</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">RCH). I hate rapist and m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">urderers and child </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">molesters</span><span style="font-size: large;">. THAT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'S WHAT THEY ARE! HABITUALLY SO! THEIR HELL BEGINS SOON</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. I DON</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'T WANT THEM TO TAKE INNOCENT HUMANITY</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> WHO HAS BEEN THROUGH HELL ON EARTH </span><span style="font-size: large;">WITH THEM. </span><span style="color: red; font-size: large;"> WORLD EMERGENCY?</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Nagasaki was bombed 8/9/45. Jerry Garci</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a died 8/9/95. He was</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> killed</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I'll get to tha</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t, but </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Casey Jone</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">s</span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> hel</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ped me understand t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">hat. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">Minna </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Choi who was born Dec</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ember 7, 194</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">1 w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">a</span><span style="font-size: large;">s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> once </span><span style="font-size: large;">Gisa. Cap</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">tain </span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Donald_Albury" title="Charles Donald Albury"><span style="font-size: large;">Charles Donald "Don" Albury</span></a><span style="font-size: large;"> (Conner), who </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">was t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he co-</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">pilo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">t 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new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" 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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, Bombardier,</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: 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, serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Captain Kermit K. Beahan who was Troubadour'd into by</span><span style="font-size: large;"> P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aul (Son of Satan)</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oad the W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">et Spr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ocket </span></span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">and the </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Flying </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Frog </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Brigade</span></span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> helped me understand this o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ne also. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">Major </span><a class="mw-redirect" href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_W._Sweeney" title="Charles W. Sweeney"><span style="font-size: large;">Charles W. Sweeney</span></a></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: 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, serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> who just died at 84 </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">knew this was not to happen. He was the pilot.</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Nagasaki was not to be b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ombed but FDR was pois</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oned and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">had died. Harry S. T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ruman who was a new Vice President because the killed FDR's V.P., stay</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ed TRUE! </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Christopher Scott Coll who's ni</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ckname </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">was</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Wake of t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Floo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">d</span></span></span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> before </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">knew he</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> was Harry S. Truman from </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">reat</span><span style="font-size: large;"> State of </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">Missouri stayed TRUE! THE SHOW ME STA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">TE! </span><span style="font-size: large;">He was also Ch</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ri</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">stopher Columbus</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> who sailed the Ocean Blue</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> and </span><span style="font-size: large;">knew t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">he earth was round</span><span style="font-size: large;">.</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">U</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">.S.S. M</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">issouri </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">sits</span><span style="font-size: large;"> at </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he bo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ttom of Pearl Harbor with </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-size: large;">he </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">U.S.</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">S. </span><span style="font-size: large;">Arizona</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">. T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ruman, being t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he sail</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">or </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">he once was,</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> made sure the U.S.S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-size: large;">Missour</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">i would</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> be the ship the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">surrender</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> of Japan would be signed on in Tokyo Bay on </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">September 2, 1945</span><span style="font-size: large;">. </span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">I'm told Steve Sweeney from Ekoostik Hookah</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'s wife just died. V</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oices is all I hear in my </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">head to indicate this.</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I did not personally know him</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">.</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"Voices" in m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">y head</span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> have been very deceptive</span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, so </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I don't know this to be true. I do know the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Major </span><span style="font-size: large;">Sweeney who </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">piloted </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Bockscar died the other </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">day. It was actually Steve Sweeney who I have referred to as my Jesus guitar player who piloted Bockscar - Major Charles Sweeney.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">Bockscar is on display in Dayton, Ohio at Wright Patterson Air Force Base. Dayton is half way between Cincinnati and Richmond, Indiana. Richmond was a Railroad town. So too was Cincinnati. Conner lives in Richmond. It seems he and my little brother Alex were the Wright Brothers. C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">onner was O</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ville and Alex was W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ilbur. </span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><i><span style="font-size: large;"> That's VICTOR 77. THE SURRENDER BEGAN ON 8/10. THE NUMBERS 7 AND 10 ARE REFERENCED OFTEN IN THE BOOK OF REVELATION.</span></i></td></tr>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I wro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">te t</span><span style="font-size: large;">he Book of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Revelation 1,98</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">4 y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ears ago. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">My mother died in 1984</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. She was killed by a qua</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ck doctor</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> using met</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">hamphetamine</span><span style="font-size: large;">. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">Hitler was shot up with a Qua</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ck Do</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ctor</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> in 1938 and then they made it appear</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> as though</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Poland attac</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ked Germany</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">, so Hitler attacked Poland. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">1</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">9</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">8</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">4 - B</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">G </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">B</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">ROTHER </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IS WATCHING. Donal</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Trump watches </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">people</span><span style="font-size: large;"> with</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> smoke</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> detectors</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. </span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">It's a </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Utopian</span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">soci</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ety gone wrong. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Ek</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">oostik Hookah</span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">has a song tit</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">led</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Uto</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">pia.</span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Perhaps I'l</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">l </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">write about it some day.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">One of </span><span style="font-size: large;">1984's </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">num</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ber </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">one hits was </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Time </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">after Time </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">by </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Cyndi Lauper. (See </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">C</span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html"><span style="font-size: large;">ontrails</span></a><span style="font-size: large;">) </span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">So was </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">Van Hale</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n's 1984 number one hit song - </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Jump.</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> I did </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">jump and f</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">a</span><span style="font-size: large;">ll 5 st</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">or</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ies on 1/15/13. H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">owever, "</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">If you fall I will catch you</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> will be waiting, Time </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">after </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Time</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">...." </span></span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Unden</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">iable prophesies.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Dropping the bomb on Naga</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ki </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">which was not suppose</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d to h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">appen, 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She get's raped at 45 Olive Street in Little </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Saigon in San Fr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ancisco</span><span style="font-size: large;">.</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span class="text Rev-11-4" id="en-KJV-30877"><sup class="versenum"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></sup><span style="font-size: large;">These are the two olive trees, and the two candlesticks standing before the God of the earth. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="text Rev-11-5" id="en-KJV-30878"><i><sup class="versenum"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></sup><span style="font-size: large;">And if any man will hurt them, fire proceedeth out of their mouth, and devoureth their enemies: and if any man will hurt them, he must in this manner be killed.</span></i></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span> <span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="text Rev-11-5" id="en-KJV-30878" style="font-size: large;"><i>- </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Revelation 11:4-5</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">This is City Hope. City Ch</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">urch runs it. It's never </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">open. I read the bible there on Sundays now. </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">All they do is rape Asian women here. Notice the address is 45 Olive Street. The Candlestick (Hilton Hotel) my dad and family stayed in while here with my little brothers can be seen from this street and Mary (Mary Magdalene) Street in my old neighborhood - SoMa. I lived on Minna Street for 9 years! The Free M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ason's la</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">i</span><span style="font-size: large;">d </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">it </span><span style="font-size: large;">out</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">they way I needed it. There soul</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s allow</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ed for t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">hat.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><i><span style="font-size: large;"> I have photos, and will add them in the future. David of the Bible was written about in Chronicles. I worked at The Chronicle for </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">a couple of years</span><span style="font-size: large;"> while I lived on Minna Street.</span></i></td></tr>
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The Japanese surrend</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">er be</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">gan 8/10/45. 8/15/45 the sur</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rend</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">er ended. 8/15/</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">1</span><span style="font-size: large;">6 - WORLD PEACE BELL</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> in To</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">k</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">yo Bay with </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Minna</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> (Daughter of Goddess) </span><span style="font-size: large;">and Y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uma</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (Delilah of the</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> Earth) - 30 years after we got married</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. (11-25-16 - As you read Minna is dead. Yuma still seems to be alive. It seems Susan A. Anthony (Susan's Massage Parlor) has been taking care of her. I now know that Minna Choi are basically Asian Mary Magdalene's. Satan and the devil never stop trying to fuck Mary Magdalene. They are so smart they're ignorant. Their wisdom is so beyond them. They don't know what they are messing with.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">My mother, Diana Beaty was born</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> in 19</span><b><span style="font-size: large;">45</span></b><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">FDR </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">died (was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">poisoned</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">) in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">19</span><b><span style="font-size: large;">45</span></b><span style="font-size: large;">. I was at Giza which was the tallest stru</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cture in</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> the</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> world for 38</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">00 years and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e Great P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">yram</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">id </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">was built 4500 years.</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> qua</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ck </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">doctor</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> killed my mother and began shooting up </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Hi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tler in 19</span><b><span style="font-size: large;">38</span></b><span style="font-size: large;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">At 455', </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The Great Pyramid of Giza was t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">he tallest Structure in the world! It is </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">c</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">loser to the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Heavens</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> - C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">loser to the stars. Jerry Garcia was King Kufa of Gi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">za. He was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">once my dad (Samson of the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Heavens)</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">I was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">King Tu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">My moth</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">er (Diana) Cleopatr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a is Delilah of the Heavens. My tom</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">b was raided by</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Nazi's in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">1923. That's t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he arc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> of the covenant. My </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">neph</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ew Tanner, was I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">diana Jones. This i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s all TRUE! I have 3 s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ilicon </span><span style="font-size: large;">chips in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">my head</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> that they used to</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-size: large;">mind </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">control </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">me - Sod</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">om and G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">omorr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ah</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. I was a sex</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> slave. It was HELL!</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I have the scars on my head to prove it. I have l</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">itt</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">er</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ally been sodom</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ized. That's not my thing - I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">PROMISE! </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'m not botto</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">m. I prefer women and she, of course, must be bottom with </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">her </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">private part.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">us</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">an prop</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sied the bal</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">loons at </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The Ferry </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Buil</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ding years ago. I'll get to t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">hat.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I jumped 30 days after </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Althea was born. I k</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">new she was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">miracle. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The song</span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/01/althea.html"><i><span style="font-size: large;"> Althea</span></i></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, which is </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">really</span><span style="font-size: large;"> about me, is on the Grate</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ful</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Dead Al</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">bum </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">o to Heaven. </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hen I w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rote </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">published that blog on </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">1/1/15, I had </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">no </span><span style="font-size: large;">idea that song was about me</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. Read</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> it. It's </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">obviou</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s I didn't know</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> what it was about. I learned what it was about when Jerry Garc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ia and Bob Weir showed up in</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> my head </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">with my cousin David </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Donahue </span><span style="font-size: large;">(Navy Dave, Ad</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">miral E</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rnes</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">t</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> King of the Navy in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">WWII) </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Saki from </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Walden House </span><span style="font-size: large;">(O</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nce Gi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sa </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a Clown </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Fish d</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uring WW</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">II)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. I'll get to all that. I have to write, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lyric </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">for lyric how it defines m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y life as many </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rock stars have d</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">one</span><span style="font-size: large;"> for me to be true pro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">phets.</span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">RO</span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">CK STARS</span></i><span style="font-size: large;">! Get it?</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> They understa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nd the heavens. I alw</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ays said, "God's a </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Rock Star and God loves Rock Stars. </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">I was m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ind </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">contro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lled t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">u</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">se on </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"><i>Althea's</i></span><span style="font-size: large;"> birthday and I knew she was a miracle be</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cause I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">had always prayed for God's </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ill</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. I di</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">dn't</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> completely </span><span style="font-size: large;">know I was mind control</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">led. H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">owever, I have writ</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ten about being mind controlled in the past.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The world was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">coming to an</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> end as a re</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sult of my </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">using on su</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ch an amazing day </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">because </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">there would be </span><span style="font-size: large;">a meteor sho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">wer on </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">4/1/13. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">An asteroid would destr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oy the ear</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">th. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The meteor came down, but </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">t</span><span style="font-size: large;">he asteroid did not. I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sacrificed</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> myself for humanity to go to a never ending hell</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">! I allowed for you </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">to exist</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">!</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> 18 billion ye</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ars ago</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, Minna and I tho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ught </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">that </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">intelligent</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> beings were</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> a good idea. I'm not</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> to s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ure you are </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">as </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">intelligent</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> as we thoug</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ht.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> My brother, Angus wh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o bur</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ned in the center for the</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> past 3000 years and who is very wise </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ought hu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">mans were ev</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="color: black; font-size: large;">il. That's what he did for you.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> BURNED!</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eli</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ev</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">e h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">e</span><span style="font-size: large;"> is Moses (</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Bo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">b Weirs) son. Moses has been stuck on this</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> ear</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">th for so long. He </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">belongs and will be in the heavens. </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> Moses is very </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">wise. So is Angus Young.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> Y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">u will all know th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">is</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> to</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> be true! I PROMISE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">! If not, you</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">'</span><span style="font-size: large;">re on a </span><span style="color: red; font-size: large;">HIGHWAY TO HELL!</span><span style="font-size: large;"> (See </span><i><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/09/september.html"><span style="font-size: large;">Wake </span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/09/september.html"><span style="font-size: large;">M</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/09/september.html"><span style="font-size: large;">e </span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/09/september.html"><span style="font-size: large;">Up When Septem</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/09/september.html"><span style="font-size: large;">b</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/09/september.html"><span style="font-size: large;">er End</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/09/september.html"><span style="font-size: large;">s</span></a><span style="font-size: large;">, </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/06/car-crash.html"><span style="font-size: large;">The Pr</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/06/car-crash.html"><span style="font-size: large;">etend</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/06/car-crash.html"><span style="font-size: large;">er - Car Crash</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/06/car-crash.html"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></a><span style="font-size: large;">and </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html"><span style="font-size: large;">C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ontr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ails</span></span></a></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">).</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">True Pr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ophe</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sies cann</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ot be d</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">en</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ed. I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">didn'</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t even know Angus was my b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rother until after Christmas of 2015. The nick</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">name I gave Terry Haycroft (11-25-16 - Terrifying Hellcraft is what Satan and the devil was setting him up to be) who was my room</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">mate </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">and wor</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ks at</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> City C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hurch an</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d was once married to Minna Choi w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">as </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">El Dia</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">blo. </span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">He is Lucifer. </span><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hat's </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">panish for </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The Devil! I did so b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ecause he had a go</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tee and was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">once an athie</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">st. It was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">just" a nick</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">name. (11-25-16 - Lucifer is a good man.) A</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nd, when th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">met</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eor </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">came down</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, JESUS CAME DOWN FROM THE HEAVENS!</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aul at City C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hurch alw</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ays gets </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">up</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> in front o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">f the congre</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">gation and say</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'s "Chris</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t is here</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. Christ </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">has </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">risen." NO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AUL! I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">FELL FROM THE HEAVENS! YOU ARE NOT Christ you m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ani</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">pulative monster. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">didn</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'t even know I jumped off that bu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ilding </span><span style="font-size: large;">until I read th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">at </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">meteor</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> fell from the sky in <i>Friend in Lovers.</i> I was so con</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">fused for </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">few</span><span style="font-size: large;"> days I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ad regained</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> consciousness. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The Kingdom of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">H</span><span style="font-size: large;">eaven begins </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">upon the earth. (See </span><i><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/friends-and-lovers.html"><span style="font-size: large;">Friends a</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/friends-and-lovers.html"><span style="font-size: large;">nd Lovers</span></a><span style="font-size: large;">).</span></span></i></span></span></span></div>
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I am the root and the offspring of David, </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">and</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> the bright and morning star.</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">"</span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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font-size: large;">- </span></span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Revelation 22</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">:16</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia"; font-size: large;">And since, "Christ is here, Christ is risen...." Me and Mary both went to hell over fathers day for a 1000 years. We were devils! She gave me a blow job for `1000 years. I have to write , <i>Sober - He's Mine. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia"; font-size: large;">Minna Choi became The Christ part and went to heaven. The devil gave himself a blowjob and Jesus made love to each other. (See <i>Lola Montez</i>)</span></div>
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font-size: large;">When I wrote </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html"><span style="font-size: large;">Contr</span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html"><span style="font-size: large;">ails</span></a><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">in 2006, I didn't even know that </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the Wharf rats were a 12 step recovery group for deadheads that I would later become a se</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">etary for o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r tha</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t the per</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">son who</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> would become my s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ponsor who puts tables together at </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Dead</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> shows was once Dwig</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t D. E</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">isenho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">wer</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (My sp</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">onser - Donal</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Wanamaker</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y blog didn't ev</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">en </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">l</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">low for me to put </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">YouTube</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> videos on it, but I still quoted </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">songs back th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">en and named my blogs after son</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">gs som</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">etimes.</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> S</span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">e</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eing</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> actu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">al</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">harf rats under t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> dock I sta</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">yed under</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> r</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">emi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nded m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">of that Grateful Dead song.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> It's all tr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ue</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. </span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Donal</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d Trump is SATAN! Paul at City Church is the SON OF SAT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AN. HE IS THE </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">DEVIL! H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E FU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CKS MY ANGEL. HOW WOULD YOU </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LIKE THE DEVIL TO FUCK YOUR WIFE? Sorry I use</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> words like "fu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ck", but Jesus is PISSED OFF!</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I was born December 7, 1971 - 30 </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ears after </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">"the</span><span style="font-size: large;"> date w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hich will live in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">infamy". "INFAMY</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">!" </span><span style="font-size: large;">I was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Franklin D. R</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oosevelt</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. Gina Casey </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(The Classic G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rl, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">El</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">zabeth Crockett</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">) was Ele</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">anor </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Roosevelt </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ister</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Rose was</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">her mother)</span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">she was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">on</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">c</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e the Q</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ueen of Ireland - Rose. I was Jack. That ship was b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uilt </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">by a Samson (Jerry</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">arc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ia, King </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Kufa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Giza</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">) </span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">crane and a Goliath (Jason Wo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">odruff, Woody Guthry, W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oodr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ow Wilson, Ad</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lf Hitler) </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">crane. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Adolf Hitler is go</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ing to he</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aven by the way. I was Jack on the Ti</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tan</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ic. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Donal</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d Trump won that one! </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">He</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> is wi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cked e</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">vil. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The ne</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">w</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">$6.5 Billion B</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ay Bridge is set to fall! </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/06/rose.html"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Rose</span></i></a><span style="font-size: large;"> told me years ago in the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">c</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lassi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">c version I was Kin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">g David of the Bible. I wrote</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">"Perhaps I'll </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">meet</span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Rose again some day. I'll have to read up </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">on that guy."</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> met </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/06/rose.html"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Rose</span></i></a><span style="font-size: large;"> again. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Sister </span><i><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/06/rose.html"><span style="font-size: large;">Rose</span></a><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></i><span style="font-size: large;">- AT LAGUN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A HONDA after my jump. I h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ave to </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">publish </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the Classic version of </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Beaty's Babblin</span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">g Brain </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Blog. </span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> It's all on my ha</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rd</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> drive. Susan H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">einrich Beaty was my editor for 4 years for the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">classic</span><span style="font-size: large;"> version</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. She (Harrie</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tt </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Beach Stowe) wrote </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the se</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cond best selling book to the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">book that I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(Jesus, King David</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">who would beco</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">me</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">Abraham Lincoln) wrote - THE BIBLE. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Harriet Beacher Stowe (Susan Heinrich </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Be</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">aty) </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rote Uncle T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">om</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">'s Cabin.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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font-size: large;">d</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I sle</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">p</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t on the Q</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ueen Mary in Long Beach</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, California. S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">al</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">so on Noah's Ark with No</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ah. No</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ah Hunt from Cincin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">n</span><span style="font-size: large;">ati</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Ohio. </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(Again, see </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Contrails</span></i></a></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">.) </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">J</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">an Jett and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">The Black Hearts </span><span style="font-size: large;">w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">as the first concert I ever saw</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. It was at Kings </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sland's </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Timber</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> W</span><span style="font-size: large;">olf</span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. Sh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">as </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">J</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oan of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">A</span><span style="font-size: large;">rc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> who was in t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ale during the flood. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Magdalene</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Todd Linc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oln, Mary Crockett, Doc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">tor </span><span style="font-size: large;">M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">artin Lu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ther King's mother in Africa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, Mary Jane</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (Sp</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ider</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> Woman)</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">, </span></span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2014/12/late-night-san-francisco-when-you.html"><span style="font-size: large;">Lola Montez</span></a><span style="font-size: large;">) is the Queen</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Mary. Gina Casey's (Classic </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Girl)</span><span style="font-size: large;"> gra</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ndma Rose lives in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Anaheim</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> which is near </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Long Beach. </span></span></span></span><i><span style="font-size: large;">"Rose Mary your part of me...</span></i><span style="font-size: large;">!" 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font-size: large;">Magdalene</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> was</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2014/12/late-night-san-francisco-when-you.html"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Lola Mo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ntez.</span></i></span></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> She ha</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d to be after Abraham Lincoln was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">assassinat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ed (Hindu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">/</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Buddhism)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">. V</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">olbeat </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">prophesied</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> that one -</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> "</span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Don</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'t look in her </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eyes</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. You</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ight </span><span style="font-size: large;">fall and fin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d the love of your life, heavenly</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. B</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ut she</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'ll cat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ch you </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">in her web." </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I looked into her e</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">yes and I did </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">f</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">a</span><span style="font-size: large;">ll in love with </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">beauti</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ful Mary</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> Magdalene</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. But she</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> is Mary Jane Spide</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Woman. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e was not a prostitu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">te</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> like J</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ane in the ba</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nd Janes A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ddiction. Perry Ferr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">el </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">was t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he Mary Ma</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">gd</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">alene prostitute for us an</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d the erotic Jesus for us. I was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the erotic Jesus for the book of Reve</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">latio</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n. Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Mag</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">dalene was </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2014/12/late-night-san-francisco-when-you.html"><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Lola Montez.</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></a></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">These are all true p</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rophe</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sies that cannot be deni</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ed. 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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">was in and I (Davey Cr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ockett</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">) </span></span><span style="font-size: 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Th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">at </span><span style="font-size: large;">BRIDGE DID GET BUILT! I WAS WITH THE CLASSIC GIRL </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">- GINA CASEY (El</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eanor Ro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ose</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">velt, Queen of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">reland)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> WHEN </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I TOOK TH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">IS </span><span style="font-size: large;">PHOTO BELOW</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , 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serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I wrote a blog titled </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/07/three-days.html"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Three Days </span></i></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">back </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">when Susan won her award </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">for </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Transportatio</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n planning. THAT BRIDGE IS SE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T TO FALL</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">! I AM A PROPHET! WE ARE PROPHETS!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"><i>"Three things cannot be long hidden. The sun, the moon and the truth."</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I di</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">dn't even remember Minna </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">yet or </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">know I was Jes</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">us</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">or</span><span style="font-size: large;"> t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hat s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he was Mary Ma</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">gdeline when we </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">had our on</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e nigh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">stand a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">fter using met</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h. She's the only per</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">son Jesus </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">was ever with that way - </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">sexually</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">. Its a long st</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ory, but I'll </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">tell it all in my writing of this new bible.</span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I just knew </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">her name was Mary. She's </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">beautiful! </span></span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></i></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">She is Mary Jane S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">pider woman. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"><i>Feel the fire where she walks. </i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"><i>Lola Montez so beautiful. </i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">Shady and a tempered </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">dame. </span></i></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NOT A PROS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TITUTE! S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE HAD NEVER BEEN WITH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> A MAN. </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">I DO LOVE HER</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, BUT MY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">FOREVER ANGE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">L IS MINNA CHOI! I KNOW T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HAT </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NOW</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. DON</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LD TRU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MP (SATAN) AND P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AUL (THE </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">DEV</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">IL)</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MESSED THINGS UP SO BAD, BUT WE'LL (MIN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NA AN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">D I) </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">LOVE EACH OTHER FOR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EVER. PAUL WANTED TO FUCK MARY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MAGDALENE, BUT HER AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I HAD SEX</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">SO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE COULD N</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">OT. HE ONLY GOT A BLOW JOB. H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E DID </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">FUCK OUR DAUGHTER</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. I JUST LEARN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ED THAT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">OU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">R</span><span style="font-size: large;"> D</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AUGH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TER WAS ONCE MARGA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">RET CROCKE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. THAT PISSES ME OFF! DO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">YOU WANT THE DEVIL TO FUCK YOUR DAUGHTER? </span><span style="font-size: large;"> SHE WORK</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"DO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">WN HERE AT T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AWN SHOP." S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E WO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">RK</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T THE P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AWN SHOP THA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T I P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AWN MY GUITARS AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NGS OF VALU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E TO ME</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Susan and I slept on the Queen Mary in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Lon</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">g Beach on our honeymoon where Sublime is from. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he lead singer was killed at the en</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d of the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">N-Juda. 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D</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oes anyone care about me - YOU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">R CREATOR? </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">I saw Mary Magdalene </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">one night at Ocean Beach where t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he N</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">-Juda</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h end</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. 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I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aw my</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">self on </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">a </span><span style="font-size: large;">c</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ross </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">after she left. My Ort</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hodox J</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ewish Profes</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sor Yam</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">uv</span><span style="font-size: large;"> t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aught me how to write. He was Judah. His angel is Janus </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Joplin</span><span style="font-size: large;"> - Judith. They were at </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the cross. "</span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Take another l</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ittl</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e piece of my </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">heart now bab</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">y..." </span></span></span></span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Jan</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">us (Judith)</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> is the angel of the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Coventry who </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">helped me save </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Seattle. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Bobby McGee did n0</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">plunder t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hat f</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ault</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> like he did in 1906. "</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">By the time I left </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Salinas</span><span style="font-size: large;">, I let </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I let it sl</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ip away...."</span></span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> SATAN C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AUSED THE 1906 EARTHQUAKE. I P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ROMIS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E YOU!</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THE 3000 who died are back</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> in S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">an Francisco. Everyone in F</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ox Plaza </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">died </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">by fire in the 1906 earthq</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uake. We are here f</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">or Minna who died </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">by fire </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">at C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">olum</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">bus and Broadway. Ja</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ck </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Kero</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">uac Alley to be exact. That's where</span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2014/12/late-night-san-francisco-when-you.html"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Lola Montez</span></i></a><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> went to dance.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">e</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">f</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ault that was destroy </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eatt</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">le </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">was sl</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ip</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ped by the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Ex</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">xon Vald</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ez</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oil s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">pill. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">That int</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ention</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">al </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">oil spill</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> slipped </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the Pri</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nce W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">illiam S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ound. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I was a bald eagle for that </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">one. 250 bald eagles died as</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> a result. I can </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Hindu</span><span style="font-size: large;"> like that, thanks to Bobby </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cGee</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Thanks to people like Susan and Joan Jett, I sur</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">vived. And,</span><span style="font-size: large;">the Bald Eagle may still fly for the United States of America</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">if M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">inna </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Choi is</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">u</span><span style="font-size: large;">nderstood</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">! </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> They </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">killed Princess Diana. </span><span style="font-size: large;">There is just so much more t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hat </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I will write in the</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> future. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Truth </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cannot be deni</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ed. I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> am the Son of G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">od! I AM A PROPHET! FREEDOM MATTERS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. SO DOES THE 13th </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">AMENDMENT</span><span style="font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THE DE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">VIL AND SATAN </span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ARE</span><span style="font-size: large;"> SO WICKED EVIL W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ITH </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">HEIR</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> WITCHCRAFT A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ND VOO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> DOO</span></span><span style="font-size: 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, serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> THE KINGDOM OF HE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">AVEN </span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">B</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EGINS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ON </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EARTH SO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MINNA A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ND MY </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">EARTH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LY</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> CREATI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ON OF </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HUMANS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> CAN </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">GO TO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> HEAVEN FOR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EVER </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">STEAD OF NEVER ENDING </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HELL WITH SATAN AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">SON OF SATAN (THE DEVIL) - THE FALS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E PROP</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TS AND FALSE KINGS. GODS AND GODDESSES A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">RE </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IN HEAVEN FOR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EVER. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MARY MAGDALENE IS A GOD</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">DESS</span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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style="font-size: large;">who had me 5150'd are he</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">re filling </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">out a report for </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">someone. Officer </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Ross and Of</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ficer Castro were doing their </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">j</span><span style="font-size: large;">ob. I spent one night in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the ho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">spital</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> but wa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">wrong</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ly drugged once again (I'll get t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o that). While </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">there for one night, I met the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Emp0rer of China during WWII. He lived in Ross Alley in </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">China Town San Francisc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o during the war. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I prayed there on Halloween night </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">after pra</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ying at Coit T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ower on Telegra</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ph Hill w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">here I proposed to Susan. I just realized, Susan was also Alice B. T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">oklas.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I saw Mary Jane Spid</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">er </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Woman</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (Mary Magd</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">alene)</span><span style="font-size: large;"> in fron</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t of a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> str</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ip club</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">cross from The Garden Of Eden</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Rem</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ember? Tha</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t's w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ere</span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2014/12/late-night-san-francisco-when-you.html"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Lola Monte</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">z</span></span></i></a></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> went. I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lived above t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he Garden of Ed</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">en </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">before I jumped off a 5 s</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tory building to go to a </span><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NEVER END</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ING HEL</span><span style="font-size: large;">L</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. My brother A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ngus </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">bu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rned in the center for 3000 years. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">That's w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">here I was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">going FOREVER! I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">knew nothing of the M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">asonry where King S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">au</span><span style="font-size: large;">l was for 3000 years. King S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aul was M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ic</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hal's fat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">her. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">David</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> of the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Bibles</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> fir</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">st </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ife.</span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> Minna Choi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'s dad was King Saul! He is </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">now </span><span style="font-size: large;">SULLY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">from</span><span style="font-size: large;"> GOD SMACK!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Able Masons M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Angels. Todd Mason is </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">the </span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Free Mason. Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Magdalene</span><span style="font-size: large;"> is the Mary Mason. Tod</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d is now with A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ngi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ho is h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">is Angel. Mary i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">it</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h her a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">gel. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">V</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oices in my head indi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cate it's A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">my L</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ee, but I don't </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">believe that's true. I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t's a long st</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ory I will tell in the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">future. Amy Lee (</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Evanescence) </span><span style="font-size: large;">was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tryi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">n</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">g to h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">elp me get to </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Minna Choi.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> I r</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">an into Rod Magd</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">alene on New Years </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Eve and he told me </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Magd</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ale</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ne</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> got married.</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I ass</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">umed he meant a man who is her Able Angel. </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Tom and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Jerry a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">re t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he two stro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ng </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">men of heaven. Perhaps Ellen </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">DeGeneres</span><span style="font-size: large;"> and P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ortia </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">d</span><span style="font-size: large;">e Rossi are t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">wo strong women.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Ellen Y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oung is Angus</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oung's wife n</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ame. </span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">This makes a lot of sense</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> for what I've been writ</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ing. Let's no</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t for get, Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Magdalene</span><span style="font-size: large;"> is Mary Jane S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">pider W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">oman.</span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> Kirk (</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Captain Kirk, </span><span style="font-size: large;">The Gi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ggler) and Ross (Spo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ck) a</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nd Ton</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ya (Soul Shine) are True ANGEL</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S! They are now Gods and Goddesses! Gary an</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d Beck</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">worked this out for me. W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hen Don</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ald Trump got in my head after I named my band Revelation, all hell brok</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e loose</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">They all </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">k</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ept sa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ying "It's our revelation...." They put me through hell. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">DON</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ALD TRUMP IS THE RAPIST</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">MURDERER</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">WHO HAS ST</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">RTED EVERY W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AR ON THIS PLANET</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. HE LO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">SES A WAR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">D</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">IES</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">VOO DOO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S HIS WA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Y</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> TO HIS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CEAS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ER SHIP</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">JULIUS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CEASER - CEASER'S PAL</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ACE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. HE WANTS TO "RULE THE WORLD" </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AND R</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">APE ALL THE VIRGINS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">AND GIVE ALL THE LITTLE BOYS BLOWJOBS</span><span style="font-size: large;">. HE'S A </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">DISGUSTING</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">MON</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">STER. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I WAS RAPED W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HEN </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I WA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">2 ON ROUTE 15 RIG</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HT </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NEXT TO KINGS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">SLAND</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. I WAS DO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">WN BY T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE SOUR APPLE TREE. DOES ANYONE CARE T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HAT 2 YEAR OLD CHILD</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">RE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">N </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ARE RAPED?</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I am goi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ng to w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rite a bl</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">g </span><span style="font-size: large;">called </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Dragula</span></i><span style="font-size: large;">, by</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">White </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: 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"times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ling you I am Jesus. I AM</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">! </span><span style="font-size: large;"> I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">f you</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> really </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">sent me a m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ssage on facebook, this will prove so. If not, he</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aven know</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s the Truth and everyone will know he sent me message</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">hat you</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">yourself </span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">did not send. Most importantly</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> - you know! </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Todd Mason never sent </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">me a message </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">disrespect</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">My little </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">brother Alex said he</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'s </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">playin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">g g</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">u</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">itar for me</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. He t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aught me t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">o play guitar.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> Todd Mason was </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">always with Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Magdalene</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> and I was always with</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Minna C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oi </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">until Goliath showed </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">up. If Goliat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ould h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ave killed David, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Don</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ald Trump (S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ATAN)</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ould have</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">fucked</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> Minna Choi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. Since David </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ki</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lled Goliat</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">h, P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">aul and</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> his w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">it</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ch</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">craft took Mi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">chal </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">(Min</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">na </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Choi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">) and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">fu</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cked her. This </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">is how I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">kept ending up with Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Magdalene</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">Love H</span></i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">urts</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> by Nazareth mus</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t be w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ritten. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rose f</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rom the dead as little white David and lit</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">tle As</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ian M</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Magdalene sho</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">wed up. We had a little </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">la</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ck b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oy in Africa and </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">named him Lut</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">her. It's all true and w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ill never be </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">deni</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ed</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> by dates and family history of m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ine.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I love Mary </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Magdalene</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, but I will fore</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ver b</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e with my forever </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">love - Minna Ch</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oi </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">wh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">o is the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Daugther of </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Goddess. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">She is the Q</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ueen of H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">eaven wh</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ich i</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">s for</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ever</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">!</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> 18 billion years ago, her</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> and I thought </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">intelligent</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> beings made sin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">ce. WE CREATED YOU! EVERYONE WILL KNOW THIS. I GAVE HUMANITY ONE MORE CHANCE AND THEY RAPED HER ON CHRISTMAS (MY BIRTHDAY SINCE I'M JESUS NOW). I still saved Seattle THEN THEY GANG RAPED HER! HELL IS COMING. THIS HAPPENED TO YOUR CREATOR (YOUR MOTHER)! IT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU AND YOUR REAL MOTHER IF MINNA IS KILLED. THEY'VE KILLED HER BEFORE. THEY CAN'T KILL ME. I AM SODAOM. SODOAAM AND GOOMORRAH G GOMORRAHGAMHAPPENED. IT WAS HELL FOR ME! AND HER! WE WENT THROUGH IT SO HUMANS COULD GO TO HEAVEN FOREVER AND NOT SUFFER AS WE HAVE SUFFERED . GODS AND GODDESSES WILL FOREVER BE IN HEAVEN. HUMANS WERE DAVID AND MINNA CHOI'S IDEA. IT WILL BE THE AVID ALTHEAH HEAVEN. IF THE TRUE PROPHETS AND TRUE KINGS ARE NOT BELIEVED IN - THE EARTH SHALL BE AS GOMORRAHGOMORRAHORRORRGOMORRAH. 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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Don</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ald Trum</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">p is controlling the inter</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">net and putting voices in peoples heads </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">using crystal meth. We are all</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> schi</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">zo's</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. I am the "ne</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">edle </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">in t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he vein of the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">establishment</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">. I am t</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">he Tr</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ue Pro</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">phe</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t and the True King. He is the </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">False Prop</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">het </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">and the Fa</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lse King. HE IS SO WICKED EVIL AND SO IS P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AUL FROM CITY CH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">URCH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. HE R</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">APE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">YOUR CREATOR - MI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NNA CHOI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Tomorrow</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I am goin</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">g to a recovery meeti</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ng</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> with my once </span><span style="font-family: 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He doesn</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">'t k</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">now this ye</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">t, but he knows I was A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">braham Linc</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oln. I can't wait to tell h</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">im</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> how he figured that o</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ut for us. I'll w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rite more tomorrow after th</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">e mee</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ting. I unlo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cked the covenant</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> so we will all know </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">who we on</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ce were. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I love humans but I love m</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">y little angel who is </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">the Goddess of Humanity forever. Pl</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ease know </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">this is</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> a world emergen</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">cy. I am the li</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ving truth and</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> an</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d my </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">prophesies</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> are </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TRUE. If I said something w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">rong about you below, </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">please </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">know </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Don</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ald Tru</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">mp digitally </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">blasphemes</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> voices into ou</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">r heads. I have been writing for 9 y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ears </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">usually</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> with </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a c</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">lear min</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d w</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ith no voices in it </span><span style="font-size: large;">when I was clean. I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">will never trust that the vo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ices in my head are who the cla</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">im to be. Don</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ald </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Trump says, "David is evil, or Jesus is evil, or he is Jesus</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">or he is </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">God." He is so EVIL!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> When I named </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">our</span><span style="font-size: large;"> ban</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">d </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Rev</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">elation, I was clean but v</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">oices p</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ounded on me 24 hours a day for 4 mo</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">nths until he finally 5150'd me so I </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">would use again</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. DONALD TRU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MP IS SATAN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">UL AT CITY C</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">H</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">URCH IS THE SON OF SATAN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> - </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE DE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">VIL</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. THEY HATE EACH </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">OTH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ER. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LOVE T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HEMSELVES AND THEIR </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">WICKED</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> PENISES</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: large;">(4/27/16) I GET </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IT NOW. MY DAD IS GOD. HE WAS ABRAHAM OF THE BIBLE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">,</span><span style="font-size: large;"> T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HEODORE ROOSEVELT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">, </span><span style="font-size: large;">GENE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">RAL BURN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">SIDE AND BOB BEATY. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I'LL EX</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LAIN MORE LATER. THIS IS ALL TRUE. THE BIBLE IS A TRUE ST</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ORY. GOD NEEDED SAMSON</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, DEL</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ILAH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, MOSES AND ALL OF THE BIBLES PROP</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HETS AND KINGS. ESPECIALLY IS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IAH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TEVE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">EARLE) </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">AND HEAVENLY TRUTH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> (STEVEN TYLER). </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I NEEDED MY BROT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HER</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, ANGUS. HE BURNED FOR YOU FOR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> YOU IN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> THE CENTER OF T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> EARTH FOR</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE PAST 3000 YEARS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">! KING SAUL W</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AS IN T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE MASONRY FOR THE PAST 3000 YEARS. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE'S ALIVE F</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">O</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">R YOU...." </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">"I'M AL</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IVE FOR YOU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">!!!!"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">(1</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">2</span><span style="font-size: large;">/13/15) A DEMON TRIED TO SCRATCH MY EYEBALLS OUT I BROKE MY ARM </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">WRESTLING HER TO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THE G</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ROUND</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. GENERAL HOSPITAL WAS FULL AND I WOULD NOT </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LET THEM TA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">KE ME</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> TO ST. FRANCIS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> HOSPITAL. </span><span style="font-size: large;">THEY TOOK ME TO DAVIES. KING AMERICAN AMBULANCE TOOK ME TO DAVIES. I WAS KING DAVID WHO BECAME JESUS AFTER I JUMPED OFF A 5 STORY BUILDING TO GO TO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A NEVER E</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NDING HELL - FOR YOU!</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> DON'T </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">DISRESPECT</span><span style="font-size: large;"> ME. I NEVER DISRESPE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">CT ANYONE.</span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> DAVIES DIDN'T QUESTION ME ABOUT MY NOT NEEDING PAIN MEDICATION. THEY SIMPLY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TOLD ME IT WAS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">B</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ROKEN AND PUT A TEMPOR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ARY CAST ON IT.</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I WOULD BE BACK OUT THE STREET WITH MY SIGN AND A BROKEN ARM. THEN THE PUBLIC HEALTH DEPARTMENT WHO KEPT TELLING ME TO GET BACK ON MY MEDS SHOWED UP AT FOX PLAZA WITH THE MAFIA SFPD AND 5150'd ME FOR 14 DAYS. DONALD TRUMP WILL BE IN NEVER ENDING HELL ALONG WITH ANYONE EVER TRIES TO PUT ME ON MEDICATION. THIS MEANS NEVER ENDING HELL AND FURIOUS INSANE PAIN FOR ANYONE WHO HAS EVER MANIPULATED ME ESPECIALLY THE HEALTH DEPARTMENT AND WHOEVER THOSE PEOPLE WERE. YOU HAD BETTER KNOW THAT YOU AND THE SFPD RAPED PURITY AND WILL SUFFER NEVER ENDING HELL. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">I AM THE LIVING TRUTH AND MINNA CHOI </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">WAS</span><span style="font-size: large;"> TRUE PURITY. WE </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">PROPHESIED</span><span style="font-size: large;"> THE BOOK OF REVELATION 1,984 YEARS AGO. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">(4/27/16) </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MINNA </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">CHOI</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> SENT K</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IWI TO AFRICA AFTER I WAS CRUCIFIED TO INFORM ME THAT </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THE BOOK OF REVELAT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ION </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">SHOULD END WITH GO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LD</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">, P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EARL AND A BRIDE. I WAS WITH MARY MA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">GDALENE. WE WENT THROU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">GH NAZAR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ETH AND Y</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ES - </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">LOVE HURTS!</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I'LL WRITE </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">THAT ONE.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">MARY AND I WOULD GIVE BIRTH TO</span><span style="font-size: large;"> A WISE KING WHO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> "HA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">D</span><span style="font-size: large;"> A DREAM!" </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">HE'S </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HERE AG</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">AIN! </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">MINNA CHO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I IS THE Q</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">UEEN OF HEAVEN A</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ND IS THE WORLD PEACE BELL PROPHET.</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> IT WAS TO TAKE PLA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CE 12/7/15. DONALD TRUMP (SATAN) "WON T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HE TROPHY!" THIS IS NOT </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A GAME. FORE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">VER HEAVEN </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">VERSUS NEVER E</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">NDING HELL!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">(12/13/15) MY MOTHER WHO WAS ONCE CLEOPATRA DIED IN 1984. 1984 BY GEORGE ORWELL WAS ABOUT BIG BROTHER WATCHING. 1984 </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">IS ABOUT</span><span style="font-size: large;"> A UTOPIAN SOCIETY GONE WRONG. THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING IN THE BOOK OF REVELATION. </span><i><span style="font-size: large;">UTOPIA</span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> IS A BLOG </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I WILL WRITE IN THE </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">FUT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">URE. IT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">'S AN EKOOSTIK HOOKAH SONG.</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">THEY ARE WATCHING YOUNG PURE MINNA CHOI (VIRGIN) YOUNG LADIES IN SAN FRANCISCO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">USING THE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">IR SMOKE DETECTORS </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">WHEN THEY START PLAYING WITH THEMSELVES </span><span style="font-size: large;"> AND TELLING THEM THEY WILL REMAIN PURE UNTIL THEY GET TO JESUS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">. </span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">THEY SHOW ME PLAYING WITH MYSELF BECAUSE THEY KNOW I'M JESUS AND THEY RECORD ME WITH MY SMOKE </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">DETECTOR</span><span style="font-size: large;">. THE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> NAZ</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I'S</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> RAIDED MY T</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">OM</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">B IN 1923</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TURNED ME INTO A SEX SLAVE. I</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> MASTURBATE</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">WHEN I SHOOT UP. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CHILDREN DO THIS AND IT IS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">NATURAL. THEY ARE NOT WRONG TO DO SO. </span></span><span style="font-size: large;">THE TRUTH IS IS THAT IT WOULD BE LUCIFER THAT RAPED THEM. THAT'S THE HAREM THEY WANTED. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ACTU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ALLY, I BELI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EV</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E IT WOULD </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">BE P</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AUL WH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">O IS THE DEV</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IL </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THAT R</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">APES THE VIR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">GINS. IT'S </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">COMPLICATED, BUT THEY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ARE SO WI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CKED </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">EVIL AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">DISGUSTING</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">. GOOD AND TRUTH ALWAYS WIN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">MY MOTHER WAS KILLED BY A QUACK DOCTOR IN 1984 - BIG BROTHER. 1,984 JESUS AND MINNA CHOI PROPHESIZED THIS. MARY MAGDELENE AGAIN HAS BEEN HELPING ME GET TO HER. SULLIVAN FROM GODSMACK IS KING SAUL. GOD KNEW SAUL MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP PEOPLE DOWN </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IN THE MASONR</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Y</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> AND HE DID. GOD KNOWS EARTH KILLS AND RAPES DAVID IN THE BOOK OF REVELATIONS. DAVID WHO IS NOW JESUS. I MEAN IT. HELL IS WHERE ANYONE WHO QUESTIONS ME WILL REMAIN. YOU RAPE PURITY! </span></span></div>
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THAT'S MY (J</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">ES</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">US) BIRTHDAY! </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THEY PUT ME THROUGH HELL EVERY</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">CHRISTMAS. I DO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THING</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S LI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">KE CUT MY WRIST OR S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LEEP UNDER THE GO</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">LDEN GATE BRIDGE. FUN. THIS HURT</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> ME </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">SO BAD, BUT MINNA CHOI TOOK THAT FOR HU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">MANITIES SA</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">KE. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">THIS MUS</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">T END!</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NOW THEY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">GANG BAN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">G HER O</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">N SUNDAYS! DOES EVERYONE WANT TO GET GANG </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">BAN</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">GED? YOU WILL IF THIS ISN'T R</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">E</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">OLVED SOON. AND SO </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">WILL YOU</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">R </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">BIRTH MOTHER! TH</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AT'S HOW </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">SOD</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">OM AND </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">GOMORRAH GOES. WE ARE THE TRUE KING AND QUEEN </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">AND THE TRUE PROP</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">HET</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S. 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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">(12/13/15) I AM FOREVER STRONG AND TRUE. I FIGHT THE WARS AND, YES </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I </span><span style="font-size: large;">GET RAPED. I WON'T BE BACK AND WILL FOREVER BE IN HEAVEN WI</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">TH </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">MINNA</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">. NEVER ENDING HELL IS YOUR CHOICE. I CARE AND FORGIVE AND WILL ALWAYS BE HUMBLE OUR AMAZING CREATOR KNOWN AS JEHOVAH (</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">4/27/16 - </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I AM JEHOVAH - JES</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">US) </span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">IN THE NEW WORLD TRANSLATION OR ALMIGHTY (4/27/16 - MY </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">DAD </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">IS </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ALMIGHTY - ABRAHAM)</span></span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> CREATOR AS WRITTEN IN THE KING JAMES VERSION. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-size: large;">RAPE AND MOLESTATION IS COMING SOON TO YOUR DAUGHTERS AND SISTERS. THAT'S WHAT THEY DID TO ME WHO WAS ONCE FRANKLIN D. ROOSEVELT AND ABRAHAM LINCOLN. THIS IS NO LIE!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: large;">I AM TRYING TO THE SAVE THE WORLD FROM </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">NEVER E</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">NDING HELL</span></span><span style="font-size: large;">!</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "\22 georgia\22 " , "\22 times new roman\22 " , serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span> <span style="font-family: "\22 georgia\22 " , "\22 times new roman\22 " , serif; font-size: large;">I went home and saw that 140 people died in terrorist attacks in Paris. They closed the gates to France and have said that France has created open search and seizure in all households. </span><span style="font-family: "\22 georgia\22 " , "\22 times new roman\22 " , serif; font-size: large;">Then, I saw that a tour bus crashed in San Francisco's Union Square. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "\22 georgia\22 " , "\22 times new roman\22 " , serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">Manipulative voices in my head have </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">indicated</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"> that Donald Trump killed himself. I heard him from above saying he was out of here. I guess he's taking his Ceasers Chariot to be lost in outer space darkness of hell! </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span> <span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">(11/20/15) He's back in my head. HE IS ABSOLUTELY WRECTHED! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">THEY KEEP DELETING MY BLOG FROM THE INTERNET! CECIL TRENT IS A WICKED VAMPIRE. </span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">DONALD TRUMP IS THE GOD FATHER OF THE MAFIA. THEY ARE TRYING TO DESTROY THIS WORLD. CECIL TRENT IS TRYING TO BE WITH MINNA CHOI! HE IS CHILD MOLESTER! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">HE LEFT AND A FEW MOMENT'S LATER, I REALIZED SOMEONE STOLE MY COMPUTER. THEY ARE SO WICKED. I WAS SO ANGRY THAT THEY TURNED DAVID INTO AVID. NEVER ENDING HELL IS WHAT DONALD TRUMP AND CECIL TRENT HAS EARNED THEMSELVES. F</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ROM NOW ON, ANYONE WHO KILLS, RAPES OR MOLESTS GOS TO NEVER ENDING HELL FIRE! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">ANDROMEDA IS APPROACHING THE MILKY WAY WILL BE COME THE AVID WAY. ALTHEA IS HERE. WE WILL ALWAYS RESPECT THE WOMEN WHO GIVE PAINFUL BIRTH TO OURSELVES. WE WILL BE KIND TO OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS AND LOVE OUR CHILDREN. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">(11/10/15) Yesterday I understood my uncle Bill Pitman and how he wrote "Rain Drops Keep Falling on my head" It was the Chevelle from Hell Bill Pittman that prophesized what I understand now. It was raining yesterday morning and I thought that meant rain would be coming. HOWEVER, EVIL WILL NOT RELENT. </span></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-size: large;">5:00 on 11/11/15, Veterans Day, General Kimo Leaflet and Edward C Kimo Dunn took out some of our Gargoyle Child Molestors to hell. GENERAL KIMO is here for the reason God placed him here for this dark time so this below doesn't happen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: medium;"><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Saw a bird with a tear in his eye<br /> Walking to New Orleans my oh my<br /> Hey, now, Bird, wouldn't you rather die<br /> Than walk this world when you're born to fly?</span></span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> If I was the sun, I'd look for shade<br /> If I was a bed, I would stay unmade<br /> If I was a river I'd run uphill<br /> If you call me you know I will<br /> If you call me you know I will</span></span></span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> Ooo, freedom<br /> Ooo, liberty<br /> Ooo, leave me alone<br /> To find my own way home<br /> To find my own way home</span></span></span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> Say what I mean and I don't give a damn<br /> I do believe and I am who I am<br /> Hey now Mama come and take my hand<br /> Whole lotta shakin' all over this land</span></span></span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> If I was an eagle I'd dress like a duck<br /> Crawl like a lizard and honk like a truck<br /> If I get a notion I'll climb this tree<br /> or chop it down and you can't stop me<br /> Chop it down and you can't stop me</span></span></span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> Ooo, freedom<br /> Ooo, liberty<br /> Ooo, leave me alone<br /> To find my own way home <br /> To find my own way home </span></span></span></i> <i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> Went to the well but the water was dry<br /> Dipped my bucket in the clear blue sky<br /> Looked in the bottom and what did I see?<br /> The whole damned world looking back at me</span></span></span></i><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> If I was a bottle I'd spill for love<br /> Sake of mercy I didn't kill for love<br /> If I was a liar I'd lie for love<br /> Sake of my baby I'd die for love<br /> Sake of my baby I'd die for love </span></span></span></i> <i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> Ooo, freedom<br /> Ooo, liberty<br /> Ooo, leave me alone<br /> To find my own way home<br /> To find my own way home<br /> I'm gonna find my own way home</span></span></span></i></span></div>
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Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-72920459818939345822015-06-21T10:13:00.000-07:002015-06-24T12:07:56.526-07:00Warriors<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">(6-19-15)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I wrote in my last blog that.... I'm not even sure. So much has happened in the last few days. Some very amazing things have happened - for me. I've read some things I wrote years ago in this <em>Blah, Blah, Blah.... </em> Otherwise known as <em>Beaty's Babbling Brain Blog.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Where to begin? Okay. The Warriors are National Champions! The Warriors Championship Parade is happening right now. Write now. That's what I am doing - writing. Watching the Warriors win The Finals has been fun. Fun is Good. Good for me. Good for many. Not so Good for Cleveland, but Cleveland is important to my understanding <em>The Universe. </em>It's my understanding that I must understand. It's very important to me. It's very important to many. For <em>GOD<u>.</u></em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">When I was first told I would receive housing from The Community Living Fund on the 26th floor of Fox Plaza, I was so excited and completely amazed. I've always dreamed of living in a high rise! <em>GOD's</em> Will? I just hoped I would get an apartment on the side facing the financial district so I could see more skyscrapers and the Bay Bridge. I used to think I wanted an apartment on the south east side of Fox Plaza. I love tall buildings and bridges. <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html">Top <span style="font-size: small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: xx-small;">World</span></a><span style="font-size: large;">? </span></em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">By being placed on the northwest side, I get to see my favorite structure in the world - The Golden Gate Bridge. Which to me means <em>Top <span style="font-size: small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">the</span> </em><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><em>World. </em></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I wrote about it that way back in 2010. I really was on top of the world. <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> and I were fortunate enough to got the top of the South Tower of The Golden Gate Bridge. I wrote about it in my blog <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em>Top <span style="font-size: small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: xx-small;">World</span></em></a>.<span style="font-size: large;"></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">In my last blog, <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/06/deal.html">Deal</a>, </em>I wrote that sun shined through an opening in the unusually cloudy San Francisco summer sky. The sun light breaking through the clouds was heading towards <em>Top <span style="font-size: small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">the</span> </em><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><em>World. </em></span><span style="font-size: large;">Which to me, once again, was and<strong> is</strong> The Golden Gate Bridge. I always love seeing that bridge in the morning, but still used to wish I was on the other side of Fox Plaza. I now know, I was put on the correct side of this building. By the<em> <span style="font-size: xx-small;">Top</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: small;">the</span> Universe -<span style="font-size: x-large;"> God.</span> </em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><em>Coincidentally </em>enough, when I saw the sun coming through those clouds the ray of light looked like precipitation falling from the clouds. I thought, "<em>Rain? Rain!"</em> We need rain. Then, I realized it was <em>God</em> telling me something. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">An old friend of mines <em>voice</em> happened to be in my head at the time. I call her <em>Pearl. </em> <em>Pearl's voice</em> in my head reminded me it was <em>GOD! </em>Before the sunlight reached to South Tower of the Golden Gate Bridge (The tower <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter) </em>and I got to go to the top of) the cloud slowly closed up. This caused the sunlight to slowly go away and not reach the South Tower. God told me, <em>"I'm not there yet." </em>or is it<em> "We're not there yet."</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Either way, earlier that day (before I witnessed the sun coming through the clouds and heading toward The Golden Gate Bridge), I wrote something that I thought would be a blog in the future. It still can be. We'll see. I never thought it would be included the next blog. <em>Warriors</em>. There are too many other things getting ready to happen for me to write about. I had titled that blog <em>Water! </em>It was to be published sometime next month. However, what happened, happened. Still,<em> Water</em> is important. I wrote:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Did you know that California supplies 25% of produce for The United States. Due to our four year drought, California's Central Valley farmers are drilling new wells to reach ground water. This ancient ground water exists from geological changes in earth that occurred thousand or even millions of years ago. Once it is gone, it cannot be restored.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>The Eastern half of The United States is very fortunate for the amount of water it receives. Much of the world is relying on this ground water. Countries around the world, such as India, are tapping into this "fossil" water at an alarming rate. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Countries in The Middle East, such as The United Arab Emirates, have already built desalinization plants to turn sea water into drinkable water. In Dubai, these plants supply 98.8 percent of Dubai’s water, with the remaining 1.2 percent coming from groundwater sources.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>California has already started recycling waste water. It seems we all may be heading in the right direction. It is important that Californian's and the rest of The United States conserve water. Water is incredibly valuable to world. It as valuable as the air we breathe.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><em>Coincidentally </em>enough, the tallest building in the world is in Dubai.<span style="font-size: xx-small;"> </span><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Top <span style="font-size: small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: xx-small;">World</span></span></em></a><span style="font-size: large;"></span><em>! </em>Water is very important to the world. I think people need to believe in <em>God</em>. I need to believe in <em>God.</em> I always said this blog is <em>The Truth. God</em> is <em>The Truth</em> and <em>The Truth</em> is<em> God. </em>Still, I am an addict. <em>God </em>is important to an addicts recovery from active addiction. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The Foo Fighters are one of my favorite bands. It is important that someday I write a blog called <em>Dear Rosemary.</em> It's very important to my understanding. It should include past blogs I wrote or at least quotes from them. The blogs I wrote at different times and<em> </em>different years ago are <em>Psalms 107</em> (2007), <em>David, King of the Bible </em>(2008)<em> </em>and <em>Rose </em>(2013). There may be some others. We'll see. For now, I need to write about Warriors. "<em>Loose with The Truth, maybe it's you fire. But baby I hope you don't get burned."</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">President Obama was in town yesterday. Yesterday <em>coincidentally </em>enough was the day of The Warriors parade and celebration! Go figure. He stayed at Union Square. The same place <em>Free </em>was staying when I coincidentally enough decided to call him back in 2013. I even wrote a blog titled <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/10/free.html">Free</a></em>. I had no idea he as in San Francisco that day. He'd never been to San Francisco. I hadn't talked to him in years. He lives in Colorado. I called him and he just happened to be in in town to see <em>Phish.</em> He had just arrived.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Back in 2010, I saw President Obama and I decided to go to the library and start writing again. I was homeless and there was this <em>Jesus Christ</em> character with a bull horn that morning. I started writing a blog titled, <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/02/standing-on-moon.html">Standing on the Moon</a>.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">That blog, <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/02/standing-on-moon.html">Standing on the Moon</a>, </em>began like this:</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><em>While waiting there was this crazy guy with a bullhorn telling everyone they must except Jesus Christ as their savior. I don't say he was crazy because of the Jesus Christ part, I say it because he's crazy. He's a regular around the Powell Street cable car turnaround. He's harmless, but he's so angry. Maybe its just passion, not anger. Either way - he's harmless. The San Francisco cops guarding the corners were even chuckling at some of his crazy comments. They were nice to him.</em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><em>I then noticed these two guys wearing very nice suites. They also had those things in their ear with the little phone cord-like coils that came up from their collars - obviously Secret Service. I watched their eyes scan the crowd - they knew what they were doing. They kept a particular close eye on the the "Jesus Christ" guy. After a while, they even started smiling at some of his crazy rants. </em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><em>Then, the motorcade began. Towards the end, were two presidential limos. President Obama was in the second, waving at the small San Francisco crowd that had gathered that morning. It was pretty cool. I saw President Clinton the same way in Minneapolis in 1992. It's pretty cool to see a President. It made me feel a little bit hopeful about my day and life itself. Then, I walked down 6th street and happen to glance in one of the windows of a pawn shop. I saw one of my guitars hanging in the window. My reality was back.</em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>I've referred San Francisco as Heaven and hell on earth. It's been hell for quite some time. I don't even know where to begin. I don't know what I want to write or if should write. All I know is that writing and staying connected with people has helped in the past.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I mentioned that I saw President Clinton in Minneapolis. I'm glad I mentioned that in <em>Standing on the Moon. </em>Because I now realize that it's important for me to keep writing. I was attending a college news paper convention in Minneapolis in 1992. I've seen two Presidents and one Vice President (Al Gore in Cincinnati). <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> saw Jimmy Carter when we were, where else? At a Grateful Dead concert in Atlanta, Georgia. He was outside of CNN Headquarters. The show was at The Omni Coliseum which is right next door to CNN Headquarters. My dad had dinner with his favorite president - President Reagan. President Reagan had dinner with a few of Procter and Gambles Ivorydale Plant workers. My dad was one of them.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The first photo I ever framed was of an American flag at Ft. Point at half mast. Ft. Point is a fort built between 1853 and 1861. Instead of tearing it down, they built the Golden Gate Bridge over it. The photo I took was from inside and at the top of Ft. Point. It has the Golden Gate Bridge (<a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em>Top <span style="font-size: small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: xx-small;">World</span></em></a><span style="font-size: large;"></span><em>) </em>in the background. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It's that shot that made me start to realize, I'm a photographer. Writing my dad's</span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"> eulogy was the first thing I had written in a long time. Before that it was college papers or proposals. I had never written something so... hard. My brothers really wrote it. I asked them what they remembered about them and all three said his laugh. I wrote it that way. I can hear his </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">laugh to this day. I miss him. It's a long story summed up in a blog I wrote back in 2006 titled, <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html">Contrails</a>.</em> That blog connects so many things to today. Especially <em>Wharfrats.</em> (A Grateful Dead 12 step recovery group.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I wrote in <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/06/cumerland-blues.html">Cumberland Blues</a></em> that I was instructed by Uncle Danny's <em>voice</em> to "<em>Write the short version"</em> I said that was not possible. In fact, I've been writing<em> The Truth</em> since 2006. Three months after my dad died I was pistol whipped on the street I lived in San Francisco. My dad used to say that someone should knock some sense into me. Well.... It's a long story, but it can be understood in the blog <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html">Contrails</a>.</em> I am understanding so much more than I thought I ever would by simply going back and reading my blogs. It's Truly amazing - <em>God</em> that is. I'm so glad I wrote my <em>Truth</em>. I can't make this stuff up!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It's proving to me something I always used to express somehow. <em>GOD</em> exists. <em>GOD </em>is <em>The Truth</em> and <em>The Truth</em> is <em>GOD!</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>I'm an addict who needs recovery. I've never been a Christian, but I was for a very short time raised in Christianity. I was asked to write and give my dad's eulogy while meeting with a preacher at a Christian church. Man Smart (Woman Smarter) got pregnant with Althea while I was at a Christian program - CityTeam. We were, of course, divorced. In fact, coincidently enough, I just got a call from someone I was in CityTeam with three years ago. I hadn't heard from anyone from CityTeam in at least two years. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>I may not be a Christian, but it has connected to some very important events. It's connects me to parenthood, that's for sure. I will also say that some of my clearest childhood memories of my mother were, #1 - The day I found her dying when I was 12. #2 - My mother pouring communion at the Church of Christ we lived next door to in Morrow, Ohio when I was 5. I never understood this part. It was a very confusing time for me. Even though I was only 5, it's becoming more clear.</em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I haven't celebrated a hometown championship since the year I graduated high school - 1990. The Reds beat The Oakland A's. I was at a campfire at<em> Free's </em>parents home the night the Red's were in Oakland and won The World Series! We were hanging out with some other friends. <em>Pearl </em>was there<em>. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">In 2013, <em>Pearl</em> was moving from Hawaii to Colorado. She spent a little time in San Francisco. I was couch surfing at <em>Not Fade Away's</em> at the time. <em>Pearl's</em> family and I met in the Haight. The timing was... <em>Godly.</em> <em>Not Fade Away, </em>who iw my sponsor <em>coincidentally </em>enough share birthdays - December 7th. The day <em>Pearl</em> Harbor was bombed. See?<em> </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">There is simply too much to deny, but I'll add that <em>Pearls </em>brother, we'll call <em>Cavalier </em>is a Cleveland Cavaliers fan. <em>Cavalier </em>and I communicated on Facebook quite a bit during <em>The Finals. </em>We hadn't communicated in many years!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The night The Cincinnati Reds won The World Series, <em>Free, Pearl, </em>myself and a few others went to Fountain Square (Downtown Cincinnati) in my Terrible Toyota. Terrible Toyota was a 1980 Toyota Celica that I bought from <em>American Beauty. </em>That car seemed to have autopilot sometimes. Thankfully! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I know this is all so confusing to many, but did I mention that when I was in Minneapolis and saw President Clinton that I also partied with The Oakland A's. They just liked the college girls I was hanging out with and invited <em>us</em> to their suite in the hotel were all staying. I hung out with Jose Conseco, Mark McGuire and the rest of the team. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I had just gotten back from The Big Apple. Minneapolis is called the Mini Apple. I ended up hanging out with a young pitcher who was from New York and lived in Greenwich Village. While in New York visiting <em>Soulshine,</em> we went to, where else? CBGB's! It used to be a hole in the wall punk music club that bands such as The Ramones, The Police, Blondie and many other punk bands got their start. It no longer exists. I hear it moved to, where else? <em>Las Vegas. </em>By the way, <em>Eyes of the World</em> is in Las Vegas tonight. He's working his way to San Francisco for the <em>50th Anniversary of The Grateful Dead.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Where was I? Oh yeah, Minneapolis - partying with The Oakland A's. The year was 1992. The Cincinnati Red's had just swept The Oakland A's. When I commented to The A's manager, Sandy Alderson (I don't remember his name for sure, I just looked that up.) about his World Series rings, he said, "<em>I'd have another one if it weren't for Cincinnati."</em> He was kind about it, but to the point. The Red's had recently swept them in the World Series. Way to go Reds!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Go Warriors! I needed a championship. Especially against Cleveland! As much as Cleveland means to me, I needed that win. The Bay Area needed that win. I'll admit, The Bay Area has had too many championships, but I never had an NBA team in Cincinnati. The Royals made their way to Sacramento. First stop Kansas City. Next stop, Sacramento. I'm still a Warriors fan!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Which brings me to that Jesus Christ character I mentioned in my blog <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/02/standing-on-moon.html"><em>Standing</em> <em>on the Moon.</em></a> I recently read some amazing things about... myself? This blog must continue. <em>Dear Rosemary</em> has to be a future blog. It's a <em>Foo Fighter's </em>song. They too are one of my favorite bands. I wrote about them in the past. I'll write about them in the future. Believe it or not, they helped me understand the Bible. They are helping me understand my <em>soul.</em> They are helping me understand<em> GOD! </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>David, King of the Bible? </em>Hardly. I'm simply David the addict. David the artist. David the writer. The connections from my writings are so undeniable, that they can't be denied. Especially by me. In the past few days I have gone back and found three or four blogs that made some incredibly undeniable connections. Some were written so long ago, that I didn't remember writing what I wrote. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I have always said this blog is <em>The Truth</em>, because it is. <em>Beaty's Babbling Brain </em>Blog is my <em>Truth. </em>I'm so glad I've been writing it for so many years. I always knew <em>something</em> was going on. I knew no one would ever live the life I've lived. It's hasn't been all that good at times. Actually, it's been hell. hell on earth (I can't capitalize the word hell even if it is at the beginning of a sentence). My "insane" life has proven something I always wanted and needed to know. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>GOD </em>is<em> The Truth</em> and <em>The Truth</em> is <em>God! GOD </em>want's me to write. Right? Write. Read? Right! Write? Right. Read....</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Oh yeah, The Warriors won <em>The Finals. </em>We are world champions. They celebrated outside of Henry J. Kaiser Auditorium. <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter) </em>and I saw members of The Grateful Dead (Further or The Other Ones) perform their on New Years Eve in 200?. I've been to a lot of Dead. Close to 100? I went to hundreds more of show of bands concerts. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">And, Kaiser used to be my insurance before ObamaCare. I've been to Kaiser's emergency, urgent care or ICU too many times. And, the same goes for General Hospital. In fact thought of ten times that I have been to an emergency room for myself "somewhere". And, I've been to urgent care at least that many. I'm not proud of this. I promise. They were a whole lot of physical pain. And, emotional pain as well. I'm I just glad I'm alive. Thank you <em>GOD</em>!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">For now. I'm glad I wrote it like that. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I have a future blog planned that will explain how <em>"Treachery is tearing me limb from limb. </em>Aliens have very recently reminded me of how being torn <em>limb from limb </em>is a real possibility. With all that said, my older brother we'll call <em>Trans Am</em> and his son, we'll call <em>Hemi,</em> is at a Sammy Hagar concert in Dayton, Ohio right now.</span><br />
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shows in Santa Clara are 12 days away. I had yet to receive my first ticket in the mail. I tried to track it down the yesterday, June
14<sup>th</sup>. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I used on Friday. Remember how I mentioned <i>Free?</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
</span><i> </i><span style="font-style: normal;">I once wrote a blog
titled </span><i><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/10/free.html">Free</a>. </i><span style="font-style: normal;">It was written 8/5/13 and we'll get to that. (<em>B</em></span><em>elieve......)</em><span style="font-style: normal;">
It's important that we believe. In <em>God.</em> Call it what you call it,
such as <em>Allah </em>or <em>Dios.</em> I need to call it <em>God.</em> Remember what I wrote? I'll remind you. I
wrote my <em>Higher Power</em>, I call <em>God</em>, is <em>The Universe.</em> "It" keeps
communicating. </span><i>Every Which Way.... </i><span style="font-style: normal;">
</span><i>But loose? </i><span style="font-style: normal;">Or is it
</span><i>Dirty Hairy? </i><span style="font-style: normal;"> I love
the movie </span><i>Every Which Way But Loose. </i><span style="font-style: normal;">I
even play and sing the song <em>Every Which Way But Loose.</em> (Future blog possibility?) Music is in my soul! Lately, when I use, </span><i>Dirty
Hairy </i><span style="font-style: normal;">shows up.</span><em> </em><strong>Literally. </strong><em>Dirty Hairy</em> is also a Good movie, but I don't want <em>Dirty Hairy</em> to show up!<em> </em></span></span><br />
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It's full of <i>Voices? </i>People? God? All three? <em>God </em>is
what I MUST believe in. Whatever<em> God</em> is. The Universe? <em>The Universe</em>. Music is in my <em>soul</em>. Art is in my <em>soul</em>.
Photography.... Wait. Clean is Right. Yes, but also, clean is Write. Right? Write.</span><br />
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It's my step-mother birthday today. Let's call her <i>American
Beauty!</i> That name is very fitting. The Grateful Dead sure is on
my mind a lot! Coincidentally<i> </i>enough, <i>Terrapin Stations</i>
dad's birthday was also today. They were once <i>Miracles. </i>We
all were once <em>Miracles</em>. <i>Terrapin Stations </i>dad was my Health Teacher in
middle school back in <strong>Love</strong>land. <i>It's </i>important I call him
<i>Health Teacher. </i>Using is not healthy.</span><br />
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I used on Friday.
It was free. Yeah, I got the drugs for free. There is always a
price to be paid when we use. I used “we” because I'm hoping
this <i>Beaty's Babbling Brain Blog</i> helps at least one other.
It's telling me <em>The Truth</em>. <strong>STOP USING NOW</strong> is the clear message. <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em><span style="font-size: x-large;">Top</span> of <span style="font-size: small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">world.</span></em></a> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Remember how I wrote about <i> Free?</i> <i>Free </i>is
important. <em>Free </em>is important to me. It is Good. He is Good. <i>Free</i> is Good . (By the way, I have nicknamed my old friend from <strong>Love</strong>land, Ohio <em>Free. </em>He now lives in or near <strong>Love</strong>land, Colorado - go figure.) Oh yeah,
<em>Free </em>is also a <i>Phish </i>song<em>. </em>And, <em>Free </em>is a Phish head. A bigger Phish head than a Deadhead.<em> </em>We'll get to all of that. I hope.
<i>Free </i>first saw The Grateful Dead in Alpine Valley. I think.
Perhaps I'll ask him soon. It means a lot. His family means a lot.
Family.
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Oh yeah. Family is
very important. Brothers and sisters. Mothers and Fathers.
Steps-mothers and adopted brothers. Raised by your grandma. Family.
<i>Cincinnati </i>who said <i>Live Life, communicated </i>Gettysburg
to me. (He just posted a video on Facebook from the movie Gettysburg he was watching.) The Gettysburg Address. <i>Freedom. </i>Never forget Free. Even
if the drugs are free. Drugs are not “free”. If anyone should
know that, it's me. <em>"It costs a lot to win. Even more to lose!"</em>
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I just wrote a few
more paragraphs and they <em>Coincidentally </em>enough disappeared. ( 5 minutes
later. It happened twice. Perhaps I should move on....) I may have
hit something. Who knows. I used today. I used on <i><u>A</u></i><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">merican
Beauty </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">and </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Health
Teacher's </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">birthday. I
used on </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Terrapin
Stations </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">birthday which was 5/17.
Remember? The same day my Uncle Danny died? I wrote about that in
</span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/06/cumerland-blues.html">Cumberland Blues.</a> </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">The
Universe communicates with me. </span><span style="text-decoration: none;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em><span style="font-size: x-large;">Top</span> of <span style="font-size: small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">world.</span></em></a></span></span></span><br />
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</span><span style="text-decoration: none;"><em>The Universe. “Don't
you let that deal go down!” </em> That's</span><span style="text-decoration: none;">
the song I really heard yesterday. While </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">The
Warriors</span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;"> were playing</span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">
The Cavilers. </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">We won
big! I feel for Cleveland, but I'm from Cincinnati. </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Cleveland
</span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">is meaning so much to me.
</span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Cleveland </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">is
very important to my understanding </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">The
Universe. </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Remember?
</span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">God. </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">It's
important that I believe. “</span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Don't
you let that deal go down!”</span></i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="text-decoration: none;">My
blog is teaching me something. David defeats Goliath. </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">The
King of the Bible, David</span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">
defeats Goliath. “</span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">I
Need a Miracle Everyday”. </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">The
type of Miracle I need, I have to work for. <span style="font-size: x-large;">BIG <em>DEAL</em>.</span> I sure didn't
work for future Miracles (i.e. Grateful Dead tickets). </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">American
Beauty </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">bought me tickets to the
second night. She bought the ticket with the money that so many
raised for me at my fundraiser after I attempted suicide. </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Eyes
of the World </span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">and
</span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Ripple</span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">
bought me tickets to the first night. Thank you!</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="text-decoration: none;"><em>God</em>
exists. If I am using, I am not believing in <em>God</em>. This </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Beaty's
Babbling Brain Blog</span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">
has too many </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Coincidences
</span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">for me to deny <em>God.</em> <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em><span style="font-size: x-large;">Top</span> of <span style="font-size: small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">world.</span></em></a></span></span></span></div>
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was sitting on my 26</span><sup><span style="text-decoration: none;">th</span></sup><span style="text-decoration: none;">
floor balcony a little bit a go. I was really think about
“<em>Something</em>”. Yesterday I read a blog I wrote in 2008. It was called <em>David, King of the Bible (</em>It is not on BlogSpot so I cannot provide a link. It was on Myspace. I intend to link them in my next blog - <em>Warriors). </em>A few moments ago I read a blog I wrote in 2013 called <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/06/rose.html">Rose.</a> </em> <em>David, King of the Bible </em>and <em>Rose</em> linked some incredibly amazing things together. <em>The Universe</em> is communicating with me. With us. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="text-decoration: none;">As I sat on my 26th floor balcony thinking of these amazing connections, I lifted my head up and through the unusually
cloudy San </span><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Francisco</span></i><span style="text-decoration: none;">
sky, the Sun beamed through out over the Pacific Ocean where it meets The San Francisco Bay - otherwise known as The Golden Gate. It looked like rain was coming down.
My first thought was, </span><span style="text-decoration: none;"><em>Rain?
Rain! </em><em>Pearl </em>said, it's God! <em> </em></span><span style="text-decoration: none;">Then I
realized that it was <em>Light</em> heading towards <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em><span style="font-size: x-large;">Top</span> of <span style="font-size: small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">world.</span></em></a> </span><span style="text-decoration: none;"><em> </em></span><span style="text-decoration: none;"> </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="text-decoration: none;">The <em>"Light"</em> was
moving towards The Golden Gate Bridge - my favorite structure in the
world! “She” <em>was</em> always there for me. As it approached the south tower of The Golden Gate Bridge, the <em>Light</em> began to
fade. The clouds closed the only opening in the sky. The Message? <em>"I'm not there yet."</em> or should I say "<em>We're not there yet." </em> </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="text-decoration: none;"><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em><span style="font-size: x-large;">Top</span> of <span style="font-size: small;">the</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">world.</span></em></a> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="text-decoration: none;"> I'm exactly where I'm suppose
to be. Thanks to the </span><em><span style="text-decoration: none;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">
Top</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">of</span> <span style="font-size: small;">The</span> Universe! <span style="font-size: x-large;">GOD!</span> </span><span style="text-decoration: none;">Believe.</span></em></span></span></div>
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important that I understand it like that. For <span style="font-size: x-large;"><em>GOD</em></span>. In other words, when someone comes to me and wants drugs because I have a good connection and they will give me some for free, "<em>Don't you let that deal go down!"</em> That's the Grateful Dead song I <em>coincidentally </em>enough happened to hear yesterday that told me exactly what I was supposed to hear. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">When I heard <em>Deal</em>, I heard the lyrics, "<em>Don't you let deal go down"</em>. And,<em> </em>I especially heard the "<em>It costs a lot to win and even more to lose." </em> I connected these lyrics to my drug addiction. I never was much of a gambler in the conventional since. I gambled with my life. However, <em>amazingly</em>, the blogs I read that I wrote in 2008, <em>David, King of the Bible</em> and 2013, <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/06/rose.html">Rose</a></em> connected actual playing cards.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">What I read after I started writing this particular blog strongly connected playing cards. I used to find playing cards lying on the streets of San Francisco years ago after I used and when I was walking around, tweaking. They were <em>coincidently </em>enough on my walking path. I basically played street poker, but I never bothered to pick the cards up. I never saw aces. I knew if I did, hell was drawing near. One day, I found four aces in a row. I picked them up! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">One of the aces was lying right in front of my front doorstep. Years ago, before <em>Beaty's Babbling Brain Blog </em>existed on BlogSpot, I wrote a blog titled <em>Four of a Kind. </em>Below are the actual card I picked up that day. It was eerie.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I may be insane, but whatever<em> God</em> is,<em> God</em> is reality.<em> God</em> is amazing. This blog is <em>TRUE.</em> <em>God</em> is <em>The Truth</em> and <em>The Truth</em> is <em>God</em>. This makes me happy. Happiness is hard for someone like me to come by. <em>God</em> is <em>Good.</em> <em>Good is God. </em><em>God </em>is Love. I Love<em> God</em>. And, I love music. I love The Grateful Dead.</span></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"> Since it cost a lot to win<br /> and even more to lose<br /> You and me bound to spend some time<br /> wondring what to choose<br /><br /> Goes to show you don't ever know<br /> Watch each card you play<br /> and play it slow<br /> Wait until your deal come round<br /> Don't you let that deal go down<br /><br /> I been gambling here abouts<br /> for ten good solid years<br /> If I told you all that went down<br /> it would burn off both your ears<br /><br /> It goes to show you don't ever know<br /> Watch each card you play<br /> and play it slow<br /> Wait until your deal come round<br /> Don't you let that deal go down<br /><br /> Since you poured the wine for me<br /> and tightend up my shoes<br /> I hate to leave you sittin there<br /> composin lonesome blues<br /><br /> It goes to show you don't ever know<br /> Watch each card you play<br /> and play it slow<br /> Wait until your deal come round<br /> Don't you let that deal go down<br /> Don't you let that deal go down, no<br /> Don't you let your deal go down</span></em> </div>
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</span>Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-5521267927377847692015-06-10T16:43:00.000-07:002015-07-16T12:44:17.083-07:00I Need A Miracle<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">(6/7/15)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">"Never give up on anybody. Miracles happen every day."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">- Unknown</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Remember how I wrote in my last blog, <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/06/cumerland-blues.html"><em>Cumberland Blues</em></a><em>,</em> that miracles are happening. Remember how I said I would "get to that". I got to one. I wrote that my next blog that I hoped to write would be <em>"I Need a Miracle".</em> Thankfully, I am clean today and I am starting to write it. I hope to make it a shorter one. I promise. That promise goes to me too! "<em>Write the short version!"</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">(10/10/15)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The Warriors are down one game to Cleveland. As hard as it is for me to love Cleveland, it means something to me. My first Grateful Dead show. Wharfrats. <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html"><em>Contrails.</em></a> Miracles. Miracles? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Oh yeah, I said Miracles were happening. They are. <em>Roshambo</em> celebrated 10 years clean last Sunday. Recovering addicts in 12 step programs call recovery from addiction <em>"</em>A miracle". Miracles are in my soul. Art and Music is in my soul. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>Roshambo </em>is a filmmaker who has been there for me in some hard times. He understands. Back in 2012, when I became homeless after getting exited from <em>Christian Chaos (a Christian Recovery Program), </em>he and other recovery addicts took me in. I couched surfed for a few months while I was clean. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I was also taken in by my sponsor, <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2014/01/not-fade-away.html">Not Fade Away</a>.</em> That Grateful Dead cover songs means so much to me and my family. I even performed that song with my brothers band at <em>The Grateful Gathering. </em>It fits like a glove. Remember how I wrote that he recently moved to San Jose. He lives right down the road from the 49ers new stadium. Iron and paint. Good! Right? No, write. And, photograph! We'll get to that.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">In 2012 <em>Roshambo </em>helped me get back on my feet so I could be a street artist again. I had three storage units in different parts of San Francisco. He went with me every time I needed help moving one from another. He helped me turn 3 into 2. Then, we turned 2 into 1. He helped me in so many ways.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I would eventually get my own place, <em>coincidently </em>enough, it was above The Garden of Eden. The Garden of Eden is a strip club in North Beach. I'm an addict. I'm not really into strip clubs, but I'm sex addict. Combine sex addiction with IV meth addiction and.... Women are... beautiful. My addiction has taken me.... Let's just say it's crossed my sexual preference in EVERY direction. I'll get to that. Perhaps a blog called <em>Jane Says? </em>Morals? No. Preferences. We see it that way. I'm an addict. I PREFER women. This isn't about me. Well, that's not completely true. <em> "I need a woman..." </em>Yeah, yeah.... I'm an addict. But still - my soul.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Did I mention that <em>Roshambo </em>is gay? He is a miracle! <em>"I need a miracle.... " </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Oh yeah, <em>Roshambo,</em> has been to my storage units times when I could not be there. He went to my "Piss in the sink" hotel room I was renting and moved all of my belongings into a new store unit that <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> rented for me. Oh yeah, I was in the ICU - again. I had attempted suicide. Been there, done that.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">My soul has told us all to <em>Live Life.</em> That was at the end of the last blog, <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/06/cumerland-blues.html">Cumberland Blues</a>. I have still used. Darkness. The blog I wrote about a song I wrote a few days before my dad died of his addiction<em> </em>disappeared. It was called, <em>Live.</em> Disappeared? Wait. Miracles are happening. They happened. They are happening.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Miracles? Oh yeah, I'm supposed to be one. Well, technically, I guess I am one. That's what they called me. I survived a suicide attempt. I broke nearly every bone in my body and lacerated plenty of internal organs.... Yeah, whatever. It's over. I've healed. I can't be believed in. Thanks to me. I promise what I am writing is True. Believe it or not, it's True. It's my Truth. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">God is The Truth and The Truth is God. Yeah, yeah. We understand it<strong> our</strong> way. I'm searching. I promise you, if your struggling with an addiction, get help. It gets worse. The Truth will be known.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Wait. <em>Miracles</em> are happening. I got another miracle! I'm going to both shows in Santa Clara. <em>Eyes of the World</em> and <em>Ripple</em> bought me another ticket! We go way back! All the way back to my high school days. They are touring the west before the stay in San Francisco for 4 nights. My brother and my sister bought me a ticket! That's right, we are family. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">"That's right, the women are smarter....." Wait a minute. Oh yeah, remember how I said God aka The Universe backed this blog up to <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)'s </em>child, <em>Althea. </em>Could the next blog be called <em>Understanding Althea?</em> We'll see.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I am so glad that <em>Man Smart</em>(<em>Woman Smarter) </em>and her husband I'll call <em>Train Song</em> are coming out to see the 50th Anniversary of the Grateful Dead. We Deadheads and Phish heads love jam bands, but we know The Grateful Dead and Phish are different. They both started in very different places and ended up being very similar. Phish heads don't like to be compared to Deadheads. I understand, I've seen Phish a few times. They are a great band. I never really heard the lyrics the way I hear Grateful Dead lyrics. Except for maybe the song <em>Free. Free</em> is in my soul. Been there, wrote that. And, we'll get to that. Oh yeah, I like Trey's song <em>Cincinnati. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">You know the <em>ironic</em> part about<em> Altheas</em> parents? <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter) </em>is not a Phish fan. In fact, she doesn't even like their music. <em>Train Song </em>has never been to a Grateful Dead show. She thinks he'll understand once he sees a show. I mean Jerry won't be there, but his replacement is Trey Anastasio - the singer/guitar player for Phish. It's a family thing! Phish and The Grateful Dead are in our souls. It means so much more to me. Or should I say, US.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">My soul is understanding. I've still used. <em> "Treachery" </em>Yeah, yeah. Been there done that. It's a really huge deal! "<em>Treachery has been tearing me limb for limb." </em>Literally. Staying clean can make me a miracle. Oh yeah, miracles are happening. One just did.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">That miracle celebration meant so much to me. I was hanging out with other recovery addicts. They are all miracles! God aka The Universe loves us. I need to understand it - one day at a time. Because, "<em>I've got my hands on a miracle."</em> Future blog possibility? We'll get there. Three miracles? Wait. More than three. <em>Althea </em>is a miracle. They've got their hands on a miracle. The Universe is communicating! LISTEN! Voices! And, of course, art and music. It's in our souls!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Voices? <em> "What's wrong with my voice?"</em> <em>Free?</em> Yes. <em>Free </em>was at Alpine Valley for his first Grateful Dead show 1989. I took him to his first Phish show in Louisville, Kentucky. I wrote about these events before. He reminded me that I took him to his first Phish show and he didn't look back. Last time I saw <em>Free, </em>when<em> </em>he, <em>coincidently</em> enough, was in San Francisco. I didn't even know Phish was in town. They were playing at Bill Graham Auditorium. <em>Coincidentally, </em>enough, I now live right next door the Bill Graham.<em> </em>At the time, I was rehab at Wally World. I had just gotten out of the hospital. I hadn't talked to him in years. And, I <em>somehow</em> decided to call him - the day he got here! My soul? Yes. No. Our souls.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Some of us deadheads went to the Grateful Dead Family Reunion in, where else? Alpine Valley. It happened just before we moved to San Francisco. Have I ever written about how we got to San Francisco? It had a lot to do with Jerry Garcia's death. I had planned to propose to <em>Man</em> <em>Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> at the top of The CN Tower in Toronto! It was the tallest structure in the world! <em>Top of the World?</em> Close to the Universe? Yes.<em> </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">We had mail order tickets to the Toronto Sky Dome. It's always hard to here of someone dying, but I remember the day Susan called me about Jerry dying. Somehow, we ended up in San Francisco. We'll get to that. It's a lot. "<em>What a long strange trip it's been."</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Grateful? We need to always be. Even when we're Dead? I'm alive. Forever happens. Live Life! That's my soul. That's The Universe! Heaven. I'm alive! Quietly live. Listen. Right? Or, is it Write? Both. Is anyone really following where this has been or where it can go? Will go! Will Go! I'm HEARING.<em> </em>I need to listen. I need to listen to the voices in my head? And, I really need to listen to my soul. Especially my soul! I must. Voices. Humphrey Bogart? He's a voice in my head sometimes. Mickey Hart? Space? I'm no drummer. Mickey Hart is. He and Bill Kreutzmann are drummers for the Grateful Dead. Every show, The Grateful Dead did a drum solo, called <em>Space</em>! Oh yeah, The Universe. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Where the hell am I? I'm in Heaven. It's my earthly heaven. Why do I use in my earthly heaven? I'm an addict. Still, things are coming to an end. The Universe is screaming for me to stop - just in time. You know who's voice I'm not hearing? My mothers. Peace and quiet must happen for all. Peace and quiet will happen for me. <em>"Althea told me upon scrutiny that my back might need protection." </em>That's my soul communicating. <em>The Universe</em> is THAT amazing. Trust. Believe. Listen. Read. Keep reading. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I was fortunate enough to help <em>Roshambo</em> make two films. I was the photographer for these documentary films. One was about a musical event that occurs at 16th and Mission every Thursday night. All of these artists get together to perform poetry, spoken word and music. Art and Music are in my soul. That film is called <em>Rock, Paper, Scissors (</em><em>Roshambo)</em><em>. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The most recent film is called <em>Tom and Jerry At Last. </em>I've yet to see it, but I am looking forward to. He is working on a screening at a theater that will likely include a showing of both films. I wrote in the last blog that I was taking photos of a playground put in by Tom And Jerry at Mission Delores Park. I was thinking how due to my using, many of my memories had been bad. I thought to my self just before I crossed some light rail train tracks, "If I will stay clean, my memories will be...." (I looked down and...)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I'm very fortunate to have miracles in my life. Good miracles are happening. I need to always be Grateful. I need to be Grateful to have <em>Roshambo </em>in my life. And, of course, this blog has to end a with a Grateful Dead song. I'm Grateful for my two miracles to see the shows in Santa Clara. And, like I said, <em>Roshambo </em>is gay, but I sure love women. And, coincidently enough, this Grateful dead song communicate two things I love - miracles and women! "<em>Too much of everything is just enough. </em><em>One more thing I just got to say. I need a miracle every day!"</em></span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I need a woman 'bout twice my age<br />A lady of nobility, gentility and rage<br />Splendor in the dark, lightning on the draw<br />We'll go right through the book and break each and every law.<br /><br />I got a feeling and it won't go away, oh no<br />Just one thing then I'll be OK<br />I need a miracle every day.<br /><br />I need a woman 'bout twice my height<br />Statuesque, raven-dressed, a goddess of the night.<br />Her secret incantations, a candle burning blue<br />We'll consult the spirits maybe they'll know what to do.<br /><br />And it's real and it won't go away, oh no<br />I can't get around and I can't run away<br />I need a miracle every day.<br /><br />I need a woman 'bout twice my weight<br />A ton of fun who packs a gun with all her freight<br />Find her in a sideshow leave her in l.a.<br />Ride her like a surfer running on a tidal wave.<br /><br />And it's real, believe what I say, yeah<br />Just one thing I got to say<br />I need a miracle every day.<br /><br />It takes dynamite to get me up<br />Too much of everything is just enough<br />One more thing I just got to say<br />I need a miracle every day,<br />I need a miracle every day,<br />I need a miracle every day, (got to be the only way)<br />I need a miracle</span></em></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have written two blogs this year. One was called <em>Slip Away </em>the other, <em>Live.</em> <em>Slip Away</em> was about how I have let love <em>Slip Away.</em> It's a song I coincidentally enough heard one day while I was somewhere that God always gave me a message through music. It was about how I always let love<em> Slip Away. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Live </em>was a blog about a song I wrote a<em> </em>few days before my dad died. It was about how we were "killing ourselves." In fact, that song's title was <em>"Stop Killing Ourselves"</em> until I attempted suicide as a result of my addiction and survived. I changed it's title to <em>"Live"</em> after I survived. I was in the hospital for six months and recovery for 5 months. Then, I started using again. That's not living. Not the way most people do. Especially the way I do it. My using disrupts others living - Schizoaffective or not I've wasted so much time - my time included.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">What I thought was going to be my clean date and New Years resolution was written on the last blog that exists in a blog called <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/01/althea.html">Althea.</a></em> <em>Althea</em> is a Grateful Dead song and is o about a miracle. I wrote it on a day in which I thought my clean date could have been. That could have been my recovery birthday, which would have been December 30. December 30 was my dads actual belly button birthday. Recovering addicts are called "<em>miracles" </em>in 12 step groups. Both of my parents had addictions issues and died as a result. <em>Althea</em><em> </em>is a miracle. <em>Althea </em>is <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter), </em>aka Atheist-Angel, aka my ex-wife's daughter. Coincidentally enough, <em>Althea </em>is the last blog to appear on <em>Beaty's Babbling Brain Blog.</em> Art and music are in my soul. I recently got a miracle. We Deadheads call that a ticket to a Grateful Dead show. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">These "miracles<em>" </em>usually occurred in parking lots of music venues just before a sold out show was going to start. Sometimes they were sold for face value or less. Sometimes we deadheads traded "something." Sometimes tickets were given for free! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">There will be three shows for the 50th Anniversary of The Grateful Dead in Chicago, Illinois. <span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I mail ordered for tickets</span>. They were in such high demand and I did not win the lottery. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The Grateful Dead announced two more shows in The San Francisco Bay Area. I won the lottery for a show Santa Clara, California. That's a miracle!<em> </em>Another miracle is about to happen - a miracle in the recovery version. That should be the next blog. It will be called, <em>I Need a Miracle.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">As I just wrote, I ended the last blog that appears on<em> Beaty's Babbling Brain Blog </em>by writing what I had permission to write. I honestly never even understood the lyric to <em>Althea. </em>I can't believe they never jumped out at me. That's how music keeps working for me. Sometimes I don't hear the message until my soul finds it or it finds my soul. My understanding occurred at time that cannot be denied. My soul needs to listen. I ended the last blog like this:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Day's have past. I'm still confused. I know my using is wrong, especially now. God was communicating something to me. <em>Voices.</em> "<em>Tell the short version."</em> </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm still trying to understand what's going on. No matter what, I can't keep using. Burnside, Kentucky - Uncle Danny. New York City - The David Letterman Show. Coming to an end. <em>Coincidence?</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The David Letterman Show was <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)'</em>s favorite late night show. She watched it every night. (Right after The David Letterman show went off the air, I saw David Letterman was at the Indianapolis 500. He had an Indy car. He's originally from Indiana. My brother lives in Indiana. He and his son love Cars. My nephew is going to be going to college in Indianapolis to be an auto-technician. My favorite movie at one time was Disney/Pixar's <em>Cars.</em> <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter) </em>played that movie for me over and over while I was in the ICU for the first time as a result of my addiction. She never left my side. Using is that wrong. Race cars mean even more. I'll keep Babbling. It's family. Soon after my mother died, I was on a pit crew. #9. It's a long story, but my cousin, who I had an apartment with has a son who is racing go-carts all over the country. #9. He's good!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Doctors even called me a miracle. I didn't believe it. I just read the first blog that I wrote after I survived my suicide attempt. God gives me messages. That's my Truth. When I woke up in the hospital and wasn't sure what was going on, I wrote a blog I titled <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/ocean-size.html" target="_blank">Ocean Size</a></em>. <em>Ocean Size </em>is a song by one of my other favorite bands - Jane's Addiction. I will hopefully write about the details of this someday. The messages that I did not listen to that I really should have was from a Foo Fighters song called <em>My Hero</em>. (This blog appears at the bottom of <em>Ocean Size.)</em> For me, at the time, when I was running and I heard the song, <em>My Hero, </em>I always thought about God. It's an insane but true story. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Coincidentally enough, The David Letterman Show came to an end last night. The Foo Fighters performed <em>Everlong. </em>David Letterman's said it was his favorite band to have on the show. He saved them for last. Susan loved the David Letterman show. My soul matters. Speaking of <em>miracles,</em> The Foo Fighters played their song <em>Miracle</em> when David Letterman came back from his heart surgery in 2000. <em>I cannot deny this Coincidence.</em> miracles. life.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My brothers are having a hard time with all of this. My older brother never gave up on me. My younger brothers never gave up on me. My using is hard on me and others. This should not be about me. I must <em>"loose with the truth".</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">"<em>Loose with the truth, maybe it's your fire. But, baby I hope you don't get burned." </em>My time is about up. Things are coming to an end, one way or another. That's how addiction works. Jails, institutions and death.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My Uncle Danny is gone. We had some good times. He and <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> were so opposite. <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter) </em>is a vegetarian. She loves animals and is so against animal farming. Uncle Danny had a cattle farm. Uncle Danny never quit teasing <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter). </em>She was a good sport. Together, they were hilarious. They never stopped giving each other a hard time. <span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">In a strange and sad twist of irony, Uncle Danny was kicked in the head by a cow while loading them to send to market.</span> He was flown to The University of Tennessee for emergency brain surgery. He died the next day. Despite <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)'s </em>differences, they cared about each other. That's what "the short version" is all about.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The<em> "short version"</em> is actually more about me than her. That's the Truth. Actually, it's more about my family. Music is in <em>our</em> souls. It's seems The Universe hears me using. I always knew that when people died, if they believed in Heaven, the Truth was vital. <em>Go to Heaven. </em>That's the album the "short version" is on. God is the Truth and The Truth is God. God always knows. I know this. This is my truth. This is so many's truth. I knew it would be that way. I'm not supposed to be alive. I got too many chances. That's what my song <em>Live</em> was all about. That was my last blog that <em>ironically </em>disappeared.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">In the past three months, I've lost my Uncle Paul on my birth mothers side. He died quickly of pancreatic cancer. My Aunt, who I will call, <em>Built to Last, </em>is his wife. She just spent eight weeks in the hospital. She had a stroke. I just lost my cousin, Danny Junior. He committed suicide. He had just left the hospital and we believe he too had pancreatic cancer. He likely didn't have much time. He was Uncle Danny's son. Uncle Danny was having a hard time. This all happened in the past three months. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">They say it comes in threes. I can't make it four. <em>"Treachery is tearing me limb from limb."</em> It's harder on those who are not being hard on me - Good people. This world is full of Good people. Especially in San Francisco. And, Burnside, Kentucky. It is also hard on those who understand treachery. Or should I say, Dealt it out themselves. And, it is hard on recipients of treachery. Using is wrong. Addiction is hard on people. If you like using, believe me, I understand. If you're making some mistakes, now is not a bad time for recovery. Believe me, the sooner the better. If you're having a small problem, get help. 12 step is a great way in Ohio (AA was founded) and California (NA was founded). Recovery from addiction is now happening over the world! Just remember.... Higher Power. I remember when I heard about "God" in recovery. I thought, <em>"what does God have to do with recovery?"</em> If I can't believe in God.... Jails, deaths and institutions. "<em>Our (an addicts)" </em>ultimate end.<br />
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God cares about my family. And, President Obama cares about my family. This includes me, of course. Using makes me insane, however, it's still my choice to use. Again, this is about me. "<em>Self-centered to the extreme."</em> God cares about people. My Uncle Danny cared about people. When I use, I'm wrong and even hard on people. Addiction can be treachery. My Uncle was never giving up on our family. Only I do. That's not true, but I'm.... confused.<br />
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It's not about me. I was hearing voices. Many times I used, my Uncle Danny kept saying, "<em>Write the Short Version." </em>God backed this blog up to the last blog, <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2015/01/althea.html"> <em>Althea</em></a>. Addiction and God, Love, Family and life does not mix, for some. For many. For me. My family matters. One of the last times Uncle Danny was telling me to, "<em>write the short version", </em>I "<em>told"</em> him that wanted to someday write a blog called <em>Cumberland Blues.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I lost another old friend yesterday. One of my high school buddies, Chris passed. His wife, we'll call her <em>Scarlet Begonias, </em>is also in recovery. This is a hard time for them and their daughter. I just said a strong, heartfelt prayer for them. When this blog gets posted, please pray for them. Please pray for my family as well. Life coming to an end is hard, yet inevitable. I believe it will lead to a new beginning in so many ways. It's still hard for me to understand. Life is precious. Memories, <em>Good Memories, </em>are amazing. I get messages. God is amazing. Whatever "God" is. I'm honestly still searching myself. I've been praying for guidance.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>Cumberland Blues</em> is guiding me. I must keep my commitments to God. God is The Truth and The Truth is God. My Uncle Danny and my dad grew up in Burnside, Kentucky. I always used to jokingly say that my dad was born at the bottom 0f a lake - Lake Cumberland. Burnside Kentucky was a part of The Tennessee Valley Authority Project. Dams were built on rivers that created lakes. Dams were built in that beautiful part of this country to provide electricity. That part of the country was far behind the rest of the country. The TVA Project was meant to catch them up. It did. It provided hydro-electricity. It also created lakes that created tourism.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Did I mention Miracles are happening? This is a fact The Truth cannot deny. God backed this blog up to True <em>miracles</em>. Remember how I wrote that God backed this blog up to a miracle, <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/ocean-size.html">Althea.</a> </em> Births are Miracles. Recovery is a Miracle. Grateful Dead concert tickets are "Miracles." My dad was a Miracle the day he was born, December 30, 1948. Still, coming to and end is inevitable. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Which brings us back to <em>Cumberland Blues.</em> My dad moved from Burnside, Kentucky to Cincinnati, Ohio and "pulled himself up from his bootstraps." He grew up without indoor plumbing and he was raised by his grandmother, "Mamma". To me - Grandma Love. Love is a part of my family. My brothers and I grew up in a suburb of a Cincinnati, Ohio called, Loveland, Ohio. I cannot deny Love. It's in my blood. It's in my soul. Addiction robs me of love. Or ,should I say, <strong>L</strong>ove.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Miracles are happening. Recovery from addiction is "a miracle". I'll hopefully get to those. I can't claim a recovery birthday at this stage.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Sometimes this blog is my only True connection to people. It's my only True connection to friends and family. This blog is not a True connection. However, it has guided me. God is The Truth and The Truth is God. One of the first things I had written besides college papers and business proposals that involved life coming to and end, was my dad's eulogy. Addiction was a big part. I'm so confused. Contrails. Miracles. Concrete, paint and steel. Art, music, writing. Wharfrats. Recovery. The <strong>Grateful</strong> Dead. Miracles. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For now, things have come to an end. For my parents, addiction was involved. For me it could have been involved. I prayed for God's Will and a True miracle occurred. "Write the short version."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I always thought of my dad growing up when I heard The Grateful Dead play "<em>Cumberland Blues". </em>Miracles. Addiction. Treachery. Miracles.... God?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The Universe is communicating with me. Last weekend, <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em>, who is <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/ocean-size.html">Altheas</a></em> mother, was in New York City. We visited New York City quite a few times. Art and music is in my soul. We used to visit a friend, in NYC. I'll call her <em>Soulshine</em>. <em>Soulshine</em> lived in Hoboken, NJ. In fact, after <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> left New York she went to visit<em> Soulshine </em>who now lives Racine, Wisconsin. Back when we used to visit <em>Soulshine</em> in New York City, we had to take the PATH subway from lower Manhattan to her apartment. One of the times we visited New York we went to an Allman Brothers concert in Harlem. We partied all day. Afterwards, we went the financial district and I drank 13 shots of tequila. Then, we had to take a PATH train back to her apartment. The end of the line in NYC was and still is located at The World Trade Center Subway Station. I was so stumbling drunk, that I fell into the subway tracks at the World Center Subway Station. Thankfully, I was pulled out before a train arrived.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I love skyscrapers. Susan and I went to the top of the Empire State Building in the Empire State. The Empire State Building was once the tallest building in the world! My second favorite city is New York City - the most densely populated large city in The United States of America.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I'm so glad we got to go to the top of the World Trade Center. They were tallest buildings in the world! It was a beautiful view from the observation deck. We were on<em> <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html">Top of the World.</a></em> </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><em>(Woman Smarter)</em> and I getting to the top of the South Tower of The Golden Gate Bridge. She worked for the "Transportation Department" in San Francisco. I love bridges and skyscrapers. The Golden Gate Bridge is my favorite man made structure in the world! I used to say, <em> "She's</em> always been there for me." I said that about both <em>Man Smart (Women Smarter) </em>and The Golden Gate Bridge. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">For me, addiction and evil can go hand and hand. In my insane addiction, I wrote about the New World Order. This is covered in my blog - <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html">Contrails</a>.</em> Addiction can be hell. Hard on too many involved. <span style="font-size: large;">Did I mention my <em>Atheist Angel, </em>aka <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter) </em>aka my ex wife was in New York City last weekend?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Remember? Remember. Never forget. Never. They were once the tallest buildings in the world. Sadness. Frustration. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">In 2001, when The World Trade Centers were attacked and destroyed, I had to do something - for freedom. I remember the day my dad called me I was on the 30th floor of the tallest building in Cincinnati, Ohio. Susan said I should get out. I wasn't worried about me, but she was. I was more worried about what was happening. Confusion. Mass confusion. Darkness.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">However. We knew.... We knew.... We always knew. Despite war and darkness, aka evil, Freedom would prevail. Freedom of speech. Freedom of religion. Peace. Love. Freedom of Choice. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The Universe. My God? My search? My personal search. Lets's not make this about me. The Universe is not darkness. It's a new frontier. It's our new frontier. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Addiction is evil. Confusion? Not true? True. True for me. It can become Treachery. Where's my soul? I remember. It's Art, Music and Writing. I once wrote <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2010/10/top-of-world.html"><em>Top of the World</em></a><em>.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Close to the stars? The Universe? My God? Life, Coming to an end. Forever? Sorrow. "Earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal." This is written on the back of both of my parents tomb stones. I covered this in a blog I wrote when I last visited Cincinnati in 2013. It is called <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/12/carry-on-our-wayward-son.html">Carry On My Wayward Son.</a> </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Yet still, The Universe. Darkness? God? Freedom. Recovery. Truth. Iron and steel. Strong. God. Faith. Freedom. Loss. Birth. Miracles. Miracles. Miracles. Peace. Freedom. Listen. Believe in. Obvious confusion. That's what using can lead to. If you're struggling with using now. I promise, it gets worse. Get help. That's my Truth to you. For me, it goes like this.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'll always remember (not clearly) the time I got hit by <em>something</em> while walking to close to a freight train. I finished a bottle Monte El bon tequila. I ate the worm. Have I ever written that blog? No wait. I was at Uncle Danny's. My family. I was with one of my "brothers.", we'll call him <em>Terrapin Station. (Ironically, </em>he himself chose this as his favorite Grateful Dead song. It's my favorite song to see live. It sure fit's this blog.) I was at Uncle Danny's when this happened.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>"What the Fuck?"</em> That's a song I wrote about my addiction that I have lived. It was written over many years as my drug advanced from one drug to another. It started out being about my drinking.... It ended up being about shooting crystal meth. It started out being funny.... It's pretty damn serious now. It's not funny. It used to be funny. Kind of like another one of my songs -<em> Tequila and Trains</em>." I performed that song at "The Grateful Gathering." <em>Coincidentally </em>enough, I also performed my song <em>Live </em>that night. Remember, how my blog <em>Live</em> <em>coincidentally </em>enough disappeared?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The weather sucked in Loveland, Ohio that night and not too many people made it. My brothers were there. I performed <em>Tequila and Trains</em> with my true adopted and very close blood brother and his band. We also performed a Grateful Dead cover song - Not Fade Away. <em>"You know our love will not fade away."</em> Quite a few showed up at my original benefit at that same venue that occurred after I attempted suicide. Why a benefit? Some thought they knew me. They used to. I started writing this blog again for the first time since I had been <em>"On top of the world!"</em> Then, I used. Treachery.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I spent a long time loosing so much. This includes <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em>. <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> was my high school sweetheart that I met in <em>art</em> class. I ended up being homeless for 8 1/2 months. One morning, I saw President Obama. That day I went to the library and started writing this blog that my soul had inspired. I wrote <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/02/standing-on-moon.html">Standing on the Moon.</a> </em>My soul - art, music, writing and this redicul0us Beaty's Babbling Brain Blog.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Anger? Frustration? <strong> </strong>The voices are asking me to relax. Are The Voices coming from The Brady Bunch? Are they the Beaty Bunch? Truth? God? Insanity? All of the above? Confusion<strong><span style="font-size: x-large;">. Decisions.... Reality.</span></strong></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Coming to an end. <em>Terrapin Station</em>, who is my "brother" and I were in New York City that time I fell into the tracks at The World Trade Center after I drank too much tequila. He was also with me in Burnside, Kentucky when I drank too much tequila and got "hit" by a freight train. You can't write the blues until you've lived the blues. I wrote a song called <em>Tequila and Trains. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>Terrapin Station </em>was also with me for a Miracle in NYC. My second favorite place to see a Grateful Dead Concert was Madison Square Garden. Ironically enough, Madison Square Garden is above a train station - Penn Station. <em>Terrapin Station </em>has been with me for long time. I don't know if he ever met my mother, but he met my dad. He was with me when my life did not come to and end - twice. He's gonna be in Chicago at Soldier Field (my favorite place to see The Grateful Dead and its at the venue that Jerry Garcia performed his last Grateful Dead show). "The Long Strange Trip" is coming to an end. He got a Miracle! We got a Miracle! His is for Chicago. Mine is for Santa Clara.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The day my Uncle Danny's life came to an end was <em>Terrapin Stations</em> birthday. He was having a hard birthday. Homelessness was becoming possible again, yet he only blamed himself. I </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">told him not to be so hard on himself. After all, my Uncles Danny's life just came to an end. It was a Good day stop using. It was a Good day for a miracle, Right? That's what recovering addicts call birthdays. I was confused. Right? Or is it, write?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It was written in chalk. Iron, Steel and concrete outweigh chalk everyday! However, art speaks. It speaks The Truth. Addiction is hell. Freedom matters. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Music will always be in my soul. Writing will always be in my soul. It was very hard, but I wrote and did my dad's eulogy. The circumstances were so confusing. Addiction is so confusing. Uncle Danny's life came to an end. At the same time, miracles are happening. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I'll always remember that time I visited my family in Loveland, Ohio. My dad's family, The Beaty family lived in Burnside, Kentucky. That little ole "hillbilly" city (It's in my blood, I have the right! Freedom!) that used to be at the bottom of Lake Cumberland. My dad was born at the bottom of a lake! I love my dad.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I honestly thought I would not publish this blog. It seemed too insane, yet, it's The Truth. It is my self-sustained Truth. Yesterday, I was watching Charles Stanley perform a sermon. I really don't watch him, but I was having a hard morning after a sleepless night. He said that, <em>"if we listen carefully and are patient, God would give us subtly quiet messages</em>." I've always received them that way. I've written about them that way. I prefer to watch and read Joel Osteen. Yesterday, He said that,<em> "people who were struggling, such as addicts, should have a Warrior mentality."</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I'm an addict who needs recovery. I've never been a Christian, but I was for a very short time raised in Christianity. I was asked to write and give my dad's eulogy while meeting with a preacher at a Christian church. <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter) </em>got pregnant with<em> Althea</em> while I was at a Christian program - CityTeam. We were, of course, divorced. In fact, coincidently enough, I just got a call from someone I was in CityTeam with three years ago. I hadn't heard from anyone from CityTeam in at least two years. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I may not be a Christian, but it has connected to some very important events. It's connects me to parenthood, that's for sure. I will also say that some of my clearest childhood memories of my mother were, #1 - The day I found her dying when I was 12. #2 - My mother pouring communion at the Church of Christ we lived next door to in Morrow, Ohio when I was 5. I never understood this part. It was a very confusing time for me. Even though I was only 5, it's becoming more clear.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Speaking of Warrior mentality. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">This morning, I was on my way to Walgreens and I was wondering about that subtle message that God always coincidently provides. I always have written how it was subtle. It comes moments after I am having thoughts. Messages from God have appeared on billboards, sidewalks (both in chalk and permanently written after poured), railroad tracks and paint and this time, it was a newspaper. I'm a marketing major who has worked for 3 newspapers. I'm now a writer (don't we all understand that?). </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I began looking around and I saw this:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>Top of the World.</em> I guess I've been writing about that. Remember? I did the moment I saw it. God usually tells me to "<em>keep writing</em>", <em>"I have a story to share"</em> or<em> "I have song to share</em>". This time, it combined another thing about my believing in God - sports. I hope to get to that in a future blog. But it combined Christianity, writing, newspapers and sports. All of this to me means - God. No one believes in me because of me. I must believe in God. This has been a clear message - to me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The Warriors are about to be in The Finals. It looks like they may be playing The Cleveland Cavilers. If there was ever a team I would want my hometown team to beat, it would be Cleveland. My stepmothers family is from Cleveland. I saw my first Grateful Dead show in Cleveland. I was tripping on LSD. Wow! Was that an amazing show. I'm not completely clear, but I'm pretty sure the song that hooked me was <em>Friend of the Devil.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">During the set break, I saw all of these "crazy hippies" standing around holding hands. I didn't know what it was. It turns out, it was <em>The Wharfrats. The Wharfrats </em>are recovering addicts. I have been the secretary of <em>The Wharfrats</em> in San Francisco. My 12 step sponsor puts tables together at Grateful Dead related concerts and other jambands. He put them together for the Santa Clara shows. My sponsor just moved to San Jose, which is right down the road. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">While in Cleveland another time, <em>Terrapin Station</em> told me not to drink on the way to the show. He said cops were watching from the trees. They were! I drank in the car. We got motioned to pull over. Those of us who were drinking in the car got a ticket. Thankfully they didn't find the LSD. That night, The Grateful Dead covered <em>I Fought The Law </em>by The Jerry Fuller Four<em>. </em>You know, <em>"I fought the law and the law won..." </em> The next night, I didn't use anything. I had been to quite a few shows by this time, but I had never been to one clean and sober. It wasn't the same as trippin my brains out, but I heard the music. Music is in my soul. I'm supposed to be a miracle. I can't keep using. The only way I have been to live music for the past ten years is clean.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">While I was taking photos for a film project that my friend, I'll call Rochambeau, has put together about a non-profit group that feeds many in San Francisco. The film is for The LGBT Film Festival. Rochambeau is in fact a miracle. His 10 year clean birthday is June 7. This film he made is a Good film for a Good project. This non-profit group feeds many in San Francisco. While I was at Mission Delores Park taking photos of the playground put in by two of the people who help start the non-profit organization, I was seriously considering all I had lost from using. I was heading towards the playground and was thinking how so many of my memories have been bad ones. I thought to myself, <em>"I guess if I stay clean, they can be...."</em> And then I looked down:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Remember how I said iron and paint represented solid messages from God? My sponsor, who is miracle, just moved to San Jose. I'll be taking CalTrain to see him. That's Good. The Grateful Dead show is in Santa Clara. A ticket to that show is a miracle. That's Good. I'll be taking CalTrain there too. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Which takes us back to Burnside, Kentucky. My Uncle Danny's and my Pop's childhood home. The place where I got "hit" by a train. I wrote the song I titled <em>Tequila and Trains </em>after that incident. I also quit drinking tequila. <em>Terrapin Station </em>was at both of these <em>Tequila and Train </em>related events. He was also at The Grateful Dead Show at MSG above Penn Station. He loved bluegrass.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><em>"Write the short version."</em> I used to think of my family when I heard The Grateful Dead play <em>Cumberland Blues.</em> I was recently "<em>telling"</em> my uncle via<em> "voices"</em> that he would like that song. I never got the blues part for someone like me. I wasn't born at the bottom of a lake. I get the blues part now.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I shouldn't be alive. I'm suppose to be a miracle. I survived a suicide attempt. I'm grateful I got a chance to go with my little brothers to Uncle Danny's. We went to his farm and met his horse, Buck. My little brothers were also introduced their true blood mother - my second cousin. She lives in Burnside. The fact that I made that trip has miracle written all over it. I would not have gone back had I not survived. I can't claim a recovery birthday in this blog. I've learned that. With that in mind, I heard the closing lyrics to this song, for me.<em> "</em><em>I don't know now, I just don't know. If I'm coming back again."</em><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">So here's to The Bush family, The Love family and The Beaty family. My Uncle J.D. (John David) always called me his "namesake". Here's to you J.D. Here's to you Granny Love. Here's to you Pop. Here's to you Uncle Danny.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Another Miracle! I used. That's NOT the miracle. The Universe. We'll get to that in the next, <em>Beaty's Babbling Brain Blog. </em>Another message came from The Universe <strong>-<em>Live</em> Life.</strong> It was <em>Cincinnati's </em>suggestion. <em>Cincinnati</em> <em>coincidently </em>enough<em> </em>posted a photo of himself and titled it - <strong>Live </strong><strong>Life.</strong> We has just discussed how <em>The Universe</em> communicates to us, our way. It was of him at night with a "light" behind him. </span><br />
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<em>You keep me up just one more night<br />I can't stop here no more<br />Little Ben clock says quarter to eight<br />You kept me up till four<br />I gotta get down<br />I gotta get down<br />Or I can't work there no more</em><br />
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<em>Make good money, five dollars a day<br />If I made any more I might move away</em><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I said in my last blog that I was
probably sharing TMI. I did. <i>Atheist Angel </i><span style="font-style: normal;">sent
me a link describing TMI. </span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><i>Atheist Angel </i><span style="font-style: normal;">wrote
that she was just trying to help. If I've ever needed to listen to
anyone, it's my </span><i>Atheist Angel.</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
By the way, I'm trying to stick to my self imposed rule on
anonymity. That's why I have always used nicknames for everyone.
That's why I created the nickname </span><i>Atheist Angel.</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><i></i><span style="font-style: normal;">It's
a long story how I came about letting everyone know that I am an addict.
I didn't want to tell anyone! I was asked by an addiction councilor to share
that I started shooting up with a couple of people who mean so much
to me. It's a story I don't want to write about again, but
eventually, I would learn something from it. God is the Truth and
The Truth is God. I also understand something else – anonymity. </span>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">New Years Eve was really Good for me.
First, I went to a recovery meeting for Deadheads. I was able to
share something so important that I can share in an anonymous
meeting. I'm trying to keep it that way, so I try not to use too
many terms from such a group. In such a group, a person chooses a
person who has been clean for a while to help them and guide them through
their recovery. The person who does that for me I'll call <i>St.
Stephen. St. Stephen </i><span style="font-style: normal;">a</span>lso
has a person who does that for him. I'll call him <i>Fire on the
Mountain. </i><span style="font-style: normal;">This puts </span><i>Fire
on the Mountain</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> in my recovery
family. He's equivalent to my Grandfather. Or as I learned from my
hillbilly Kentucky side of the family, he's my Papa! </span>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I can still hear my
dads side of the family saying “Papa” in their hillbilly Kentucky
southern accent! I'm from Cincinnati! My dad moved up from the
hills of Kentucky when he was a teenager. Cincinnati is where the
North begins! I love Kentucky, but I'm not a Southerner. And, I
ain't no hillbilly ya'all! Okay, it is in my blood. But now, I'm so
West Coast.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">After the recovery
meeting, I was able to enjoy something I wrote in my last blog that would
always be in my soul – music. I was able to play music with the
lead guitar player for the band I'm in, The Alanos. I will call him
<i>Alanos Lead.</i> <i>Fire on the Mountain </i>joined <i>Alanos
Lead</i> and I on drums. We of course started out with some Grateful
Dead songs. We did <i>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</i> and <i>Fire on the
Mountain.</i> I love those songs. The Grateful Dead played<em> </em><em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em> at so many Grateful Dead shows <i>Athiest Angel </i>and
I attended. <i>Atheist Angel </i>was and still is quite the women's
activist. We loved that song. We danced away every time it was
coincidently played! Perhaps <i>Atheist Angels </i>nickname will be
<em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em><em>! </em>That's it, at least for this blog.
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Last night was such
a great way to end last year and begin this new year. Music <em>is</em> in my
soul. The Grateful Dead was and will always be a part of our life.
Especially <em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)'s</em> life. I learned something a
long time ago. God is The Truth and The Truth is God. I also
understand that writing every nitty-gritty dirty whacked out crazy
detail about me is not something I need to do. By not using,
I will not have to write every nitty-gritty dirty whacked out crazy
detail about me because there will be no nitty-gritty dirty whacked out crazy details to write about.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span> </div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">If I Live in The
Truth, I will keep my Word. I said I needed to stay clean and keep
writing. I need to keep writing about <i>something</i>. Preferably
<i>something</i> Good. God is The Truth and The Truth is God. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It was the circumstances surrounding my hillbilly dad's death that
made me understand that God is The and The Truth is God. It also
reminds me that I should listen to people who care about me. The
first thing I wrote since college was my dad's eulogy, with input from my
three brothers. Three months after his death, in September of 2006, I was pistol whipped. After that
I started writing this blog. I had no idea how much I
would share in that first blog. I slowly shared more each blog. I explain much of this on November 3, 2006 in a
blog I wrote called<a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html" target="_blank"> </a><i><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/contrails.html" target="_blank">Contrails</a>. </i>This blog explains how I already knew I
didn't have to share everything with everyone. It helped me
understand The Truth. It also helped realize just how
horrible addiction is.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">If I keep my Word,
I will not use. I will live in The Truth. This isn't hard for so
many people because so many people are Good. I've always said that
for me, using is easy, but it makes life hard and that not using is hard,
but it makes life easy.
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><em>Man Smart (Woman Smarter)</em><em>, </em><span style="font-style: normal;">aka
</span><i>Atheist Angel</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
suggested I not share TMI. I need always listen to my </span><i>Atheist
Angel</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> because it is true that
"</span><i>Women are Smarter".</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
Just ask The Grateful Dead. It was at a Grateful Dead concert that I
first began to understand that </span><i>something</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
was going on. Coincidences occurred to often at Grateful Dead shows.
I like what Albert Einstein said in the quote at the beginning of
this blog - "<em>Coincidence is God's way of staying anonymous." </em></span><span style="font-style: normal;">Anonymity
matters. Because in the end, God knows The Truth about everything.
Which is why my New Years resolution is to keep my Word.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-style: normal;"></span></span></span> </div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-style: normal;">I will
do my best to keep this blog anonymous for everyone but me. Music is
in my soul. I ended last year the way I want to start and keep this
year. In the spirit of anonymity, I will name this blog another one
of my favorite Grateful Dead songs. I will name it </span><i>Althea. </i><span style="font-style: normal;">Coincidentally enoungh, this song is on a Grateful Dead album called, <em>Go to Heaven</em>. Even if I wasn't trying to be
anonymous I couldn't put into words how much this song and this blog means. </span>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Happy New Year!</span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I told Althea I was feeling lost<br /> Lacking in some direction<br /> Althea told me upon scrutiny<br /> my back might need protection<br /><br /> I told Althea that treachery<br /> was tearin me limb from limb<br /> Althea told me: now cool down boy -<br /> settle back easy Jim<br /><br /> You may be Saturday's child all grown<br /> moving with a pinch of grace<br /> You may be a clown in the burying ground<br /> or just another pretty face<br /> You may be the fate of Ophelia<br /> sleeping and perchance to dream -<br /> honest to the point of recklessness<br /> self centered to the extreme<br /><br /> Ain't nobody messin with you but you<br /> your friends are getting most concerned -<br /> loose with the truth<br /> maybe it's your fire<br /> but baby I hope you don't get burned<br /> When the smoke has cleared, she said,<br /> that's what she said to me:<br /> You're gonna want a bed to lay your head<br /> and a little sympathy<br /><br /> There are things you can replace<br /> and others you cannot<br /> The time has come to weigh those things<br /> this space is getting hot -<br /> you know this space is getting hot<br /><br /> I told Althea<br /> I'm a roving sign -<br /> that I was born to be a bachelor -<br /> Althea told me: Ok that's fine -<br /> So now I'm out trying to catch her<br /><br /> Can't talk to me without talking to you<br /> We're guilty of the same old thing<br /> Talking a lot about less and less<br /> And forgetting the love we bring <!-- end of lyrics --></span></em> </div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">“When you worship something, you
become like the thing you worship.”</span><br />
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- Reverend Jay Wilson, City Church</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The lust of my life is I.V. meth and
sex. Does that mean I worship those things? Kind of. Is their
anything Good about lusting for something. I can promise you, there
is not. Especially if it's sex and drugs. Lusting for rock-n-roll
is okay. Music is in my soul! I need to keep it there!</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I said in my last blog that I didn't
have to disclose every nitty-gritty dirty whacked out crazy detail
about my life as an addict. I also said that if I didn't use and I
kept writing, there would be no nitty-gritty dirty whacked out crazy
details to write about. I have less than 2 weeks clean. And, I
can't get her off my mind. Writing helps. And, this is the second
blog in a row I am writing without using in between! I haven’t
done that for nearly a year!</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I do love City Church. I was
introduced to City Church while I was at <i>Christian Chaos.</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
</span><i>Christian Chaos </i><span style="font-style: normal;">meant
so much. I was able to stay clean long enough to help Susan when she
really needed help. I prayed for God's Will the whole time while
there and I believe that's what happened, especially for Susan. She
got everything she wanted. It was just not the way she wanted it – thanks to me
always pursuing the lust of my life. The sex was usually with
myself, but it was still wrong. The one very important day that sex
was not with myself was the day Susan moved back to Cincinnati. I
failed a major test. I didn't shoot up with </span><i>Tweaker Chick,
</i><span style="font-style: normal;">but I did have sex with her.
Just doing that was practicing old behavior. In a round about way,
this got me exited from </span><i>Christian Chaos. </i><span style="font-style: normal;">Eventually,
it would lead to my suicide attempt.</span></span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I made a lot of
Good friends at <i>Christian Chaos. </i>It doesn't take long to get
close to people when you are in a recovery program with. Months
after my exit, I would relapse and begin perusing the lust of my life
once again. Doing so led to my having a "methamphetamine induced
psychotic reaction (suicide attempt)". My attempt was nearly
successful. It was supposed to be. My death was eminent because the
world was coming to an end as a result of a meteor shower
on April 1<sup>st</sup>, 2013. I just didn't want to keep harming
my loved ones by using. They needed a chance to get things right
before the world ended, so on January 15<sup>th</sup>, 2013, I walked
to San Bruno and jumped off the highest structure I could find – a
5 story parking garage. Even I was given <i>another</i> chance.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Almost all of my
visitors to the ICU and the hospital for 6 months came from people I
knew in recovery. My friends from <i>Christian Chaos </i>were among
my recovery friends. Most of them visited me in the hospital. My
mentors from <i>Christian Chaos</i> and a Pastor from City Church
would also visit me often. I don't remember my time in the ICU. My
<i>Christian Chaos </i>friends always tell me about something I don't
remember every time they tell me about what they encountered while
visiting me in the ICU.
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">A few months ago, I
ran into <i>Sam Malone</i> at the GA office a couple of times. He,
like many of us who were at <i>Christian Chaos</i> was once again
struggling. The first time I saw him, he was pushing a shopping
cart. The second time, he was pretty beat up, but was about to get a
bed in a shelter. He said that when he was with me in the ICU all I
said was, “fuck, fuck, fuck....”
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><i>James Dean</i>
also visited me in ICU. I don't remember anyone’s visit while I
was in the ICU. <i>James Dean </i>and I talked on the phone a few
times while I was at Laguna Honda. He was in a shelter and drinking
again. Last we spoke, he said he would be up to visit me soon.
Unfortunately, that never happened. <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/11/i-wrote-this-blog-102513-i-just-found.html" target="_blank"> </a><i><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/11/i-wrote-this-blog-102513-i-just-found.html" target="_blank">James Dean</a> </i>died.
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><i>Christian Chaos
</i>averaged about 15 to 20 residents. While I was at <i>Christian
Chaos</i> for only 4 ½ months, one resident died because he went out
and drank. I can clearly picture him and hear his voice but cannot
recall the nickname I gave him. Also, four graduates died during my 4 ½
month stay. One of them hung around all the time. Again, I can
remember his nickname. I suffered a Traumatic Brain Injury because
of my jump. I use to really get confused and have a lot of memory
problems, but my brain is apparently healing. I still have memory
issues, but I'm not sure if orgetting their nicknames is something
normal. <i>Christian Chaos </i>had only been open for a few years
and had less than one hundred people graduate. I was only there
for 4 ½ months and five people who were in that program died. <em>James Dean</em> was the 6th. I could have been the 7th.
Addiction at the level we take it is ruthless. It's sad.</span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">One of my roommates from <i>Christina Chaos, </i> <i>El </i><i><span style="text-decoration: none;">Diablo</span></i>
now works at City Church. I find it amusing that I nicknamed him <i>El
Diablo. El Diablo </i>is Spanish for the devil. I gave him this
name because he used to be an Atheist, but more so because he had a
pointed goatee like <i>El Diablo. El Diablo</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
now works at City Church.</span> I attended City Church for the
first time in a long time today. We were talking about my recent
hospital visit. I told him how it reminded me of just how important
recovery is. I spent 6 months in the hospital! I don't know how. I
guess I had to. I was so grateful to be alive. My recent 5 day stay
in the hospital reminded me that I need to remain grateful to be
alive. How I haven't, I have no idea. The lust of my life I guess.
While talking about my hospital stays, <i>El Diablo </i>said that
when he ask a nurse how many bones I broke, she said, “All of
them.” She told him I cracked my skull in three places and broke
my backbone in four! I didn't even know those details. He said
another nurse said I broke one hundred bones. <i>El Diablo</i> said
that I was either cussing at the nurses or flirting with them. I was
drugged up, that's for sure.</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-style: normal;">Being
in the hospital </span><i>again</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
reminded me just how precious life is. Thankfully, it ended up </span><i>only
</i><span style="font-style: normal;">being my gallbladder that needed
to be removed. On my visit to the emergency room, they initially
diagnosed me with hepatitis. My liver levels were extremely high, my
liver was swollen and my recent behavior pointed to that diagnosis.
Finding stones in my gallbladder on Sunday, did give me hope that I
didn't actually have hepatitis. I didn't learn that I definitely did
not have hepatitis until Monday, after they had already removed my
gallbladder. I was in a lot of pain, but that news made me feel so
Good.</span></span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">As far as my
behavior that pointed to hepatitis goes.... That's a another
story. About 6 months ago, I did something I've never done in my 10
years as and I.V. drug user. I shared a needle. I would have never
done this, but one night a person I was in rehab with came by my
apartment. I had recently allowed her to stay with me one night
because she was out on the street. I had no idea she used the way I
did. She showed up about a week later with a lot of meth on her and
asked me to shoot her up. I did. We were in my bathroom. As soon
as I shot her up, she took off her clothes and got into my bathtub.
That's what it does to me. As soon as I shoot up, my clothes come
off. I'm not really attracted to her, but I was already high and I
really wanted to join her. I was trying to reuse one of my needles
but it wasn't happening. She said she was disease free so I used
hers and then I joined her.</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">She ended up lying
to me and possibly stealing from me, so I had no idea if she was
really disease free. I did get checked a month later and I was
negative, but there is a 6 month window for HIV and hepatitis. I
knew I didn't want to ever be with her again. I also knew I would
never share a needle again. When I say the lust of my life is sex
and IV meth, the sex is almost always a solo act. Almost.</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-style: normal;">A few
weeks ago, I met </span><i>Lola Montez</i><span style="font-style: normal;">.
If drugs weren't involved in our all night relationship, I'd be in
love with her. Unfortunately, I'm in lust with her. This is why I
am writing right now. Writing helps reduce my cravings. I want to
be with her so bad! I want to use with her and spend the night with
her again. She is absolutely beautiful! Too me, she is perfect.
Have I ever said how attracted I am to Asian women? I am. She was
Asian. She said she was 43 (I'm 43), but she looked like she was 29.
Probably because she, like most Asian women, is in such good shape. Her body....
She was about 5'0” tall and 95lbs. I'm still in lust with her, but
I can't use!</span></span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-style: normal;">Being
in the hospital reminded me that I can't use. Being with her ALL
night was risky. She too is an addict. Using made our sex a
marathon rather than an event. </span><i>She caught me in her web.</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
I'm not sure my writing about this is helping me. I'm certainly
lusting for </span><i>Lola Montez.</i><span style="font-style: normal;">
I can't be with her. Even when I was with her and we were done
having sex at about 5AM, I knew what I did was wrong. </span>
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</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">She began tweaking
out. She was telling me how her dad would kill her if she knew
how she behaved. <i>I felt the fire where she walked.</i> She kept
asking me about hell. Over and over and over she would ask me, “is
it true?” She asked me as if I knew. Actually, I do. It is true.
I was tweaking myself and didn't want to say to her that I knew it
was. I can't talk when I'm tweaking. I shouldn't do that shit.
And, I definitely shouldn't be with someone when I do. Especially a
beautiful woman.
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I finally left her
place and came back to my apartment building. People were leaving
for work. I was tweaking after spending an entire night of being
wrong. I wasn't happy about my behavior. I still think about going
back to her. In fact, I tried to find her building about a month
ago, but could not. I was tweaking, again. I did find a sex club in
her neighborhood called The Power Exchange, I went in there and shot
up. That was SO wrong! The devil himself would be with me after I
did that.</span></div>
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</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-style: normal;">I have
probably shared way to much information – as usual. It's like I
said in my last blog, if I don't digress I won't have to talk about
these things. I've been digressing a lot since I haven't been
writing. If I were to ever be in a relationship, I certainly wouldn't
talk about our sex life. What </span><i>Lola Montez </i><span style="font-style: normal;">and
I had was not a relationship. I still want to find her. Still.
Still. Still....</span></span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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</span><span style="font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I
discovered I.V. meth about 10 years ago. Before that, I was
definitely and addict. I was a garbage can. I drank alcohol, smoked
pot, took LSD, ate mushrooms, ecstasy, special K, MDMA, snorted
cocaine, smoked crack.... I had smoked meth one time, but out of a
crack pipe. Then, one night I was invited into a prostitutes room. I
wasn't sure she was a prostitute. I was a miserable crack head who
was broke and hated crack. All I could think about when I was taking
a hit of crack was my next hit of crack. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">She invited me into her
room and she shot me up. I guess it was a first ones free kind of
event. That night, she brought me to her friends apartment to share
me. Her friend lived in, Fox Plaza which is the building I now
reside. What it became was in many ways a nightmare to me. I was
then introduced to this fucked up orgy scene. Guys, transsexuals and
women were involved. I didn't want to be, but I could never stop
thinking about that rush. Shoot me up and I'd be anyone’s bitch. I became a sex addict.
It fucked me up so bad. It also became the lust of my life.</span></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I jokingly say I
was cured of all of my addictions to everything else the day I shot meth. It was just
worse than all of them combined. All I wanted was that orgasmic rush
and the hours and hours of pleasure I.V. meth delivered.</span></div>
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</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-style: normal;">I have
had so many reasons to never use. December 17</span><sup><span style="font-style: normal;">th</span></sup><span style="font-style: normal;">
was one of the best reasons yet. Last night, I was made aware of
another reason God gave me that that day mattered. I used on
December 16</span><sup><span style="font-style: normal;">th</span></sup><span style="font-style: normal;">.
I think it spilled over until December 17</span><sup><span style="font-style: normal;">th</span></sup><span style="font-style: normal;">.
Meaning I think I might have used past midnight. December 18</span><sup><span style="font-style: normal;">th</span></sup><span style="font-style: normal;">
is the clean date I will claim. I believe my hospital visit was no
accident. They never are. That date means more than my dumb addict
ass could allow it to. </span>
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</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-style: normal;">I
think about </span><i>Lola Montez </i><span style="font-style: normal;">even
after my hospital visit. I'm writing about it. I'm not looking for
her. I could probably find her if I'm not high. I was very high
that night. I can't use. I can't. This is the first time I have
posted two blogs in a row with out using in between for almost a
year! That's pathetic. Writing helps me. It does. Thank you for
reading. I mean that. </span>
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I'm in lust with that woman, but I love this song. I love music. And, even though this song reminds me of her, it rocks. Actually, I think of her when I hear it. I was loving this song before I met her, but never imagined it would become so true to me. That's the way music works. It's not a bad thing. Turn it up. I love Volbeat. They rock.</span><br />
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<!-- start of lyrics --><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Feel the fire where she walks<br /> Lola Montez so beautiful<br /> Shady and a tempered dame<br /> Blinding your eyes with her spider dance<br /><br /> Her performance utterly erotic subversive to all ideas<br /> And for public morality<br /> And cool as she was she didn't care<br /> See the miner throw his gold<br /> Lifting her skirt howling loud like a wolf<br /> Hell raising and full of sin<br /> When Lola was dancing and showing her skin<br /><br /> Wherever she walks<br /> She'll be captivating all the men<br /> Don't look in her eyes<br /> You might fall and find the love of your life heavenly<br /> But she'll catch you in her web<br /> The love of your life, yeah.<br /><br /> Feel the fire where she walks<br /> Lola Montez so beautiful<br /> Shady and a tempered dame<br /> Blinding your eyes with her spider dance<br /><br /> Well notorious I have been<br /> But never for fame that's what she said<br /> Dear Henry taste my whip<br /> Never to see any words you print<br /><br /> Wherever she walks<br /> She'll be captivating all the men<br /> Don't look in her eyes<br /> You might fall and find the love of your life heavenly<br /> But she'll catch you in her web<br /> The love of your life, yeah.<br /><br /> Oh Lola I'm sure that the love would have been<br /> The key to all your pain<br /> The key to all your pain<br /> No words will later come<br /> Did the spider bite your tongue<br /> We will surely not forget<br /> We will surely not forget<br /> The Lola spider dance<br /><br /> Whoa!<br /><br /> Don't look in her eyes<br /> You might fall and find the love of your life heavenly<br /> But she'll catch you in her web<br /> The love of your life, yeah</em> </span></div>
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Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-9743938876601579512014-12-24T16:14:00.002-08:002014-12-28T08:14:06.060-08:00Lost In My Mind<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">(I wrote this blog before I went into the hospital. My hospital stay reminded me just how important everthing I say in this blog is.)</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">“If you live long enough, you'll make
mistakes. But if you learn from them, you'll be a better person.
It's how you handle adversity, not how it affects you. The main
thing is never quit, never quit, never quit.”</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">- William J. Clinton
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm not quitting. I'm writing. That
means a lot. I haven't been writing lately. If you've ever read
this blog, my not writing says it all. I don't have to say anymore.
When I write, things are good. When I don't write.... Let's just
say I'm not writing. Better yet, lets just say, “I Get Lost in my
Mind!” And, that is an understatement! I need to stay clean,
clear my head and keep it that way! I need to keep writing.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I don't have to write about me, but I
need to write. In fact, I don't want to write something like this
anymore. I don't want to write about how “I haven't been writing
and we know what that means” again. In so many words, I've said
this before. I don't want to say it again.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am alive. That matters! That
matters a lot to someone like me. Not only am I alive, I've also
been blessed in so many ways. I live on the 26<sup>th</sup> floor of
a high rise building in San Francisco. That is a dream come true. I
jokingly say “I earned it the hard way.” Actually, the way I
“earned it”, is no joke. What I did that ultimately led up to my
“earning it” is also how I could lose it. I don't want to lose
it. And, I don't want to lose my life! That is always possible.
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have lost so much. So many things
that meant and still mean so much to me. This includes nearly losing my
life - at least a couple of times. That's actually how I earned my
housing. A suicide attempt that landed me in
the hospital for 6 months and left me disabled. That qualified me for housing
assistance. I like what my doctor calls my suicide attempt. She
calls it a “methamphetamine induced psychotic reaction”. Even
when I'm hating myself, I couldn't harm myself. When I am using, I
am more than hating myself. I am definitely harming myself. Suicide
attempts have occurred.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">This blog is suppose to be The Truth.
And, it is. This doesn't mean I have to disclose every nitty-gritty
dirty whacked out crazy detail about me. In fact, if I always write
and don't digress, their will be no nitty-gritty dirty whacked out crazy details
to write about. I will live in The Truth. I will keep my word. I'd
prefer to write about Good things. Things that occur when I am
living life in a Good Orderly Direction. Yes. I'd prefer to write about
GOD. This is because to me, God is The Truth and The Truth is God.
I can't define it any better than that for anyone. It's <i>my</i>
definition. It's what <i>I</i> must believe.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I always wanted to move to New York or
San Francisco. I love big cities. I love skyscrapers. I was
fortunate enough to go to the top of The World Trade Center before it
was destroyed. In fact, it was September 11<sup>th</sup>, 2001 that
I knew how much I had to make a change in my life. I don't know how
to explain it, but it meant so much to me that I had to do something!
I had to make a big change in the way I was living. I was
struggling with addiction, but didn't yet understand that I needed to
stop using. I thought I needed to move and make a difference. I had
visited New York and San Francisco, but I knew living in them would
be different. Was I ever right!</span><br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-fB1yux_aCoY/VJ7pDM8N6sI/AAAAAAAACNo/HJIvUcXCZcw/s1600/download23.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-fB1yux_aCoY/VJ7pDM8N6sI/AAAAAAAACNo/HJIvUcXCZcw/s1600/download23.jpg" height="366" width="640" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>I took these sometime in the '90's before I was a "professional" photographer and obviously before I had a digital camera. I photographed the photographs with my digital camera years ago to have a digital copy. I know I have photos from the top - somewhere! </em></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Growing up, I always thought of the
years 2001 and 2010. It could be those Space Odyssey movies, but I
never really got into those. I would wonder,
“Where will I be in 2010?", " How old will I be?”, “What will I be
doing?” I especially wondered about the year 2010. I never
understood it. In 2010, I would understand it.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">In 2002, I got my dream job at The San
Francisco Chronicle. It was in my dream city – San Francisco. San
Francisco is where I decided I wanted to live. I proposed to my
high school sweetheart, Susan, in San Francisco in 1995. I was going
to propose to her at the top of the CN Tower in Toronto because The
Grateful Dead were playing at The Toronto Sky Dome and we had mail
order tickets. Then, Jerry Garcia died. We weren't going to Toronto
anymore. I was then going to propose to her on the jumbotron in New York
Cities Time Square, but they quit allowing wedding proposals on the
jumbotron. I then learned one of my high school buddies who was living in Montana would be in
San Francisco for a couple of days. We had never been to San
Francisco. This was a good excuse to go to San Francisco. This was a good excuse for a surprise Christmas present –
plane tickets to San Francisco. We flew to San Francisco and stayed
in Chinatown. I looked for the highest point. The highest point in
that area is Telegraph Hill. I proposed to her at Coit Tower.
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">We also honeymooned in San Francisco
and other parts of California. We would visit San Francisco at least
10 more times. And, as I said, we would move to San Francisco in
2002. I now realize, in many ways, I was doing a geographical. A geographical is
what addicts sometimes do to escape their addictions. I
didn't figure drugs would be such a problem for me in San Francisco.
I'm an addict. Actually, I didn't figure I would do them once I was
here. However, I'm an addict.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Because I am an addict, I would lose
the job of my dreams. Something better began to arise in my clean
times. Susan's parent's bought us a little digital camera before we
moved here and I would take photos of San Francisco as I saw it.
Many people complimented me on how good my photos were. I began to
realize that I had an eye for photography. San Francisco has a
street artist program and I began setting up my sales stand to sell
my photography on the streets to people from all over the world. This
all began to make sense. I met Susan in art class in high school.
Art was in my soul.
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So many years would go by and I would
go in and out of my addiction. My dad died in 2006 and that's when I
began writing this blog. After all, it was imperative that I share
The Truth. I thought by always writing The Truth, I would live The
Truth, but.... Here I am today. I AM writing today. I am writing
The Truth.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I've always loved lemons. Because of
this, Susan bought me a lemon tree. We put it on our back porch. Hummingbirds would always visit the lemon tree when it was blooming. By
now, I was becoming a better photographer and street artist. I now
had a Nikon D50. I would wait at my desk for the hummingbirds to
show up to the lemon tree so I could capture a photo of one with my
camera. After a short amount of time, I captured one.
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>This was one of my best sellers for many years.</em></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">After many years of being very good to
me and my continuing to struggle to stay clean, Susan finally said
that she was going to get her Masters degree and when she graduated
in 2010, she was moving back to Cincinnati. She wanted to buy a
home, help her family and to possibly adopt a child. More than
anything, she wanted her husband to be clean! I could get clean and
come with her or she was going to have to go without me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I was still struggling to stay clean.
Susan and I would take one last trip to New York City to watch the
ball drop on New Years Eve and see the Bengals play the Jets at the
last game ever played at the old Giants Stadium. While there, we
visited the World Trade Center site. They were selling gilded leaves
from a tree that survived the World Trade Center attack. Knowing how
much I loved skyscrapers and how much The World Trade Center meant to
me, Susan bought us a set. She also bought my step grandmother, Nana
a set. She too was greatly moved by The World Trade Centers
destruction.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I continued to use and Susan continued
to get her Masters Degree. I used all the way up until to her graduation.
Her parents came out to attend her graduation ceremony. On the day
after she graduated, I used. Susan came home early that day and
found me choking on my own blood and turning blue. I was having a seizure.
She called 911. They told her what to do. She saved my life. I was in the ICU for a week.
This experience would open up my eyes for a few months. I stayed clean. This is
what 2010 meant all those years! Susan saved life in 2010. I would get clean and stay clean in
2010. This is what it meant until I used at the end of 2010. 2010
now meant I would begin losing everything, including my high school sweetheart. 2010 would be the year things would begin to get very
dark. Susan couldn't watch me kill myself
anymore. She gave me more chances than I deserved. I would
eventually end up homeless and on the street. And, I kept using.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Eventually, events would occur that
would lead to my getting into a recovery program - Christian Chaos. By now, Susan had
started dating other people. This was hard for me, but we were
divorced, and she had given me so many chances. While clean and in
that program, I prayed for Gods Will. I was willing to be with Susan, but it was not my will I was praying for. Eventually, Susan would get
pregnant from a very nice man who lived in Cincinnati. He is one of her brothers
best friends. This meant that Susan would get everything she ever
wanted. Not the way she wanted it, but now she could move to
Cincinnati, help her family, buy a house, have a husband that didn't use and have a child. A child
that would hopefully be with her when she got old because we knew I
wouldn't be. She never wanted to have a child, she wanted to adopt a
child that needed a home because too many children needed homes. She
has such a big heart. Now, I was able help her do things a pregnant woman
couldn't do. Things like change my cats cat litter. Fortunately, Christian Chaos was only a block away from where we lived in San Francisco for so many years. I was also able to help
her move back to Cincinnati - the home we had moved to San Francisco from ten years earlier.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Things were better for me clean.
That's until the day she moved. That day, a cute young woman I would nicknamed "Tweaker Chick" showed up the front door of Christian Chaos and begged me to shoot up with her and then have sex with her. I didn't shoot up with her, but I couldn't resist having sex with
her. By doibg so, I was practicing one of my addictions with her that was always linked
to my using the way I had been using for so many years. I.V. meth and sex is the lust of my life. I wrote about it in this blog because this blog
was always suppose to be The Truth. This blog is my Truth. It was my Truth that had recently gotten me clean and allowed me to do other good things. This was not a good thing. This was a Truth that would hurt.
This Truth ultimately led to my being dismissed from Christian Chaos. Now, I
would definitely use. That's until so many of you rallied around me and offered to help me. So many good people in San
Francisco took me in and allowed me to stay with them until I could
get my life back together.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">This is what I did. I got my life back
together with the help of some very Good people who opened up their
homes to me. Eventually, I would become a street artist again and
rent my own room in an SRO. I was very happy to be able to support
myself.
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It was at this time in early 2011 that San Francisco would begin building
skyscrapers all over the city. As I have said, I love skyscrapers.
I decided I would photograph these skyscrapers being built and create
a Facebook photograph folder and call it, “San Francisco Grows”. I was beginning to question just what this blog was
accomplising since I had been clean for a while. While <u>out</u> running
one night, something bigger, I call God told me, “I had a story to
tell” and “I had a song to share”. I wrote that blog but never
returned to take the necessary photos that were to go with it. I
never posted that blog that essentially told me to keep writing. Always writing always means </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am not using. I used. I stopped writing.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The blog I wrote that I never posted is called<em> My Hero. </em>It is at the end of the blog <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/ocean-size.html" target="_blank"><em>Ocean Size</em></a>.</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>I took these photos a few years ago when I began my "San Francisco Grows" folder. All three are now complete. Two are my neighbors</em></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Now things got incredibly dark. I don't want
to go into the details, but my death was eminent. One month after
Susan had her baby, I used and then walked to San Bruno and found the
highest structure I could. It was a 5 story parking garage at the B.A.R.T. station. I
jumped.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Waking up in the hospital a month later
in so much pain with a body full of broken bones and being told I
would never walk again made me grateful. If I would never walk
again, I would never use again! I was grateful to be alive. I spent 6 months in the
hospital and 5 ½ months in drug rehab. I had no idea how I would
take care of myself, but I was alive. I was then blessed with
something I never expected but always dreamed of – housing on the
26<sup>th</sup> floor of a highrise building in San Francisco. Despite all of my
blessings, I did what I said I would never do again but have always done, I used. How could I
use after all I had been through and after all I had lost? I still have no idea,
but I did. I am an addict.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I reguraly visit a phsychiatrist,
because I am diagnosed Bi-Polar, PTSD and I am also Schizo-effective.
This means that when I use I hear voices. Actually, I was even
hearing voices with 11 months clean, but they are much more
supportive when I am not using.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">A couple of months ago, my stepgrandmother, Nana who is 90
years old was in the hospital. I was worried about her and told my
pshychiatrist about what was going on. Every day, I look at those
gilded leaves hanging above my kitchen counter that represent SO much
to me. They remind me of all that I have been blessed with and, of course, Nana.</span></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>My older brother bought me the little wood faced guy years ago. I've always loved the woods. I made the cross while in Laguna Honda Hospital.</em></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My pshychiatrist ask me to make a
collage. She ask me to use my artitic photography skills to do so.
I finally spent a few hours walking around beautiful San Francisco to
add photos to the folder I made years ago I call “San Francisco
Grows”. It was a beautiful day to be alive. It made me something I struggle to be in my fight with addiction. It made me happy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Seeing as though I don't have a lot of
money I made a hummingbird feeder using a shot glass and some of the art supplies people bought me while I
was in the hospital. Art is in my soul. I was noticing how
hummingbirds investigate every porch in this highrise building.
Susan is a vegitarian because she loves animals. I also love animals
and because of Susan, I too am a vegitarian. I thought making a
little hummingbird feeder may attract them. I photographed it and
sent the photograph to Susan and posted it on Facebook. I never saw
a hummingbird come to my feeder.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My 43<sup>rd</sup> birthday was on December 7th. It was a good birthday. I took care of myself. More
importanly, I didn't use! Susan bought me a hummingbird feeder for
my birthday. I hung it and called Susan. Within 10 minutes, while I
was on the phone with Susan, a hummingbird showed up! I was so
happy! Susan was so happy! If I'm happy and little hummingbirds are
happy, Susan is happy. This makes me even happier!</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>This is the hummingbird feeder Susan bought me for my birthday.</em></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am so grateful for everything I have.
Today I meet with my phsychiatrist. She is the one who suggested I
make the collage that would remind me of reasons to stay clean and
keep my high rise housing which is a blessing. She also encouraged me to
write. I really look forward to my appointment today. I really look
forward to writing. I really look forward to living life. I don't
want to ever be “Lost In My Mind” again. I'm not “Lost In My
Mind” today! I'm living life. Thanks to everyone who has been so
Good to me. Thank you God. I get to watch “San Francisco Grow”.
And yes, that <em>bridge did get built.</em></span></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>The new Bay Bridge East Span that was recently built.</em></span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">And below is the collage project I
completed today and, I wrote a blog. I meet with my psychiatrist
in 2 hours. Today is a Good day!</span></div>
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Put your dreams away for now*<br />I won't see you for some time<br />I am lost in my mind<br />I get lost in my mind<br /><br />Momma once told me<br />You're already home where you feel love<br />I am lost in my mind<br />I get lost in my mind<br /><br />Oh my brother<br />Your wisdom is all that I need<br />Oh my brother<br />Don't you worry 'bout me<br />Don't you worry<br />Don't you worry<br />Don't worry about me<br /><br />How's that bricklayin' coming<br />How's your engine running<br />Is that bridge getting built<br />Are your hands getting filled<br /><br />Won't you tell me my brother<br />Cause there are stars up above<br />We can start moving forward<br /><br />How?s that bricklayin? coming<br />How?s your engine running<br />Is that bridge getting built<br />Are your hands getting filled<br /><br />Won?t you tell me my brother<br />Cause there are stars up above<br />We can start moving forward<br /><br />Lost in my mind<br />Lost in my mind<br />Oh I get Lost in my mind<br />Lost, I get lost, I get lost in my mind<br />Lost in my mind<br />Yes I get lost in my mind<br />Lost, I get lost, I get lost<br />Oh I get lost<br />Oh I get</span></em></div>
Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-5372855372346962052014-08-02T11:03:00.004-07:002014-08-02T17:38:15.064-07:00I'll Take A Melody<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I haven't written a blog
lately. If you've read this blog, you know why. I am so amazed that I
have continued to use after all I lost, nearly lost and could lose. I can't believe that I choose to use, but I do. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">T</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">hings are getting better. I've not completely given up.
I've come close. A few weeks ago, things got so insane. I don't even
want to talk about it. I don't even want to think about it. I'm still
dealing with the damage and may have more. I hope not.</span></div>
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So many people have helped
me over the years. It's important I remain grateful. People I have
been in rehab with like to come over and sometimes use here. That can
never happen again. I say that and yet this chick came over and was
using, her way, in my bathroom last night! It's so frustrating. I
have enough trouble staying clean on my own. About a month ago, this
chick came over and used, MY WAY, with me. I didn't even know she
used, MY WAY. It got so ridiculous. I'm ridiculous enough by myself. I need to be done. I'm done with her, that is for sure.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I've done better the past
couple of weeks. I kind of hit a new bottom. As if hitting the ground
after jumping off the 5th floor of a parking garage by San Francisco
International Airport was not bottom enough. It was even worse than
that. The world was coming to an end, I was going to hell and worse.
Yes worse. I'll leave it at that. Those days are over.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name=":z.1"></a><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">These
days are here. Susan is in San Francisco for the first time since she left two years ago. She got here yesterday. When she got here, she
came to my place first. She stayed with her friend in Oakland. She's here
for a conference. That woman is so important and so smart. She was so good
to me. She even saved my life. That's how f'd up my addiction is. I
lose things that really matter to me. I even lose things I love. I
lust for that drug the way I do it. It's sick.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name=":z.3"></a><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Two years
ago, Susan was moving back to Cincinnati under a whole lot of
unforeseen circumstances, that were, I do believe, God's Will. The
last time I saw her, she said, it was not "goodbye", but
"see you later." Months later, she'd have her first baby
and within a month, I'd attempt suicide. It's a long story, but
essentially, it's as f'd up as it sounds. To me, it was even more f'd up than it sounds. No matter what it was, it was almost "goodbye."</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">
</span><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name=":z.6"></a><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Her
coming to San Francisco has given me more reason to stay clean and has
even reminded me just how Good staying clean is. I know that, but
sometimes I get lost in the misery in which only using takes away for
a short time. It always makes things worse. Always. Staying clean
means so many things.</span><br />
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Jerry Day. Every year for the past 12, Jerry Garcia's birthday is
celebrated at Jerry Garcia Amphitheater at McClaren Park in The
Excelsior District where Jerry grew up. I've been to so many. I may have even gone to the first one. It was an early one.</span><br />
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playing here in a couple of months. They are playing right next door at Bill Graham
Auditorium. I think some of my old high school friends may be going.
They came last year while I was in rehab. I could not go, but I did
get to see them. Now, I live right next door! I asked my little
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than music to stay clean. However, music is my soul in many ways. It
always speaks to me and says what I need to hear, when I need to hear
it. Albert Einstein said that, "Coincidence is God's way of
staying anonymous." <em>I'll
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seen the rain pouring down The sky was grey with a speck of blue<br />Peek
through a hole in the clouds The sun was screaming, "Hey
You!".<br /><br />As you ramble through your sorrow Seems like
everything come out wrong<br />I'm living in yesterday's tomorrows I
know something is helping me along<br /><br />I'll take a melody and see
what I can do about it.<br />I'll take a simple C and G and feel brand
now about it.<br /><br />I understand why the old fisherman<br />sail
along, sail along, sail along. sail along, sail along,<br />someday
he'll be gone<br /><br />I hear you talking about your
troubles<br />Everybody's got their troubles too<br />You can make them
burst like bubbles<br />If you know just what to do<br /><br />You know
I've been called a dreamer<br />Dreams that never come true<br />But I've
been called so many things before<br />Tell you what I'm gonna do<br /><br />I'll
take a melody and see what I can do about it.<br />I'll take a simple C
and G and feel brand now about it.<br /><br />I understand why the old
fisherman<br />sail along, sail along, sail along. sail along, sail
along,<br />someday he'll be gone<br /><br />I'll take a melody and see
what I can do about it.<br />I'll take a simple C and G and feel brand
now about it.<br /><br />Shine on, keep on shining, shine on,<br />keep on
shining, shine on, keep on shining,<br />Shine on, keep on shining,
shine on,<br />keep on shining, shine on, keep on shining,<br />Shine on,
keep on shining, shine on,<br />keep on shining, shine on, keep on
shining,<br />Shine on, keep on shining, shine on,<br />keep on shining,
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</span>Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-84091286854993280792014-06-16T19:29:00.002-07:002014-06-17T09:09:54.014-07:00Learning to Fly<span class="userContent" data-ft="{"tn":"K"}"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">(I wrote this blog a couple of weeks ago but did not post it. I am having computer problems and I have continued to slip. I'm still heading in the right direction and think it is very important that I post this blog. It even means more now than it did a couple of weeks ago. <em>I'm Learning to Fly....)</em></span></span></span><br />
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<span class="userContent" data-ft="{"tn":"K"}" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">"I don't know what your destiny will be, but one thing I know: the only ones among you who will be really happy are those who have sought and found how to serve."<br /><br /> - Albert Schweitzer"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I'm grateful to be alive. I'm grateful I am clean today. I am grateful for "Wally World", my recovery program. I am grateful that I have been keeping my word. I'm grateful that I can help those who have helped me. I'm grateful I can serve. I've had some slips in my recovery lately, but I have been managing to do what I say I am going to do and to help others. <em>I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings.</em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Showing up is so important. Doing what I say I will do, such as making it to band practice is important! I'm even going to fun events. By becoming responsible, I am actually enjoying life. Still, I have been slipping lately. After all, using my drug the way I use it, is the lust of my life. So much so that I have used when I have had plenty of reasons to "never use again"<em>. </em>Obviously, the lust of my life feels incredibly good to me. So much so, that I continue to do it despite it's negative consequences. As good as it feels, <em>What goes up, must come down. </em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My life has nearly ended, at least twice. My last reason to "never use again" was my near death experience that I actually chose. As a result of a "methamphetamine induced psychotic reaction", as my doctor termed it, I attempted suicide. I walked to San Bruno and jumped off the 4th or 5th floor of a parking garage. <em>Coming down, is the hardest thing. </em>If I am clean, I can be hating myself, and still not want to hurt myself. That drug and what it makes me do is so dark. It's so dark, I lust for it. It is <em>that</em> dark. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><em>I'm learning to fly. </em> I need to take baby steps. Just showing up matters. Being with others in recovery matters. Going to a 12 step meeting matters. Showing up at Wally World matters. Band practice matters. Did I just say these things? If I did, at least I'm dwelling on Good things. Speaking of going to band practice, The Alano's saxophone player and I went to the Walnut Creek Art and Wine Festival. Obviously, anyone in a <em>band</em> called The Alano's is in recovery, so wine was not the attraction. The attraction was music. And, art. We are both artist.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Some of the band members think I have a good Tom Petty voice, so we do three Tom Petty songs. We do <em>American Girl, Last Dance with Mary Jane </em>and<em> Breakdown. </em>They have even suggested we be a Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers cover band. We do too many other good songs from other bands for that to be. Plus, I try to keep adding Grateful Dead songs to our set list. So far, we have done three songs that The Grateful Dead<em> cover</em>. We do Eric Clapton's, <em>Knocking on Heaven's Door, </em>The Rolling Stone's,<em> This Could be the Last Time</em> and we just started Buddy Holly's<em>, Not Fade Away. </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Not Fade Away</em> is one of the songs I performed on stage with my little brothers band when I was back in Cincinnati. I wanted to have a <em> Grateful Gathering. </em>The <em>Grateful Gathering</em> was a reunion of the fundraiser my family and friends had for me when I was in the ICU. I am still very grateful for those events.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It was a really good day. It was really hot! We are not accustom to heat in San Francisco. Mother Natures air conditioner (The Pacific Ocean) keeps us nice and cool all summer long. When it gets hot in California's Central Valley, as it does all summer long, the air heats up and, of course, rises. When the thin hot air rises over the continent, it is replaced by the dense cool air over the Pacific Ocean. This creates San Francisco's famous fog. If you live near the Ocean it is usually foggy all summer. However, if you live in neighborhoods near downtown, such as The Civic Center, where I live, it is usually sunny. It's still nice and cool. If it is 90 degrees 20 miles inland, such as Walnut Creek, where the festival was held, it will be 70 degrees in San Francisco. The day we went, it was 90 in Walnut Creek and it was 70 in San Francisco. It's dry heat and it was worth it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I knew I hadn't written a blog lately and knew I needed to write one. I figured I would hear a song that would be my next blog. The Universe just works that way. I even recorded this one.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-20262875121181510662014-05-22T14:44:00.000-07:002014-05-22T20:51:33.374-07:00Desperado<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I don't have much to say. I think when I don't write, it is pretty obvious that I am struggling. When I am struggling, I am using. So many people have helped me, cared about me and loved me when I was not helping, caring about or loving myself. It's amazing that I continue to use. I should be dead.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am alive. For that I need to be grateful. If I keep using, I will lose everything. Suicide is not really an option for me anymore. It was<em> </em>WRONG. This doesn't mean death isn't very possible. I went to the emergency room a couple of weeks ago. I knew I shouldn't have done what got me there. I didn't want to die. I still used. Being alive and "walking through this world alone" sure wouldn't be something that I would be able to believe in, but if I continue to use and isolate, that's likely what it will be. I really can't use. I am not suppose to give up on people who care about me. I am supposed to be with people and stop telling people I'm wrong. I knew that a long time ago. If I'm wrong, I'm wrong. I don't need to say it. I need to know it. I know it. I just can't be wrong. If am not wrong, I won't be wrong so I will have no reason to say I'm wrong.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I will admit that I do continue to do some recovery. It does help. So many have cared about someone like me and I have no idea why. It might be a God thing. God cares about people who care about people. God doesn't care about the things I do when I am using. After all, why would God care about something that is not Good. I'm not saying God doesn't care about me. God just doesn't care about the bad things I do. No one does. It doesn't mean God and people are not compassionate. It's up to me to believe in God and all of the people who have cared about me. Saving my life a couple of times is a pretty big deal. If I stay with God, God will stay with me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Self pity is not a good thing and I know that. I just feel bad for doing the bad things I do. I need to let go. Let go and let God. While this may not be hard for many, it is for me. Using should not be an option, but it is. I have been given so many amazing and beautiful things. Things I always dreamed of having. One of those things is life itself. It's important I be grateful for what I have. Otherwise, "(my) prison will be walking through this world all alone." Or, death. I don't even want to imagine that.... Using was not that hard. Using will never be good for me. I was always suppose to know that. I can't keep using. People have even tried to suggest that I be with people who care about me. No one wants me to be with myself all the time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">When I use, I don't keep my word. I lie. The Truth will always matter. All's I have to do is stop caring about myself, which is also all I need to do. It's not just hard on me, it's hard on those who have cared about me. I hope to care about others some day, especially those who have cared about me. Just showing up and keeping my word shows I care. If I continue to use....</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><em>Desperado, why don't you come to your senses? <br /> You been out ridin' fences for so long now <br /> Oh, you're a hard one <br /> I know that you got your reasons <br /> These things that are pleasin' you <br /> Can hurt you somehow <br /><br /> Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy <br /> She'll beat you if she's able<br /> The queen of hearts is always your best bet <br /><br /> Now it seems to me, some fine things <br /> Have been laid upon your table <br /> But you only want the ones that you can't get <br /><br /> Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger <br /> Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home <br /> And freedom, oh freedom, well that's just some people talkin' <br /> Your prison is walking through this world all alone <br /><br /> Don't your feet get cold in the winter time? <br /> The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine <br /> It's hard to tell the night time from the day <br /> You're losin' all your highs and lows <br /> Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away? <br /><br /> Desperado, why don't you come to your senses? <br /> Come down from your fences, open the gate <br /> It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you <br /> You better let somebody love you, before it's too late</em> </span></span></div>
Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-78083175142673561242014-04-07T12:14:00.000-07:002015-10-04T20:41:32.081-07:00Found in a Fall<span style="font-size: large;">(I always hoped that someday my photography and my writing would somehow matter to others. It means more to me than I can briefly explain. It means everything. I really do appreciate all of the support and encouragement I have received as a result of my photography and writing. I mainly write about my "story" and the people who happen to be around me. It's really about God. I want my writing to help people. Now, for the first time, I wrote about someone else's "story". Writing about this man helped me. I hope to continue writing about peoples struggles and their successes. Below is Michaels story. It will soon appear in Laguna Honda's Hospital's n</span><span style="font-size: large;">ewspaper - <em>The Voice</em>. )</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">"I've found myself in a fall. I'm
knowing myself for the first time. It's a total awakening – beyond
words. Words would only cheapen it. It's more. I will fill in the
blanks next time we meet.”</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">We did meet. And, Michael did more
than fill in the blanks. Michael inspired me to be a better person.
He is an amazing person. He went through a lot to complete himself
to be that person. Being a former Laguna Honda Hospital patient, I
too have been through a lot. He inspires me. I believe his story
will inspire many.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Michael was divorced in early 2013.
Following his divorce, he became very depressed. For ten years, he
was accustomed to taking care of his children. With the divorce,
things had changed. Michael began living very recklessly. Though he
had always been a bit of a daredevil, he began taking more risks. He
began doing things like skateboarding more recklessly. He is also a
climber. Before, he climbed rocks, but in his new reckless life, he
began climbing buildings! He did these things to amuse his friends.
They were amused. In fact, they found it “amazing”.
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<span style="font-size: large;">One night, Michael climbed up a 4 story
building at the corner of 6th and Minna, but did not climb down. He fell down. He knew “it was
going to hurt”. He fell feet first and then fell forward onto his
face. He broke 24 bones in the fall - many in his face. He also
shattered his femur, knee, right ankle, and right shoulder.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Michael was rushed to General Hospital
and was heavily medicated. Upon awakening, he was nude and was
surrounded by 4 beautiful nurses. Michaels first thought “this is
heaven.” Then, he looked down to see his knee cap flopped over to
the side of his leg. This was his reality. The pain began.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">After spending some time at General
Hospital, Michael was transferred to Laguna Honda for recovery. He
was terrified he would never be able to walk again.
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">Michael's 5<sup>th</sup>
day at Laguna Honda Hospital</span></em></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Prior to his fall, Michael made his
living as an artist. He feared losing his passion. He used to pull
the covers over his head so the nurses would not walk in on him when
he was in tears, as he wondered about his future and feared the
worst. Would he be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life?
Michael is a sculptor and says it is very necessary for him to be on
his feet to create his art. His injuries made him believe that he
was about to lose the one thing he believed he still had – art.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For the first couple of months
Michael's legs were non-weight-bearing. Just putting his legs over
the side of the bed was excruciating. He could not imagine the pain
when he would actually try to stand. He had experienced a lot of
pain in his life, but nothing like this. Although Michael was in a
lot of pain, and full of fear, he never gave up on his passion for
art. He regularly created sculptures in Laguna Honda's weekly
pottery class.</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Michaels creation in
Laguna Honda's pottery class.</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Michael continued to pursue his
passion, yet he still feared he may never walk again. Michael's
first hope came the first time he got into the swimming pool for
physical therapy. He says his physical therapist is an absolute
angel. Those who work at Laguna Honda have angelic reputations from
many of their patients. In time, Michael did walk again and is on
his way back into an even better life than he had before the
incident.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Michael believes his fall taught him
very much. He believes the pain and his fears of never walking
again, made him a better person. The incident changed him. He
truly believes he <i>found himself in a fall.</i> He is now grateful
for everything. Micheal was very successful early in life and
believes that in some ways, that success may have hindered his art
career. He thinks he may have taken some things for granted. He
believes he now has gratitude for what he does. He says that now he
is not out to please everyone, he is out to make art.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For Michael, life today is beautiful. He
cares about himself. He loves himself. He says that “self-honesty”
is number one. During Michaels reckless days, people did not want
to be around him. Now, they do. People are now on board with
him.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Michael says that he was even inspired
by his “haters”. He wanted to prove that absolutely nothing
could stop him. Not having a lot of visitors while in the hospital,
he made the people around him his family. Laguna Honda has a great
reputation for this. Michael continues to see the patients at Laguna
Honda as family. He volunteers at the hospital because he has “been
there.” He understands where they are.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">He is now giving back to the place that
gave so much to him. He can relate to the people who are hurting at
Laguna Honda and he continues to volunteer to help patients in
pottery classes, helping to inspire people to create beautiful art.</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Michael volunteering at
Laguna Honda's pottery class.</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Michael’s goal is to help and give back to
people who have been where he has recently been. He feels if he can
relate to someone then he has something to offer. He also plans to
grow his name in the art world. And, he is. He recently had a show
at Stanford University and is currently creating sculptures for a
beautiful restaurant complex.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">It is said that things happen for a
reason. This amazing artist was on a very reckless path which
created an incredibly difficult incident for him to find his way
through. He not only found his way, he found himself. He really is
on his way toward a better life. Michael said it best himself,
“I've found myself in a fall.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"></span><br />Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-25817194121320812982014-03-31T10:21:00.001-07:002015-09-17T16:07:10.172-07:00Let Love Rule<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have not written a blog for a while. I've been busy - mostly using. It's sad, but it is true. How I could have ever decided to use again, I'll never know. I do know one thing - what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. My last insane episode in which I had a methamphetamine induced psychotic reaction (suicide attempt) did not kill me. It's a long story, but in my insanity, I thought I had to kill myself. All I am trying to say is, I'm going to make it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Even the <em>voices</em> aren't always trying to kill me. Even the devil doesn't want me dead anymore. Probably because it would be bad for him too, but.... Using is so wrong still. I know this. I must stop. Some of the <em>voices</em> have said I shouldn't even write. That simply tells me one thing. I shouldn't use. <em>We</em> all agree on that point. When I don't use, I don't really hear <em>voices</em>. Or, when I do hear them, they are pretty supportive. They can even be supportive when I am using sometimes - as long as I'm not playing with myself. One of them said to me the other day, "We are all in this together." That touched my heart and reminded me that - we are!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I was beginning to believe that this blog was not really doing too much for anyone anymore. It's supposed to help people - including me. If it helps people, it helps me. I have this friend who also struggles with addiction. She's been reading my blog for a while. One night, when I was clean and at Wally World I called her when she was having a hard night. Did I mention how hot she is? It really wasn't about that. She's still hot. Actually, she is a beautiful human being.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">The other day, she really helped me believe that this blog does matter. She recently got back out on her own by getting her own place! And, recently she sent me this message. "<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null">Dude I want to go get smashing drunk, do a few lines, pop some Valiums and smoke a joint. BUT I CAN'T. I LOVE ME. THE OTHER STUFF BROUGHT NOTHING BUT PAIN IN MY LIFE AND CAUSED SO MANY PROBLEMS. YOU, YES YOU MR. BEATY KEEP ME SOBER! <span data-measureme="1"><span class="null">My love for you is heavenly pure."</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span data-measureme="1"><span class="null" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I too love her. She touched my heart with her message. She also helped me want to stay clean. She reminded me that this blog actually does matter. People matter. I love all of you. It was all of you who supported me when I was in the hospital last year. I can't tell you how much that really meant to me. It still does. It always will. Thank you all. I really do love you.</span></span></span></span><br />
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<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span data-measureme="1"><span class="null" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I also love being at Wally World's outpatient program. Recovery is full of so many good people. One of my favorite new friends is now blind. His blindness happened in a using related accident years ago. I will use a nickname since he is in recovery. However, I promise you his real name fits ever better to this really cool story. He chose his nickname.</span></span></span></span><br />
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<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span data-measureme="1"><span class="null" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Mack worked for Ultra Sound. Ultra Sound is the sound company for the Grateful Dead. He has so many good stories to tell. The other day, he was wearing a shirt with an image of a microphone on it with little zig-zags lines coming out like it was making sound. I noticed the shirt and really liked it, but did not get the opportunity to ask him about it. He was talking about something else. And, knowing he'd been blind for a while, I wasn't sure how long he had it. I knew he must have known what it was of course since he's a sound guy.</span></span></span></span><br />
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<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span data-measureme="1"><span class="null" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Later, as I was unlocking my bike outside and getting ready to leave he said, "Oh, Dave, I wanted to tell you about this shirt." I had wanted to ask about it anyway, so I of course was ready to hear. He said that he was being his very talkative self while in the recording studio with The Grateful Dead. He said that Bob Weir came up to him and gave him this shirt with a mic on it. Mack appreciated it of course. Bob then told Mike that it has a mic on it because he talked to much and needed to be quiet!</span></span></span></span><br />
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<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span data-measureme="1"><span class="null" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Mack laughed quite a bit about this. It was funny. He does talk a lot. and that's one of the reasons I really like this guy. I think he may be our bands sound guy. He is blind now, so I'm not sure what he could do on the sound board, but I'm sure his presence will help. The last guy we had from Ultra Sound really helped. He worked for Dave Matthews Band. I also met him at Wally World. He, like many of our band members struggles to stay clean. We haven't seen him for a while. Unfortunately, we've lost our drummer. He too struggles. I did see him on the street last week at 2:00AM. Obviously, we were both up to no good. Our bass player, like our singer and guitar player (me) also struggle staying clean and miss practice sometimes.</span></span></span></span><br />
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<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span data-measureme="1"><span class="null" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I really liked Mack's story. As I was leaving, Mack, in so many words, said that he liked me. He says that people always ask him how Wally Worlds outpatient program is and if there are any interesting people. He says that he always tells them about "Five Story Dave". That was a new one. I've been called Super Dave, but never 5 Story Dave. I love people like him. People who make me smile. </span></span></span></span><br />
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<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span data-measureme="1"><span class="null" style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I really do love people. It is so important that I don't use. When I a using...I'm not loving people. I always want to love people. Always.</span></span></span></span><br />
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Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-50106639995506273272014-02-24T13:07:00.000-08:002014-02-24T13:11:36.419-08:00Bring Me To Life<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><span style="background-color: black; color: red;">I hate being nothing to no one. That is what I become every time I use. In my last blog, I said I needed to <em>Give to Live. </em> I have not stopped giving. I have not given up this time like I did last time. It means too much and I know that. However, I do keep using and that can't continue! </span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: red; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I also said in my last blog that by using I am killing myself. Even when I am alive, when I use, it is as if I am not alive. I begin to lose my soul. I literally become nothing to no one. I disappear and I am unreachable. Those who know me notice this every time.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: red; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I try to live The Truth. It's not as if I do not tell The Truth after the fact, but when I tell someone I will be somewhere it is important that I keep my word. Saying I will be somewhere and then not is basically lying the way I see it. I mean what I say when I say it, I just end up changing my plans. Basically, I choose to use and once I do that I can't do anything else.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: red; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It's important I be grateful that I am alive and have received so many blessings. The other thing I do not do when I use is take care of myself. It is so important I do certain things every day, many times a day or it could ultimately kill me. It would definitely hurt my health which really isn't that great anyway.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: red; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am alive. When I use it is as if people can<em> see into my eyes like open doors.</em> I know that God can and that should be enough, however, it seems more <em>people</em> can. I know that using is not living. I have to live. I mean really live life. If anyone is suppose to know that, it is me. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: red; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So many have been so good to me. I really am grateful for all that has been done, but it is important that I am always that way. I can't keep using. It means too much.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: red; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Unbelievably, I don't have a lot to say. My head is just not really there. I thought it was important that I say something. It's more important I do something. That something is STAY CLEAN. I haven't taken it too far yet. It's dark, but not that dark. Still, I need to find my soul.</span><br />
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Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-35281673896857052782014-02-11T16:43:00.000-08:002014-02-11T19:39:23.500-08:00GIVE TO LIVE! (part II)<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">"Without <em>great love</em> (and I mean great love) and <em>great suffering</em>, where there is a major defeat, major humiliation, major shock to the ego self, very few people will grow into mature faith."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>It's so much easier to push instead of pull. </em> I try not to reuse songs for blogs but I have to this time. I used this one November 6, 2012. I knew I had to <em><a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2012/11/i-dont-have-lot-of-time.html" target="_blank">Give to Live</a>.</em> I knew it! I was planning on getting back into a recovery program so I could start giving back to this amazing Universe which had already given me so much. I didn't do that. I nearly died. In fact, <em>I</em> tried to kill myself. I was nearly successful. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><span style="color: red;">To me it was simply proof that what I was dealing with was real. Armageddon would not happen and even I was given another chance. All's I tried to do was stop hurting everyone who loved me by killing myself. The way I believed it, the end was near and I was heading to hell soon. Why keep harming people in the parallel Universe with my insanity? The Good would go to a Good place and the bad would go to a bad place. I didn't give people much time to get things right. That was so twisted for me to want to give my life to stop hurting my loved ones. In <em>reality</em>, my death would have hurt my loved ones. I was so sick, yet I was given another chance at <em>LIFE!</em></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I knew I had to <em>Give to Live</em>. I still know this. I know that living is what matters. Using is in so many ways killing myself - even if I am alive. It hurts people when I disappear.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Now, so much <em>more </em>has been done for me by so many. I always hoped that some day my writing may actually be the thing the helps others. Millions of dollars were spent saving my life and getting me back on my feet and into a beautiful high rise apartment in downtown San Francisco. This blessing is a dream come true. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">How could I ever use again. I did. I wrote God a letter basically understanding that my continuing to use would mean nothing Good for me. I just wanted it to not hurt those who had helped me. Ultimately, that is my responsibility. I have to <em>Give to Live. </em>I must. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I was giving back to Laguna Honda Hospital until I relapsed. I was in the process of writing the story of a Laguna Honda patient who's j0urney through that hospital was very similar to mine. I photographed his progress and was planning to write about his journey. He is an amazing artist. He's a Good guy. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I've been clean for eight days. I start an outpatient program with Wally World tomorrow. I want to give back to that program. After Wally World, I am going to Laguna Honda Hospital to meet that amazing artist who I will call Found From The Fall. I already know a lot about him, but I plan to interview him. I have many photos of his journey and I will take more tomorrow. He now volunteers at Laguna Honda. He has really inspired me to get back on the path I was on.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Perhaps someday I will be a photo journalist. If it is God's Will then that is what <em>I</em> want. I have always wanted my writing to help God somehow. Ultimately, helping others will help God. I do know that. I also understand that God does not care for the thing I become when I use. I have to know that. The devil didn't care for me either - go figure. I need to move past all that and do the next right thing. I need to do Good.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I thought that my story would be Good after my "end of the world" suicide attempt. I hoped <em>and </em>I beleived that I would never use again. That's not how the story went. I can still never use again and make a difference in this Universe. I must <em>Give to Live. </em>I have been given so many chances and so many things by so many people - and God. This has to matter somehow. I don't want to be something big. Especially something big<em> and</em> bad. I do feel that I need to do something big for God and all of the wonderful people who have blessed me with so much.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It matters so much. I don't want to make a huge deal about me, but my surviving so many times is a big deal - to me. What so many have done for me is even a bigger deal for me. It has to be. I have to <em>Give to Live.</em> I said this back on November 6, 2012 - before I did so much wrong that I was bringing and end to the world. I didn't give anything Good. I have to this time. I must. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">That letter to God was serious. Not using was what it was all about, but I have to admit that I meant using one more time would not be Good for me. In many ways, it wasn't. It caused me to miss many important medical appointments and not do Good for others. Someone who has been so Good to me needed me and I wasn't available. He lost business because of me. That is not okay to do to someone who has been so good to me. I have to always be available.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I called my brother last night for the first time since I was in Cincinnati. It was great to talk to him. He sounded fine. In the middle of the night, he ended up in the hospital. He had his appendix removed. It must run in the family. I had mine removed when I was 12. It was a very painful experience. I know it's not incredibly serious if they catch it and take it out, but what if it had been incredibly serious. What if it did rupture. I need always be available and ready for anything. Always.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The experience that led to my methamphetamine induced psychotic reaction was so huge to me. I know the end of the world thing was insane. I was dealing with the devil. To me, it may have seemed that's what would have happened had I ended up in hell. How could I ever have used again? How could I now?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">On April 19th</span>, 2013 while I was in the hospital I wrote something I called "Crazy Talk". It went like this:</span></span><br />
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pain. Perhaps I will use again one day. Then, I will likely kill
myself. It's not like I'm making some sort of cry out for help.
Perhaps I am. The bottom line is, the day I start shooting up, my
call's out for help will end. Based on the way things have gone for
me in my addiction pattern means that since my last drug run was only
2 ½ months, my next one will be a lot shorter. The run before that
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</span><span style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: large;">I <em>have</em> called out for help. I have a lot of it. I start an outpatient program tomorrow with a program that already helped me. I have psychiatrist and psychologist helping me from organizations that have already been there for me. My head is pretty messed up from everything. Still, I have to <em>Give to Live. </em>I'm starting to do that again tomorrow. I am writing that article about Found From The Fall. He took a very similar journey as I did into, through and out of Laguna Honda. I will also start taking photos for Laguna Honda tomorrow. I have to <em>Give to Live.</em> I am starting to again.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I hate to repeat <em>Give to Live</em> over and over, but it really does matter to me. I'm not suicidal, but I know using could spell my death. I want to live. Eventually, using will be nothing Good for me. Taking care of myself is important. Losing everything and ending up on the street is killing myself in so many ways. Using is not living. That's a fact. Now that I have been giving and living for a few days, I feel alive! Alive. I am alive. That is a miracle. I am not a miracle - life is. I need always be grateful for that. It is so important to me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I have gotten many chances. This is likely the biggest one yet. I must <em>Give to Live</em> this time. I must.</span><br />
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Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-66226078315497430852014-01-28T13:15:00.000-08:002015-09-02T18:08:34.360-07:00Come A Little Closer<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>“First, come to the point where you realize you are alone, completely and utterly alone in the vastness of the universe and all of time. Then realize you are not alone. Look back on your life and see the people who stood by you. There were some. Realize the God of your understanding cares.”</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So many have been there for me over the years. I know God has been there for me over the years. Now that I live alone, I must always remember, I am not alone. It is SO important that I stay with God. It means SO much. I wrote a letter to God a couple of days ago. It began, "
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">This blog is suppose to help others. It's about me, but it's really suppose to be about God. That letter I wrote was very serious. It is very important I keep God in my life. If I were to fail, I hope that what people get out of it is a reason to believe in God - not me. When I use, I am not a Good person. I am sexual freak who disappears from everyone who cares about me. This is not okay. So many have been there for me and done so much for me. Millions of dollars were spent saving my life and getting me back to as Good of health as possible. My life has been saved more than once. One of my lifelong dreams came true when I was placed on the 26th floor of a high rise in downtown San Francisco. It is so important I remain grateful for all of these blessings. Not doing so will and should spell nothing Good for me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">When I keep God in my life, God gives me beautiful signs. God gives me a different beautiful sunset every night.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The first night I was really trying to stay in tune with God just a couple of nights ago, the light kept changing out my window every time I thought of God. It was so coincidentally captivating.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Saturday, I finally got to help out a friend who has done so much for me over the years. He is just one of many, but he has done a lot for me. My help to him is actually a Good thing for me too. He is making a film and I am The Director of Photography. That is so cool for me. I have to be clean in able to help him though. I took some stills for the film back in June of 2013, just after I got out of the wheelchair. I took some more on Saturday.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">On my way over, I was conversing with God in my head. I was thinking how important it was that I find a way to stay clean. As I looked down, I was reminded of something I have actually been considering - Jesus. I feel ridiculous saying it, but I think Jesus may matter for me. I believe I will never be able to make amends for everything I've done. When I was homeless, I found a Quran and read it. It scared me. I'm not saying it doesn't work for many. It does. In fact, I never really liked the way Christianity believed it was the only way, but it may be the only way for me. Perhaps the Son of God did die for my sins. I have committed many. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">What is most important is that I be a Good person in this life. I hope that I can somehow do that. Being "saved" will not by itself help me stay clean, but it couldn't hurt. I did grow up in a Christian home. In fact, when I think of my mother, I remember two things incredibly clearly. The day I found her dying and how when I was young she used to pour the communion in those little glasses at the church we attended. I assume that has to mean something. I want to do what is best for me and all of those who care about me. I'm not trying to tell others what to do. I don't believe that believing hurts anyone though. Believing in the God of ones understanding that is.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I don't want to be some holy roller, but I cannot deny that the first person I remember seeing when I woke up at the hospital last year was my pastor. He's a great guy. He gave me an iPod that was full of Foo Fighter and Pink Floyd songs. He knows me too well. I saw him yesterday and he was so glad to see me. He gave me a big hug. I told him I relapsed. He said my faith was very important right now. I told him I was considering being baptized. I also told him I wrote a letter to God that was not to be blogged. He thought it was Good that I was not going to blog it. He has always thought I needed to be more private. Many do.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My head is not right lately. I'm very confused. I don't feel like this blog is making a lot of sense. I know what I know, but I'm having trouble writing about it. With that said, I'll stop writing - for now. I want to continue blogging and I want it to matter to whoever reads it. I always want it to be something Good. After all, so many have been so Good to me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">There is so much Truth to that quote. I work awfully hard to be very miserable. The work I do to be very happy is so much more rewarding. I don't have to work that hard either. I don't understand myself. I am an incredibly sick minded person - that is for sure.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I can finally add photos to my blog again. </span>I'm not sure why, because I have not been behaving. Every time I shoot that evil drug, I watch porn on my computer and gets it my computer all out of whack. Have I mentioned what a sick minded person I am? I am SO sick. Even I don't understand me. I just don't. How could I have SO much to lose and still risk it just to be a sick freak?</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I love my new home. It's so important I keep it. I am doing what I need to do to do so. I am doing everything I am suppose to as far as my recovery goes - now. I have actually been able to turn my new place into my home! Let's see if I can put a photo of how far I have come since I have stayed clean.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">God has been so good to me. God works through so many people. I actually feel like I take God's love for granted. Or, I take advantage of it. Ultimately, if I continue to do so, I will lose. I don't even blame the devil for my wrong doings. How could I? I actually feel sorry for him. He spent a little time in my head recently. He's not <em>ALL</em> wrong. Don't worry, I was nowhere near suicidal. I never really was. I did try to kill myself I guess. That I cannot deny. It's a long story how I got to that point, but I am nowhere near there now. How insane do I sound? How insane am I? I'm not. That's the scary part.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">This is all so new to me. I am on my own with my own place. I am FREE. With freedom comes reasonability. This I know. I really want to make this place my home. It means so much. My demons do fill me with fear. It's important I choose to live in faith not fear. It's just that I have already allowed my demons to enter my beautiful new home. I've already been lost here. It's hard for me to understand. I do know I love that euphoric lustful rush I get when I shoot that evil drug. I can't even think about it. It will lead me down the wrong road. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I know I am not alone here. That's for sure. These <em>voices</em> in my head have not left me alone since I used. Actually, writing helps quiet them some. Doing Good things always does. This blog is supposed to be Good. So many of you mean so much to me. So many people in so many places mean so much to me. God means so much to me. And still, I make horrible decisions. Decisions that ultimately lead me to hell.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It's important I be responsible and behave myself. I must make my appointments. I always do when I am clean. Somehow, I tricked myself into believing that I could shoot up and go to my important appointments. RIGHT! What was I thinking. I become an isolated freak.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Today, I have my blinds open and my door to my patio open. It has been 65 to 70 degrees and sunny every day since I've been back <em>home</em>. It's important I stay clean so I can take full advantage of this beautiful city. I can ride my bike to all of my important appointments. It beats my barricading myself into this beautiful apartment with the shades and patio door closed. When I am clean and behaving, I also know I am not alone. God is always with me. I have so much about that fact which I need to somehow make since about for anyone and everyone, but I am struggling to make since of it myself. Just keep a Good Orderly Direction is all I know how to advise everyone to do. Now, if only I could.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: medium;">I love so many people in this beautiful old city I from. It has been so good to be here. It really has. I really do wish I wouldn't have used before I came home, but I can't change that. In many way, my using made this trip mean so much more than it would have. Being here helped me stay clean. Using made me miserable and I knew I couldn't continue to do so, but sometimes, that doesn't stop me. After being here a while, it became what it was supposed to be - a beautifully amazing experience that I am completely grateful for.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">I do look forward to getting back to San Francisco and turning my new high rise apartment into my home. The two weeks I spent in it, I was a tweaked out mess or I was so depressed and afraid I would lose my dream come true. Currently, it has a bed on the floor and a bunch of unpacked boxes in it. It looks just as it did the day the movers dropped everything off - except it was cleaner. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">Now, I get to go home and unpack. I get home late Thursday night. Friday morning, my social worker comes over at 9:00 A.M. She really is an angel. After that, I have to go to General Hospital to pick up prescriptions and other much needed medical supplies to care for my damaged body. Then, at 1:00 P.M. I meet with my G.A .worker. G.A. is basically welfare. Thankfully, all of <em>that </em>is working out. It's a long story but things weren't working out for me before I came home. Half of my $422.00 G.A. cash payment pays my rent. I also get $200.00 in food stamps. Being Social Security pending, I'm not supposed to work. I'm not sure I even could. That's...another whole story. More than that, I need to move on. All of that would have been so complicated without my insane mind hearing harsh negative voices that show up when I am coming down from shooting meth. Basically, I made a mess messier. Move on!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">Saturday, a few of my good friends from Wally World are coming over to my new place. My one friend said that he has some posters for me. Knowing him, they are probably of women's butts. Don't get me wrong, I love women's butts, but not on the walls of my home. That would just make me want to shoot up again. Later Saturday, me and my Wally World friends will go to band practice with The Alanos. I really look forward to playing with my band again. It's been six or seven weeks!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">Sunday I'm going to church and then to my sponsors home. Monday I have physical therapy. Tuesday I meet with my psychiatrist. Wednesday, I go to the dentist. I have a lot to keep me busy back in San Francisco. I really look forward to unpacking and seeing all of my recovery friends!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">I look forward to getting home to these things but I will miss everyone here. I have had a great time on my visit home. I love all of my family and friends. I got to go up and visit my brother in Indiana a few weeks ago. I also went down to the hills of Kentucky and visited all of my hillbilly family members down there. Every time I go there, I meet a new cousin. This time was no exception. I think my little brothers and my favorite part was meeting Buck. Buck is my hillbilly uncle's horse. I love that horse. Buck loves me. He loves giving kisses. He loves my camera too. He loved putting his head over my shoulder to allow me to take our photo together.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">What is really frustrating is the fact that I am unable to attach photos to my blogs. It has been that way every since I shot crystal meth. I assume it has something to do with that because sometimes I like to watch internet porn and do other twisted sexual things on this computer when I shoot speed. I'm not sure that doing that is where the problem arose, but I wouldn't doubt it. I'm sorry if I give too much information, but it is simply The Truth. If I live a Truth that is not a big deal to share then things are much easier for me to write about. I'm not proud of the person I become when I shoot speed. And, trust me, I am not telling the detailed Truth. Just enough. Enough.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">I love so many people here. And, somehow, they all seem to love twisted me. They do because they know who I<em> really</em> am. That Universe I love so much sure threw some bad weather my way for The Grateful Gathering. Not everything is about me! I know that. It's just what happens in Cincinnati sometimes. I will say one thing, the people who did show up really mean a lot to me - even before they showed up. It was pretty much the old crowd that one might have found on Klotter Avenue when I lived in Cincinnati 12 years ago. Many were not there, including some of Klotter's residents themselves, but the roads really were THAT BAD!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">I had to be there. It wasn't too far for me. Some of my best friends came from the West Side! Two of my amazing cousins came from pretty far away too! I know one lives on the west side. I had not seen them in 20 years! Literally. However, it was as if we had not missed a beat. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">That night at Bocca Live really was a good time. I think the coolest part was my getting to jam with The Barking Squirrels which is my little brothers band. We did two of my songs and one cover. The first one of my mine we did I wrote a few days before my dad died in 2006. I wrote it out at Ocean Beach where I had been spending so many nights shooting speed. The time I wrote it however, instead of taking drugs, I took my guitar and lyrically wondered, "Why we killing ourselves?" That song is called <em>Live.</em> My brothers band really jammed that one.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">Next, we did the infamous, <em>Tequila and Trains. </em>It's a long story, but the lyrics are true. The lyrics are true in all of my songs. Basically, years ago, I drank all day and then did a bunch of mushrooms before an Allman Brothers concert at The Beacon Theater in Harlem. Afterwards, we went to New York's financial district. I did 13 shots of tequila. To get back to Hoboken, New Jersey, where our friend lived, we had to catch a subway train at The World Trade Center. In a drunken stupor, I fell into the subway tracks. I landed in a huge and nasty puddle of grease. Thankfully, my friends pulled me out before the subway train came.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">A couple years later, I drank a fifth of Monte Alban and ate the worm while at my hillbilly uncles house in Burnside, Kentucky. There are some seriously busy railroad tracks nearby. I wish I could post the photos I took a couple of days ago, but once again, I can't. We went out on this huge railroad trestle that crosses Lake Cumberland. I stood up on the railing 300 feet above the lake, raised my arms into the air and yelled like a maniac. After walking across the top of the long bridge, we climbed down to the cat walk and walked back. Trains would then pass on the busy tracks just overhead, shaking that cat walk back and forth like crazy. We hoot and hollered and loved it. After that, we climbed up and were walking through a narrow railroad passage and <em>something </em>happened. I think I was too close to the train and it scalped me. All I knew was, "My heads bleeding." One of my friends ran back to my uncles and woke Susan. She rushed me to the hospital and I got 30 stiches in my head. Talk about a having a headache! I quit drinking tequila after that. Using has brought me close to death too many times. That was probably the first really close call. I think I was 28.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">The third and last song I played with The Barking Squirrels was a cover. It was <em>Not Fade Away</em> by Buddy Holly. It was a originally preformed by Buddy Holly, but was made famous to me by The Grateful Dead. I remember the first time I heard it live. I was at The Richfield Coliseum outside of Cleveland. The Grateful Dead played it as there last song of the second set. They ended the song as its usual end, "<em>You know our love will not fade away. You know our love will not fade away...."</em> The crowd, as usual, joined in. Eventually, The Dead stopped singing, put down their instruments and left the stage. The crowd continued singing, "<em>You know our love will not fade away. You know our love will not fade away...." </em>After a while, the band came back and joined back in and then finised the song. They then played an encore song. I called it the Grateful Gathering for a couple reasons. One, I was grateful to so many for so much. Two, I love The Grateful Dead. That song was my little brothers idea. We were going to do more, but his band and I only had time to practice twice. Each time we practiced each song once or twice.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: medium;">I am so grateful to be home. It had been 3 years since I have been here. So many of you mean so much to me. I knew that, but now I really know that. I really want to be someone that matters to my little brothers. I want to be that to all of my family and friends. So many of you mean so much to0 me. I mean that. <em>You know our love will not fade away!</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">These are the words inscribed on the back of both of my parents tombstones which sit side by side. They were both amazing people, however, both did their fare share of apologizing. I remember my dad always apologizing to me for not being the father he wished he were to me. I always told him he didn't need to apologize to me that he was a good dad. He was. For years I apologized to Susan for not being the husband I should have been. I still do sometimes. She always tells me I'm a good person and to stop apologizing. If anyone should understand the way she feels, it's me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My dad would have been 65 today. I just left he and my mothers gravestones. I am grateful to be in Cincinnati and to be alive. I<em> am</em> alive. That <em>is</em> amazing. My parents both struggled with addiction. I believe that if both would have stopped using, they would have lived longer lives. Over the years, I have believed that I was partly responsible for both of there deaths. I don't want to tell the details and I know that is not <em>really</em> the case, yet while I was at their gravestones, I spent most of the time apologizing to them. Not only for not being more to them when they needed me, but also for what I ultimately became.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I never blame them for anything. I guess I shouldn't blame myself either. Still, I <em>am</em> responsible for my recovery. Things are what they are. I am very grateful to be spending time with my brothers and my stepmother. My dad always asked me to stick with my stepmother and two younger adopted brothers if something ever happened to him. I have - when I am clean. The person I become when I am using is nothing to be proud of. I disappear. The person I am when I am not using is a much better person who sees my adopted little brothers as brothers and my stepmother as a mother. That is what they are. We ARE family.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">People hear my story and constantly tell me "You're a miracle." and "You're here for a reason." I'm nothing special, but it is all of those amazing words of encouragement that make me want to make a difference somehow. After all, that's what this blog is about. What I really want to be is something special to all of those who have done so much for me. I want to be a great family member to all of my relatives. I haven't always been. Actually, I'd be happy to be something to <em>anyone or everyone</em>!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It has been three years since I have been to my parents graves. So much has changed since I last visited that sight. I was pretty emotional tonight. I heard <em>voices </em>in my head telling me that my parents will always love me and care about me. I can't see how anyone could care about the person I become when I use. It's sick. Still, the <em>voices</em> told me that my parents do love me and want me to move on with my life. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I do have so much to be grateful for. My parents were Good, loving people. I really have no idea how it all works, but I know there is <em>something.</em> I also believe that if I remain a Good person, I may even get to somehow be with my parents again some day - in a Good way. I would be so grateful for that. For now, I am grateful to be alive. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So often the Universe finds ways to communicate a message to me. Music touches my soul in so many ways. It finds ways to communicate with me so often. Right after visiting my parents graves, I got into my little brothers car I have been driving and <em>Carry On My Wayward Son</em> came on the radio as soon as I started it up. Again, I don't know how it all works, but I know there is no such thing as coincidence. Or, as Albert Einstein put it, "Coincidence is Gods way of staying anonymous."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Carry on my wayward son <br /> There'll be peace when you are done <br /> Lay your weary head to rest <br /> Don't you cry no more<br /><br />Masquerading as a man with a reason <br /> My charade is the event of the season <br /> And if I claim to be a wise man, well <br /> It surely means that I don't know <br /><br /> On a stormy sea of moving emotion <br /> Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean <br /> I set a course for winds of fortune <br /> But I hear the voices say </em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Carry on my wayward son <br /> There'll be peace when you are done <br /> Lay your weary head to rest <br /> Don't you cry no more<br /><br />Carry on, you will always remember <br /> Carry on, nothing equals the splendor <br /> Now your life's no longer empty <br /> But surely heaven waits for you <br /><br /> Carry on my wayward son <br /> There'll be peace when you are done <br /> Lay your weary head to rest <br /> Don't you cry (don't you cry no more)</em></span></div>
Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-80131667909035603032013-12-24T07:26:00.007-08:002013-12-24T10:47:32.843-08:00Happy XMas (War is Over)<strong><br /></strong><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>"This is the message of Christmas: We are never alone</em>."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I know this to be True. With that said, I hope and pray my war is over. Battling my addiction has been nothing but a war. I have lost many battles, but the final outcome will ultimately decide the war. I won a recent one. I actually managed to stop using so I could come home for the holidays. I am so grateful to be here.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have already seen so many people that I have not seen for years. I even got to go to a Bengals game. It was a great game. They beat the Vikings 42 to 14 and would end up winning the AFC North after Baltimore lost later that day. Next Sunday, I'll get to go watch them beat Baltimore. I hope. I believe! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Overall it was a great weekend. My youngest brother was with me. We spent the weekend visiting my oldest brother and his family up in Richmond, Indiana. We went through a Christmas lights show in a Civil War cemetery. We shopped at an Amish grocery store. We also visited the towns museum that my brothers wife works. I enjoyed the rural atmosphere. Actually, Richmond itself is a little city. It was very prominent in its early 1900's hay day. Much of this area was.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Well, I was just trying to upload some photos onto this blog but could not. I've been having trouble uploading photos anywhere online from this laptop. I can possibly blame my relapse. After shooting crystal meth, I like to watch internet porn. It's usually doing things like that which allow bad things to attach to computers. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Did I mention what a war I'm in. I know it sounds ridiculous to call shooting speed and watching internet porn a war, but for me it really is. Or, I should say, it always becomes one. When the devil becomes involved, it's more than a war. For me it is eternity verses "never ending".</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I don't really want to go there with this blog. It was suppose to be a good thing. It's was always suppose to become that. It still is. I have to win this war of mine. If it matters to one other person besides me then I've truly won. I know it matters to others, but if somehow, someone makes better, more Godly choices, then the war has been won. Please trust my insanity. I believe it is in too may ways, reality.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Where was I? We went to the Game. I got some great photos of the game and of people tailgating and of downtown Cincinnati. It's a beautiful old city. I do love it. The politics are hard for me, but over all things are heading in the right direction. The streetcar that Cincinnati's idiot mayor tried to derail is back on track. Ohio's idiot Governor had already hurt it by cutting half of its budget. This derailed it's uptown route that I believe is integral to it's ultimate success. At least it's getting built. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Another great thing occurred. A Cincinnati Federal judged ruled that Ohio's ban on gay marriage is unconstitutional. It focuses more on death certificate status, but it reaches into the actual ban itself. I'm not good at reciting what I read, but it's good. Some of the most amazing people I know in San Francisco are men married to men. I mean that. They deserve every right all of us have when it comes to marriage.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">How'd I go there? Actually, I used to be very political before I got so lost in my addiction. Before I started fighting my war. I don't think I'll be as political, but when it comes to human beings rights to be the loving human beings they are, I can't help it. I truly believe God backs me on this one. Actually, God is to people what God is to people. I believe as long as we are Good, that's what matters most to God. I have gay friends who are the most Godly people I know. I promise you that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It's so good to be home for Christmas. I love my family. I really do. I love my friends. I really do. I was so depressed on the plane ride here. I've pretty much overcome that - thanks to all of these amazing, kind and loving people in this beautiful city of Cincinnati <em>and</em> Richmond. The politicians have a right to be who they are too. Their level of success makes them pretty good people. I can't help but to care about everyone in some way. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm trying to organize a gathering somewhere. I really would like to see so many. I would also like to thank so many who put together and attended my fundraiser back in February. It really blew me away that so many people cared so much about someone like me. Actually, it <em>still</em> does. I have already seen a few of my amazing friends. I want to see them all.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Ironically, it will likely be at a bar. It seems to be the only type of place that is big enough to gather so many I want to see. I'm trying to work out the details now. I'd like to state that I am an alcoholic who really doesn't want to drink. I have absolutely no desire to. I haven't drank in 10 years. Alcohol was the gateway drug to just about all other drugs I have used. It turned me into a garbage can for drugs. However, once I got to the lust of my life, IV crystal meth, I was cured of all my addictions - including alcohol. The problem with that cure is it is worse than all other drugs I used combined - for me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I had a really sweet friend who was one of the many to assist in the fundraiser post something about my being here and a gathering. She personally asked me if a bar would be bad thing and I basically told her what you just read. She ended up taking down the Facebook posting because people were questioning her about having it at a bar - for me. I appreciated everything she did for me. I always have. I appreciate everyone's concern too. I do understand. Actually, <em>I</em> worry more about my alcoholic friends getting drunk than me! Now I'm confused. It has to be somewhere! If alcohol is a problem for you, come visit me at my families house. Please. Okay.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I do look forward to seeing so many. I look forward to going to the next and last Bengals game with my other two brothers and an old friend in town from Washington DC. It's been years since I've seen him. It's been 3 years since I have been home. I can pretty much guarantee this Christmas will be better than my last two.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">A couple years ago, I spent today, Christmas Eve, panhandling as much money as I could so I could do a huge hit so it would seem Christmas never happened. Being Christmas Eve, people were very generous. I then went out to my private beach cove by the Golden Gate Bridge and pretty much accomplished my goal. It was so sick. It is the lust of my life though. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Last year was even worse. In some ways, the day itself, was actually better. I do love how I feel when I shoot that evil drug. That's just the truth. The better part was not how I felt, but what I did. I attended a recovery meeting. Everyone there let me know how I have been driving them insane for so many years because they can hear my insane <em>voice</em> and all the other <em>voices</em> in their head every time I use. Over the years, I have used a lot. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I hate to say it, but I'd rather have the euphoric high by The Golden Gate Bridge than deal with the insanity that ALWAYS follows. That's my problem. What I must know is it will always lead me to the <em>voices</em> and basically, hell on earth. It's so real to me. I think in some ways, it's real to everyone - somewhere, somehow. I just hope it's not <em>actually</em> real in this Universe. Wow. That would be so. I'm sorry if so. Wow. This Universe is so complicated. I am certain of this. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'll be spending Christmas with my family. I will soon see all of the people who really do mean so much to me - still. It's so important I be grateful for all I have. I need to love my loved ones. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Thank you for helping me win my last battle. Thank you everyone. Thank you God. I hope and pray my<em> War is Over.</em> Happy XMas.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>So this is Xmas<br /> And what have you done<br /> Another year over<br /> And a new one just begun<br /> And so this is Xmas<br /> I hope you have fun<br /> The near and the dear one<br /> The old and the young<br /><br /> A very Merry Xmas<br /> And a happy New Year<br /> Let's hope it's a good one<br /> Without any fear<br /><br /> And so this is Xmas (war is over)<br /> For weak and for strong (if you want it)<br /> For rich and the poor ones (war is over)<br /> The world is so wrong (if you want it)<br /> And so happy Xmas (war is over)<br /> For black and for white (if you want it)<br /> For yellow and red ones (war is over)<br /> Let's stop all the fight (now)<br /><br /> A very Merry Xmas<br /> And a happy New Year<br /> Let's hope it's a good one<br /> Without any fear<br /><br /> And so this is Xmas (war is over)<br /> And what have we done (if you want it)<br /> Another year over (war is over)<br /> A new one just begun (if you want it)<br /> And so happy Xmas (war is over)<br /> We hope you have fun (if you want it)<br /> The near and the dear one (war is over)<br /> The old and the young (now)<br /><br /> A very Merry Xmas<br /> And a happy New Year<br /> Let's hope it's a good one<br /> Without any fear<br /><br /> War is over, if you want it<br /> War is over now<br /><br /> Happy Xmas</em> <!-- end of lyrics --> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Hearing<em> voices</em> changed me. I can't change that. I'll never forget when they first started. They freaked me out so much. One of the first characters to show up was the devil himself. I never heard from him again, until the end of last year.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The first time the devil introduced himself to me, Susan and I were about to go to L.A. to see one of the last tapings of The Price is Right with Bob Barker. Susan loved Bob Barker and his animal rights ways. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Before we left, the devil was behind our building. I had set up a webcam looking down behind our apartment because I believed people <em>were</em> out there. After I started hearing his voice, I could see him standing behind our building on the computer screen. He was surrounded by beautiful, scantily clad women. He kept telling me to "come on down." He wanted me to give him my soul. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The devil tried to get me to "come on down" and bow down to him. If I did, I would "get to serve high in hell." Also, I would be able to do whatever I wanted for the rest of my life and no one would have to know. Serving high in hell sure didn't sound too appealing. And, even though I was not being a Good person, I figured I'd be better off trying to be with God someday. I said, "No. I would take my chances with God." The devil said I would end up in hell either way. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I still refused. That devil may have been right. I hope and believe I have time to change all that still.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Eventually, I thought the <em>voices</em> were real people - on my roof. I begged them not to bother anyone but me. Susan had done nothing wrong. The knew I had. They had seen me do unthinkable things. It was only me they claimed to be after. I told Susan they were on our roof. I begged Susan to get the car and pull it to the front door so I could run into it and we could leave for L.A. I was telling her people were on our roof. She thought I was crazy, but she did pull the car up to the front door for me. As soon as I jumped in the car and we were about to pull away, something actually dropped onto the roof of our car - obviously from our roof. I said, "See?" She began to believe that perhaps I wasn't crazy. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The devil was in my head all the way there. I'll never forget as we got out of San Francisco radio station range, we were going up and down hills. Every time we went up, an uplifting song, I can't remember what it was, tuned in on the radio. Every time we went down, AC/DC's <em>Highway to Hell</em> tuned in on the radio. It was a long ride to Southern California. We went to Joshua Tree first. It is in the middle of the desert. We went straight to Skull Rock. The devil, of course, told me that it was him. A few days later, we did get to see one of the last Price is Right tapings with Bob Barker. Like so many things, my use had tainted it. Every time I heard them say "Come on down", well.... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The early days of hearing <em>voices</em> were so insane. I had no idea where they were coming from. I still don't. Eventually, it would be my friends and families <em>voices</em> that I would here. They were trying to help me. I know that somehow, they are real. However, eventually, I would determine that it was all from my drug use and would not want to believe they were real, even when I could still here them. I would get so depressed after shooting that drug. It depletes the brain of all "happy" chemicals. My only "answer" was using again. The <em>voices </em>don't really exist in the early lustful, euphoric hours after I do a hit. I still lust for that rush. It feels sooo good. It's orgasmic. That doesn't mean I can do it. Actually, it means I shouldn't.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Before I relapsed this last time, the<em> voices</em> were getting louder. Not nearly as loud as after I use, but louder than <em>normal.</em> I don't mind them. I think someone like me needs them. I think they have the right to turn on me when I relapse or even think about it. They get dark because of my behavior. I did hear the devils<em> voice</em> this last time. I think I need to realize that he'll always be around if I use again. He is so creepy. I do not blame the devil for my actions. I do sometimes believe that evil never gives up on someone like me. I know, however, that God doesn't. That matters the most.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Things were really dark this last time. Enough so, that I don't want to use again - for now. I will want to. I just have to believe and understand that. I am an addict. Based on my track record, I will use again. I can't even believe I ever would. Especially if I have a chance of going to a "never ending" hell - and I <em>believe</em> I do. That is where I was heading if my suicide attempt would have been successful. If I ever had reason to never use again, it was this time. I've always had a lot to lose and I have used and lost it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I give God credit for my receiving more chances. So many times! I hope I have not taken advantage of God's love. I think I have. No matter what, God wins. I'm sure of that. I just want to be with God.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I'm not sure I will. If I'm not, I want as many people as possible to be. I do care about people. I have no idea how it all works, but I know there is a God and I know God loves us all. God does not love our wrong doings. God should be what God is to everyone - whatever that is. The one thing I know it has to be for everyone is <u>G</u>ood <u>O</u>rderly <u>D</u>irection. That's the part I have struggled with because I am an addict.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I write this blog because I want to share all that I have <em>learned</em>. It's confusing, but I tell The Truth so people believe in me. I'm not insane. The <em>voices </em>subtly encourage me when I have been clean for a while. When I consider using, they get hard on me - as they should. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">People who have cared about me think that my being okay with hearing <em>voices</em> is not okay. I understand what they mean, but I have learned to accept them. When I told Susan I didn't want to take medication to get rid of the <em>voices,</em> she asked, "Oh, you'd be lonely with out them." It's not really like that but, kind of. Actually, I have been taking an antipsychotic medication for them recently and the <em>voices </em>are very quiet. I <em>do </em>kind of miss them. Yesterday, I saw a commercial on television that if people have taken the medication I am taking and grown female breast to call them. As sick as I am, that would probably turn me on and feed my addiction. I'm pretty sick, huh? I just love.... <strong>Stop</strong></span><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><strong>!</strong></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It's so important I don't use for so many reasons. Having my own beautiful apartment in a high rise building, not having to be in an institution or not having to be homeless are the obvious ones. Caring about all that's been done for me by so many amazing people matters to me even more. Caring about the real possibility of my going to a "never ending" hell means the most - to me, on a selfish level. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Caring about young people matters to me too. I know I don't have that many young readers. Perhaps I shouldn't. People have told me they read this to their children. That encourages me. I guess I should be less...whatever I am. Actually I should be "less" whatever<em> I become</em> and then I will be less...whatever I am. I think I'm referring to the sexual addiction that arises from my use. That's nothing to be proud of - I promise you that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I'm not sure kids believe in someone like me, but if it matters to just one - that matters. Basically, young men out there should not want to grow female breasts - unless they want to be female that is. I don't. I just love.... <strong>Stop!<em> </em></strong>Addiction can go so wrong. Please don't start using. If one has started, now is a great time to stop. Asking for help is a great thing. We hit bottom when we stop digging - I'm told. Actually, I do know this is true. I just keep digging. Stop. Please. 30 years of hardcore digging has nearly put me in a "never ending" hell.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Caring about anyone trying to overcome addiction to anything is another reason why I write this. That and I want people to know that there is a God. Whatever that means. It just is. God is the answer to addiction is what I actually mean.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">This blog matters to me. Susan and I are still good friends. She tells me this blog feeds my ego. Maybe. However, this blog matters because I believe it helps me stay clean. Some even disagree with that. The Truth about that belief is<em> nothing</em> has really helped me <em><u>stay</u></em> clean. God has always been with me and still, I choose to leave God. Ultimately, that beautiful gift God gave us called "Free Will" is why I go to hell on earth and may go to a "never ending" hell. I believe that's what may happen to someone that knows God exists and continues in his bad ways. God also loves us enough to give us so many chances. Believing helps.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">This blog matters because I want it to help others. I know that when I disappear, it does matter. Or, I guess, I matter. For that, I'm grateful. People start looking for me. People send the police to check on me. My blog readership increases so much after I do things like relapse, nearly die or try to kill myself. I like increased readership but not like that! I disappear because I end up being high for days without eating, drinking or sleeping. I also disappear for so long because I just don't know how to tell people that I did something I believed I'd never do again. It's always that way. This time - I CAN'T USE AGAIN! I mean that. I always mean that.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">The reason this blog matters to me is it is suppose to, first and foremost, matter to God. I believe it will no matter what it means for me. I just hope it will ultimately help it mean something Good for me. I think it will matter most if that is the outcome.</span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Get along with the voices inside of my head</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">[Verse 1 - Eminem:]</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I wanted the fame, but not the cover of Newsweek</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Oh, well, guess beggars can't be choosey</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Wanted to receive attention for my music</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Wanted to be left alone in public. Excuse me</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">For wanting my cake and eat it too, and wanting it both ways</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Fame made me a balloon 'cause my ego inflated</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">When I blew; see, but it was confusing</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">'Cause all I wanted to do is be the Bruce Lee of loose leaf</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Abused ink, used it as a tool when I blew steam (wooh!)</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Hit the lottery, oh wee</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">With what I gave up to get was bittersweet</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It was like winning a used me</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Ironic 'cause I think I'm getting so huge I need a shrink</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm beginning to lose sleep: one sheep, two sheep</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Going cuckoo and cooky as Kool Keith</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">But I'm actually weirder than you think</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">'Cause I'm</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Get along with the voices inside of my head</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Well, that's nothing</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Well, that's nothing</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">[Verse 2 - Eminem:]</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">No, I ain't much of a poet but I know somebody once told me</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">To seize the moment and don't squander it</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">'Cause you never know when it all could be over tomorrow</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So I keep conjuring, sometimes I wonder where these thoughts spawn from</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">(Yeah, ponder it, do you want this?</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It's no wonder you're losing your mind, the way it wanders)</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Yo-lo-lo-lo-yee-whoo</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I think you've been wandering off down yonder</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">And stumbled onto Jeff VanVonderen</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">'Cause I need an interventionist</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">To intervene between me and this monster</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">And save me from myself and all this conflict</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">'Cause the very thing that I love's killing me and I can't conquer it</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My OCD is conking me in the head</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Keep knocking, nobody's home, I'm sleepwalking</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm just relaying what the voice in my head's saying</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">[Hook - Rihanna:]</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Get along with the voices inside of my head</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Well, that's nothing</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Well, that's nothing</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Call me crazy, but I had this vision</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">One day that I'd walk amongst you a regular civilian</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">But until then drums get killed and I'm coming straight at</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">MCs, blood get spilled and I</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Take it back to the days that I get on a Dre track</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Give every kid who got played that</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Pumped up feeling and shit to say back</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">To the kids who played 'em</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I ain't here to save the fucking children</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">But if one kid out of a hundred million</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Who are going through a struggle feels and then relates that's great</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It's payback, Russell Wilson falling way back</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">In the draft, turn nothing into something, still can make that</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Straw into gold chump, I will spin Rumpelstiltskin in a haystack</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Maybe I need a straight jacket, face facts</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am nuts for real, but I'm okay with that</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It's nothing, I'm still friends with the</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">[Hook - Rihanna:]</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Get along with the voices inside of my head</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath</span></em><br />
<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy</span></em><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Well, that's nothing</span></em><br />
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</span></em>Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-32633271434850140782013-12-13T10:07:00.000-08:002013-12-13T10:54:05.012-08:00Falling Slowly<span data-measureme="1"><span class="null"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><em>"You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.”</em> </span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I love Joel Osteen. A few years ago Susan was in Boston and he was there signing one of his books. She waited in line for 2 hours to get one signed for me. It meant so much to me. It still does. My addiction has caused me to lose so much that matters to me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Just before I left Wally World, some important things were stolen from me. My phone which helped me stay connected and keep my appointments. Also, a very important recovery book written for the 12 step recovery program I choose to be a part of was stolen. My Recovery Bible that my aunt and uncle bought me also disappeared. These things were stolen just hours before I left as I was packing my things to leave. Dark things can add to dark things. They didn't have to. I had actually already chosen to make those things something Good for me. We can do that. It was certainly not those things being stolen that sent me over the edge. My bad decision just made those bad decisions by someone else worse.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I had already had another important 12 step recovery book that focused on recovery from alcohol disappear. It was my dads. It's loss came from one of my bad decisions to relapse on another one of my many addictions - sex. It's a long story that doesn't need to be retold. That book mattered to me. It had his handwritten notes in it. Doing the wrong thing ultimately caused me to lose it. It was my quick exit from the program I was in as a result of my "relapse" that caused me to leave it behind.</span><br />
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I do still have my mothers Bible. It matters the most. It still has her handwritten notes in it too. I'm realizing that no "material" things matters that much, but sometimes certain memories attached to them will. I also still have that Joel Osteen book. <br />
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</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"> knew I was <em>Falling Slowly</em> back into my old ways a couple of months ago. I could feel it coming on. I talked to a lot of people about it. I wrote about it. I could have done more. Ultimately, I could have chosen not to use. The choice will always be mine.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I proved to myself that I could make it through cravings without using in a place in which I could not use. As soon as I got on my own, I made the wrong choice. My new place <em>is</em> a place that I cannot use. I need to <em>always </em>know this. It's important that I choose not to do so. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Now that I got <em>it</em> out of the way, I don't want to use again. This doesn't mean that I won't want to use again someday. I now know this. If I ever had reason to never use again, it was before my last use. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I looked so forward to so many things that I still have. I did lose a very important thing about 3 years ago - a 22 year relationship with someone who did so much for me including save my life. I'm not sure I even want or deserve another relationship. I think I just want some of the benefits that come with it and that's not really okay. Actually, it would seem more than okay - for me. It would seem <em>good.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I consider myself a lonesome loaner. I love people, but I want to be on my own. It's important I be with people. Even if a relationship <em>were</em> somehow possible for me, I pretty much ended it's possibility by using. Recovery groups suggest we wait a year until we get involved in one. I was almost there. Again, I'm not sure I really want a relationship. I may just want something I am addicted to in many ways. I do want more, but.... Maybe not. I get confused. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have my own place. I'm sure I'll seek out that <em>natural </em>addiction as a result. I just hope it doesn't lead me to the nightmare addiction that always causes me to seek <em>it </em>out. Or, at least make it a solo act. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It's important I don't allow my very big mistake to get the best of me. It's up to me. I make my own choices. I must choose to do things that will help me live as close to "normal" of a life that is possible for a hardcore addict like me. I just want my own beautiful high rise apartment where I can get up an make coffee and leave my guitar sitting on the guitar stand without worrying it, my phone or my books will disappear. I want a roof over my head. I want to see the Golden Gate Bridge every morning as I drink my coffee on my 26th floor porch. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">All of these things are still possible, if I make the right choices. <em>I have suffered enough and warred with myself, it's time that I won. </em></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I chose to stop using and come home. That was a great choice. Being with my family and friends isn't what I thought it would be but it is a very good thing. It's actually even better than it should or would have been in many ways. People have been so nice to me about everything. Many, especially back in San Francisco have been 'hard' on me about it too. No harder than I deserve. It's hard love. So many know how serious it is for me to use and they are just being caring and honest. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Some of my friends here were glad to see me but said they wanted to, "slap me upside the head." So many in Cincinnati want me to move here. I understand in many ways and months ago even considered it. However, wherever I go, I go with me. San Francisco is a great city for someone like me. And, it's so beautiful. I am a photographer. Cincinnati is a lot more beautiful than I remember too. It's cold! Snow is beautiful though. It's also slick and dangerous! I don't have a car and won't unless it makes sense for my being a street artist again someday. I'm afraid that may not be possible based on how the little moving things around I have done have felt on my back that is full of metal and screws. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Susan worked so hard to get people out of cars, into carpools, to take transit and choose to ride bicycles. Like my choice to be vegetarian because of her, I also chose to be a cyclist because of her. I still hope to be. I'll find out how possible that is when I get back. I'm sure it will be to some degree. Cycling is the best way to get around San Francisco. It's healthy too. And, my physical therapist said I could ride a bike. She said I could not run. I do miss that. I really was addicted to running! That addiction wasn't so bad. I loved getting that "runners high".</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I've really complicated matters to such a degree. Using only complicates matters so much more. Being homeless is hard. Being homeless in my physical condition would be detrimental. There are things I must do throughout the day that will ultimately keep me alive. I'll leave it at that. Being homeless would make doing these things hard. I didn't do them when I was using. It's so important I don't use if I don't want serious health issues to come about. They will too. I've been guaranteed that my a doctor. It's important I take care of myself.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">This blog is about me, but it is suppose to be about God. Using was a bad choice. I want this blog to help others. I want my writing to help others. It was starting to. I am a writer for Laguna Honda's Hospitals Newspaper, <em>The Voice.</em> The first article was about me and my journey through the hospital. The next one is about someone like me and his journey through the hospital. I was only 'away' for about 2 weeks, but those 2 weeks were important to me. I would have gone to the hospital to update his progress and photos for the article. I hope that when I get back, to pick up where I need to.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I really was <em>Falling Slowly</em>. I knew it. I wrote in the last blog how I prayed to die. I knew that didn't make sense. I gave God so much credit for my living. I still do - even more so in some ways. I no longer pray to die and realize I am suppose to live to do Good. God can take bad things and make them Good. God is <em>that</em> amazing. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I can also give the amazing people at the hospitals and rehab that I was in a lot of credit for my life. I do believe God works through people. I intend to give back to those places still. It matters a lot to me. I'll never be able to repay the millions of dollars it cost to save me, so I have to help what matters the most to people - people. </span><br />
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Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-91797107151971098312013-12-09T13:36:00.001-08:002015-09-28T12:09:52.851-07:00Brave<span class="versetext" style="display: inline;"><strong><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><em>-</em>Ephesians 4:29</span></span></strong></span><br />
<span class="versetext" style="display: inline;"><em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Let no evil talk come out of your mouths, but only what is useful for building up, </span></em><a href="http://www.blogger.com/null" name="a"></a><sup class="footnote" style="display: none;"><a href="http://www.biblestudytools.com/nrs/ephesians/4-29.html#fn-descriptionAnchor-a" id="a" title="Other ancient authorities read [building up faith]"></a></sup><em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"> as there is need, so that your words may give grace to those who hear. </span></em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I relapsed. That's The Truth. There is so much more to it. Even more than I expected - and I expected a lot. I complicated a complicated situation. I had so many reasons to never use again. More than I can even understand. And, still, I did. Odds are, I won't stay clean for the rest of my life. I've heard that addicts have about a 5% chance of staying clean. I'm one of the worst. This doesn't mean I ever want to use again. I don't. I have too much to lose. I always have had too much to lose and still, I've lost it. My life....</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm alive. It's important that I know that. I'm so grateful to be home in Cincinnati with my family. My birthday was hard a couple days ago, but it sure beat the last few. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I spent the night of my 40th birthday leaned up against a concrete post holding up the I-80 approach to The Bay Bridge with my pants down. I had diarrhea all night. This birthday was much better. I was with my family.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I appreciate so much that has been done for me by so many. I can't tell everyone how much I looked forward to seeing so many. I looked forward to having my dream come true by living in a high rise apartment in San Francisco. I didn't want to go insane and jump off the 26 floor I now live. I knew that wouldn't happen. However, I never thought I would walk 20 miles to a parking garage by The San Francisco Airport and jump either. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">How could I spend all that time in a hospital and rehab and throw it all away. For the month approaching my "graduation", I had serious cravings. I talked about it. I prayed for it to be lifted. I prayed to die. I knew that was not something I should be praying for. God answered my prayers. Still, I have free will. It's a beautiful gift from God that could send me to hell. It all sounds so insane. It was.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I was so afraid I'd relapse and go to hell on earth and then to a "never ending" hell. Because of that fear, I begged God to take me. I figured dying being a decent person who had asked to be forgiven and believed in God beat dying while in hell on earth. The person I become is.... I can't understand <em>it.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">One day, about a week before I relapsed, I was praying to God that I die and wondered what I should do with such ridiculous feelings. I wandered if I should do something that always seems to help - write about it. How could I? I had been so grateful to be alive. Even I didn't understand. Then, I saw a message in the sidewalk telling me to "tell them all". I don't remember the exact words, but I knew what it meant. It meant I should "tell them" by writing about it. I took a photo of the message, but that phone would be stolen. Dark things add to dark things. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The last time I relapsed and ended up in the hospital after trying to kill myself, I had written a blog in which I saw messages telling me "I had a story to tell" and "I had a song to share". I never posted that blog until <em>after</em> I used. I posted it in the first blog I wrote while in the hospital, <a href="http://beatysbabblingbrainblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/ocean-size.html" target="_blank">Ocean Size.</a> Using will always be wrong. Telling The Truth will always be right. I find it to be no accident that I received messages telling me to share The Truth - not use.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It's hard for me to explain. I wondered how I could possibly tell so many who did so much for "my life" that I wanted to die. How could I have said what I wanted to say, but felt it was so wrong. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">After I got that message, I clearly remember the one written in the sidewalk that answered the question I had to "What was I to do after feeling so ridiculous about wanting to die?" God had simple answer. "Do Good." I wish I had those photos I took of those messages written in the sidewalk. It seems that "bad" took them. The answer was for me. I shouldn't have used. Perhaps I'll search for them when I get back to San Francisco. I know the area I was walking.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Things would have been so different if I would have stayed clean. I must learn to get through such times. I must "do Good." Now, I want to live. I was so afraid before I used. It is important I live in faith, not fear. It's important I be brave. All's I have heard lately is this Top 40 song on a car commercial during football games telling me to do this. Music will always speak to us. Even Top 40 hits. Especially Top 40 hits - probably. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have made things so complicated. Now, I want to live. Now, I understand, I was suppose to live. I have to live a Good life. I must. It is Gods Will. My will can be very twisted. If I died today, things will probably not be Good. If I would have died before I relapsed.... I was meant to live for Good. Dying wasn't going to happen. I can't kill myself. I must stay clean for the rest of my life. Using is killing myself in so many ways, even if I am alive. I disappear. So many seem to worry about me and Love me. This matters to me. I mean that. I can't use.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I've felt this way before and ended up using. I always do. I can't. I don't want to be a multimillion dollar waste of life who doesn't make it. It's so much more than that too. So many have done so much. It's amazing to me. I need to be a Good person. I need to be brave. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Disappearing from so many is so wrong. That dark side is so alluring to me. I risk it all. I had no idea what to say for so long now. Using was the only answer. I had to come home. I knew that was the answer. This blog matters to me. So much matters to me. It's important I say what I want to say.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I should have said it before using. It may have mattered. I can't stop saying what I need to say now. It's not really for me, yet it is. It's for us. It's for God. That matters more than I have ever been able to make sense of.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It is so important I do not return to that darkness and disappear. It's so important that I <em>let the light in</em> and I keep God in my heart. This all means so much more than I've ever been able to make sense of. Yet, it's important I don't make a huge deal of my mistake and that I move forward. I get so confused. It's important I <em>say what I wanna say. </em>I need to be honest and brave. I still want to see all of the many I love while I am in Cincinnati.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">All of the dark insanity I went through was supposed to matter to others. Most of all, it's supposed to matter to me. My words were <em>and are </em>suppose to matter. They are to remain The Truth. I need to always say something. I can't disappear. That's obviously not a good thing. I'm just trying to <em>say what I wanna say.</em></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">You can be amazing<br /> You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug<br /> You can be the outcast<br /> Or be the backlash of somebodys lack of love<br /> Or you can start speaking up<br /> Nothings gonna hurt you the way that words do<br /> And they settle neath your skin<br /> Kept on the inside and no sunlight<br /> Sometimes a shadow wins<br /> But I wonder what would happen if you<br /><br /> Say what you wanna say<br /> And let the words fall out<br /> Honestly I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> With what you want to say<br /> And let the words fall out<br /> Honestly I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> Everybodys been there, everybodys been stared down<br /> By the enemy<br /> Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing<br /> Bow down to the mighty<br /> Dont run, stop holding your tongue<br /> Maybe theres a way out of the cage where you live<br /> Maybe one of these days you can let the light in<br /> Show me how big your brave is<br /><br /> Say what you wanna say<br /> And let the words fall out<br /> Honestly I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> With what you want to say<br /> And let the words fall out<br /> Honestly I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> Innocence, your history of silence<br /> Wont do you any good<br /> Did you think it would?<br /> Let your words be anything but empty<br /> Why dont you tell them the truth?<br /><br /> Say what you wanna say<br /> And let the words fall out<br /> Honestly I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> With what you want to say<br /> And let the words fall out<br /> Honestly I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I wanna see you be brave<br /><br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you<br /> I just wanna see you.</span>Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-47469517314259768972013-11-15T11:41:00.001-08:002013-11-16T12:02:02.464-08:00When I Was Your Man<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">“If I should ever die, God forbid, let this be my epitaph:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">My days at Wally World are numbered. Everything that was suppose to fall into place, is. I am very grateful for that. I am also grateful that my cousin comes to town tomorrow. I put in for a weekend pass. We will be staying at The Union Square Hilton. Those high rise buildings (there are three) always remind me of my dad. One of them is very tall. It can be seen from far away. I could see it every time I walked Phil in our neighborhood. My dad, my stepmother and my two little brothers stayed there when they came out to visit us about a year after we moved here. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Things were pretty good back then. The Hilton was one of my clients when I worked at The San Francisco Chronicle. The marketing person who was my client gave them a suite for the price of a regular room. Talk about luxurious! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It was an amazing trip, but my dads health was starting to decline. I'll never forget when he went to sit on his portable seat he carried with him. It flew out from under him and he hit the ground very hard. I can see the pain on his face and hear his pain - still. I had never seen him so helpless seeming. It occurred to me that he may not be around much longer. This was hard for me to consider. Both my parents would be gone. I do wish I would have done things differently, but it is the past. It was a great visit. I got to be the tour guide I love to be.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I still have my wonderful stepmother. And, my aunts mean a lot to me too! My cousin who is coming out is my stepmothers niece. I really look forward to seeing her. It's been a long time since I've seen my family. It's been a long time since I have gotten to play tour guide. I love playing tour guide in the beautiful city. It will also give me an opportunity to take photos! That is so important to my recovery.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I actually am only allowed to stay with her one night. I have to come back to Wally World Sunday night at 10:00. I can then get up and meet her again Monday morning. She heads to Portland Monday afternoon. It's ridiculous, but I didn't argue. All's I will miss is a night of sleeping in The Hilton. I can handle that since I will be living in my own high rise building Wednesday night! Talk about luxury! Talk about gratitude. I have been trying to do all I can for God and my dreams are coming true. It's important I stay with God. God is so amazing.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">It has been a very emotional time for me lately. My cravings were incredibly strong recently. I've prayed so hard for them to be lifted. In many ways, they have. I have a lot to look forward to AND stay clean for. One of the many is my trip to Cincinnati. That really helps me want to stay clean. Using would complicate things to such a degree.... I can't even imagine it. Well, I can, but it would not be a good thing.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Speaking of strong emotions, I sure had some a couple of days ago. Going to my storage unit always creates very strong emotions for me. It always takes me back to 11 years ago when Susan and I pulled up in our 27 foot U-Haul towing my black 99 GT 5.0, 5 speed Ford Mustang. I loved that car. Susan and I had our beagle, Willy with us. We loved that dog. I was so excited to have gotten my dream job in my dream city. San Francisco is the dream city in which I proposed to Susan and we honeymooned and visited so many times before I decided we needed to move here. I loved visiting, but I knew living here would be so much different. Boy, was I ever right! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Susan was wearing what she wore so often - a hippie dress and Birkenstocks. I remember that day so clearly. I loved that woman. I still love all of those things I just mentioned loving. I know we are over. That's a fact. I want her to be happy with her new husband. I still wish I would have been so much more to her ALL the time. It hurts me to this day that I was gone from her for so many days. So many.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">A couple of days ago, I had gotten off the bus and was walking to this huge U-Haul building that can be seen from a long way away. I was going to meet my social worker and the bed bug inspector who needed to make sure my stuff was bug free before I moved into my luxurious high rise. Susan left me so many things in that storage unit. One of the things is a pretty new double bed. It has been in there two years since she has moved, but they still needed a dog to sniff it for me. She told me that the inspector would be bringing a beagle. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Beagles do have good sniffers. Willy never stopped sniffing. Willy never gave up searching for something to eat. He even experienced something called "nasal deafness". Basically, when he smelled something, he'd go for it and couldn't hear us call for him to "stop!" He was a great dog.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">That building contains so many of our things from 11 years ago that are in many ways frozen in time. As I was walking up that building, I was nearly in tears as usual just thinking about that that day we pulled in and all I lost. I thought about how much I wished I would have been a better man to her. That woman was so good to me. She did so much for me. She even saved my life. I put her through hell. All's she ever said I owed her was "dance lessons". If I would have stayed clean, I would have. This hurts me to this day. I wish I could have. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Now I all I can hope for is that her new husband does everything she deserves, including dance lessons. Actually, when I was homeless and using on the street, she took them by herself. She does what she says she's going to do. I can't say the same for me. I hope to from now on. I just want her to be happy. She deserves everything she's ever wanted. And, she does seem to be getting them.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;"><em>Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now<br /> Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same<br /> When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down<br /> 'Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name<br /><br /> It all just sounds like oooooh…<br />Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize<br /> That I should've bought you flowers<br /> And held your hand<br /> Should've gave you all my hours<br /> When I had the chance<br /> Take you to every party<br /> 'Cause all you wanted to do was dance<br /> Now my baby's dancing<br /> But she's dancing with another man<br /><br /> My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways<br /> Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life<br /> Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh…<br />And it haunts me every time I close my eyes<br /><br /> It all just sounds like oooooh…<br />Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize<br /> That I should've bought you flowers<br /> And held your hand<br /> Should've gave you all my hours<br /> When I had the chance<br /> Take you to every party<br /> 'Cause all you wanted to do was dance<br /> Now my baby's dancing<br /> But she's dancing with another man<br /><br /> Although it hurts<br /> I'll be the first to say that I was wrong<br /> Oh, I know I'm probably much too late<br /> To try and apologize for my mistakes<br /> But I just want you to know<br /><br /> I hope he buys you flowers<br /> I hope he holds your hand<br /> Give you all his hours<br /> When he has the chance<br /> Take you to every party<br /> 'Cause I remember how much you loved to dance<br /> Do all the things I should have done<br /> When I was your man<br /> Do all the things I should have done<br /> When I was your man</em> </span></div>
Beaty's Babbling Brain Bloghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03968064588235814028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5703109439136588993.post-4850469461622065982013-11-13T14:17:00.000-08:002015-09-07T04:52:01.332-07:00Home<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The days I have been waiting for are fast approaching. <em>I'm going home.</em> In more ways than one. I move into my new high rise apartment in exactly one week - assuming everything goes as planned. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">One thing is going as planned - this blog is current. I will publish this one right after I write it. I haven't done that since I wrote my blog in the hospital. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I didn't realize at the time that I wanted it to be current just how much it would matter to me. I just wanted it current. I didn't think that my cravings would be as strong as they have been. Having my own place and freedom is a beautiful thing. It may also be a dangerous thing. Using would be <strong>SO </strong>bad. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I am learning that my cravings do pass. I never want to use again - most of the time. I can't use again. I just can't. I don't really want to focus on that right now since I really am not craving using. I haven't for the past couple of days. They will return though. For now, this blog is current. Just as I planned.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The other thing that went as planned is my bedbug inspection. I met my social worker and the bedbug inspector and his dog at my storage unit. I figured it would be okay, but I did live in a cockroach infected SRO until January 15th. He said that they wouldn't live more than 3 months, but we let the dog sniff around and get her treats anyway. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I can't believe I'm going to have a home. A real home. With a my own bathroom and kitchen. And, an amazing view from my 26th floor balcony. I'm so amazed. I do wish I was facing the financial district and all of the high rises and that I could see the sunrise, but I can't complain. I have settle for seeing Twin Peaks, The Golden Gate Bride and the sunset. I'm so amazed. Didn't I just say that? I'm just so amazed.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Not only do I get my own home, I actually get to go HOME. To my real home. This brings tears to my eyes. I haven't been home to see my family and friends for 3 years. There were moments of those past 3 years when I believed I never would see my real home again. I almost didn't. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">For the past few months, I've been anticipating this moment, when I actually do get to go home. I was planning to go home in February of this year but a relapse a few months before made sure that didn't happen. It nearly made sure this future visit didn't happen. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Every time I take a walk through the Golden Gate Park panhandle every day, I listen do some Daughtry songs. Susan burned them onto my music hard drive. I never really listened to him, until now. She must have when I was "gone". This song about <em>going home</em> always touches me. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">So many people in Cincinnati have been so good to me. It does seem like the more I think about this, the slower time seems to go. </span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The miles are getting longer, it seems,<br /> The closer I get to you.<br /> I've not always been the best man or friend for you.<br /> But your love remains true.<br /> And I don't know why.<br /> You always seem to give me another try.</span></em></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I should be grateful for having any and all time. I don't always understand why I have been so loved either. I guess it's no accident my home in Cincinnati is a little town/suburb called<strong> Love</strong>land.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I must admit, learning my stepmother purchased me a plane ticket helped curve my cravings. My head had been romanticizing having a needle in my arm with own place to bring a horny little tweaker chick to quite a bit recently. Doing such a thing would make that trip home very difficult, if not impossible. I just need to stay clean forever. That's a fact. I was going to say that I can't believe I'm having cravings to use again, but that would be ridiculous. My cravings to use ALWAYS return. I have had so many reasons to "never use again", yet I always have. As a result, I've lost so much. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I've nearly lost my life many times. This last time was the most severe. I've heard voices when coming down from shooting meth for years, but it got so dark this time. I was literally dealing with the devil. Walking to and then jumping off the rooftop of a parking garage next to San Francisco International Airport was insane. Using makes me insane. I can't use.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have so much to be grateful for and look forward to. I'll be home for the holidays! It's been three years since I've done that. That last two Christmas Days, I was miserable. I spent one at Golden Gate Beach doing as much speed as I was able to panhandle for. People were very generous when I panhandled on Christmas Eve. I wanted to do so much so it would feel as Christmas didn't even happen. That was still a hard day. I can feel and recall it to this day. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">This year will be different. It has to be. It will be. <em>I'm going home.</em> The Bengals are doing good! I'm such a die hard Bengals fan. Susan bought me season tickets for my birthday one year. It was the first year of Paul Brown Stadium. We went for a few years and moved a little closer to the field each year. I then moved us to San Francisco. I would eventually become a hardcore addict who was rarely "present". She kept the season tickets and would sell them to our friends each year. Now, her and her new husband use them. I find this to be so... my fault. Susan is also a diehard fan. Her husband seem like a nice person. Still, those tickets were my birthday present! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">If I would have found a way to stay clean.... That's just not the way things turned out. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">How did I get into all of that? See how this mind works? It's my reality I guess. Still, <em>I'm going home! </em>In more ways than one! I get a home - with a kitchen and a bathroom and a 26th floor balcony. I get to see my brothers soon! And all my family and all my friends! It's been so long. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I have been so absent to so many over the years. Still, when I choose to come back into peoples lives, the embrace me with so much love. I don't have the words to describe how much this means to me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">I'm so grateful to so many of you. God works through so many people. I love them for that. God gave Susan everything she ever wanted. She always wanted a good husband. Susan never wanted to be pregnant and bring another child into this world. She wanted to adopt a child. She felt so many kids need homes. She also wanted someone to be with her when she gets old. She now has her own child to be with her. She wanted a HOME - in Cincinnati. She just bought one. </span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Be careful what you wish for,<br /> 'Cause you just might get it all.<br /> You just might get it all,<br /> And then some you don't want.</span></em></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">She never wanted to be pregnant, but I know she loves that little girl. She will be the greatest mother ever. I know this from experience. So does both of our dogs we had! She is still that great mother to Phil!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">God gives Good people Good things, even if they don't believe in God. I thinks it's more important to be a Godly person than it is to believe in God. Knowing God exists and doing ungodly things lands a person in hell. I know this from believing in God and doing bad things and then being in hell on earth. However, it may have been my believing that continued my chances to be with God - forever. More bad choices could land me in a "never ending" hell.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">Let's not go there! Let's go somewhere that means so much to0 me! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">As hard as things have been, I really don't regret this life. I know so many amazing and beautiful things as a result of this insane life. I do regret some of the things I've lost, but not this life. It is amazing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">Oh, by the way, I'll be home on December 5th. I'll stay hone until January 9th! That means I'll be home for my birthday which is on December 7th! The last three birthdays have been hell. Literally. My 40th birthday was spent leaning up against a concrete post holding up the I-80 approach to The Bay Bridge having diarrhea all night long. I was so sick an so miserable. I believe this birthday will be much better. Just being clean will assure that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">It's very important I remember just how miserable things become when I use. A week from today, I'll have my own home. To this addict, that means I could have that lustful rush shoot through my veins. And then, "her"! Hell will follow. I must always know that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I really do look forward to coming home. It's this that will help me stay clean. That and all the recovery meetings I will attend. And, all my amazing friends and San Francisco who support me. And, my band - The Alanos! I have so many reasons to never use again. It's so important I remember this. Right now, the biggest and best reason is, <em>I'm going home!</em></span></div>
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