Where'd You Go

Let's see how this goes. Or, if it goes.  Last night, I wrote a few paragraphs on the notebook tablet on my phone.  I knew I could copy it from there, I just didn't know I couldn't paste it on here.

I am grateful to be here, but compared to the hospital, it's pretty ghetto.  Please forgive my misspellings and typos for a while.  It seems as though it will be at least a couple months before I can get to a real computer.  It will be that 
long before I get to go anywhere by myself for that matter.

Like I said, it feels ghetto this time.  My room I moved into with 3 roommates is filthy.  Let me remind you that I am coming from a hospital and the four times I came here for detox it was from the street.  I think that all I noticed back then was a bed and three meals.  Now days, when I am clean, I am a neat and clean freak.

I am grateful to be here, but I am sad and lonely.  I'm a bit depressed.  My roommates are messy, but they are nice.  One of them is actually crazy - literally.  I need to keep this short, so I'll leave it at that.

I'll try to keep posting short blogs from time to time.  I might even write on paper again and then type them out when I get to a computer.

Being in the neighborhood Susan and I moved to  when we first moved here 11 years ago has had me pretty emotional since I got here.  Just the thought brings a tear to my eye.  I also miss my family.

One of my roommates mixes music.  He has been adding
beats to a song I had never heard before.  I kind of like it.  It seems there is no such thing as a coincidence.

He was mainly mixing the female's voice.  I "felt" her words.  It wasn't until I downloaded this song for this blog that I heard the man's lyrics.  While the song changes "feeling" during the man's "wrap" part, it still rings true.  It takes me back a few years to the person I used to be.  I dissapeared, leaving Susan waiting all the time.

 

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone

She said, "Some days I feel like shit"
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but the trips always feel so long
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call
But when I pick up I don't have much to say
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin'
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone
Please come back home

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing, "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone

Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home