Dream On

(I wrote this blog 9/2/13)

I wish people here didn't have such horrible attitudes.  They are so ungrateful and rude.  I don't want to go on about it.  It just is that way.

Things have been good otherwise.  I feel it is very important that I give back to this amazing Universe that has given so much to me.

I am really doing all I can to give to this program.  Now that I have my "own strength", I do all I can to take people to recovery meetings.  Saturday, I took four people to the 12 step meeting at Laguna Honda Hospital.  I went to it every Saturday while there.  One of the people I took got 3 phone numbers for people to be her sponsor.  Another person actually got a sponsor!

I also organized a house trip to a Labor Day Picnic and recovery meeting at McClaren Park.  32 people signed up to go!  About 20 actually went.

Saturday was a good day. This cute little blond was standing downstairs at the main doors that never open.  I pointed her to the front gate on the back street which is actually the entrance to the front door now.    I met her there.  She asked what this place was.  I told her.  She told me how she just moved here from Pasadena.  She said she had four years clean and that she was interested in volunteering.

I took her information and told her how much we would appreciate her.  We kept talking.  Somehow, I told her I was a photographer.  She told me she worked at The Examiner.  She said I could take some photos and that she could write about them.  Yesterday, I sent her an email with some of my photos that I have sold over the years.  I also sent her a link to my blog.

Things really do seem to be falling into place.  I've considered going to school for photojournalism for years.  I am currently the photographer and soon to be writer for Laguna Honda's Newspaper, The Voice.  I may volunteer for the San Francisco's homeless newspaper - Street Sheet.  I have meant to do this for years.  I have even talked to someone there about it, however, I kept using and was basically on  my way to being homeless myself.

Tomorrow, I get a physical for Social Security.  I wish I could get back to being a street artist soon, but that will be challenging.  Any job would.  I'm willing.  I want to work - someday.  I hope I can.  Being an artist is in fact a dream come true for me.  I know I can continue, but I hope I will be able to make a living at it.

When I go into the Re-entry portion of this program, I intend to work on my website.  No one wants me to look for work.  I will probably put my resume together for the future.  I will also focus on getting my housing lined up. 

It's not very fun being at this program, but, I'm trying to do my part.  I will be forever grateful.

That light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter.  I am doing everything I can to make my dreams come true.  I had so many opportunities before and gave up on them every time.  The past is gone.  I must not forget that.  I am alive.  I need to stay hopeful about my future.  I have been through a lot over the years.  You got to lose to know how to win.

 

 

Every time that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

Yeah, I know nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life's in books' written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things you do, come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Sing with me, sing it for the year
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on, dream on,
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on,
And dream until your dream come true
Dream on [7x]

Sing with me, sing it for the year
Sing for the laughter and sing it for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Sing with me, sing it for the year
Sing for the laughter and sing it for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away