California Gurls

(I wrote this blog June 26th)

I'm back at Brainwash.  It's my little hang out.  One of these days I'll play guitar here.  There are three beautiful women sitting next to me.  Today was Gay Pride day.  San Francisco has been going crazy.  There are a lot of Gay people who come out for the parade.  Gay or not, a lot of beautiful young ladies like to wear very, very little on days like today in San Francisco.  It doesn't take much to give people in this city an excuse to get close to or all the way naked.  These girls are nicely dressed.

The three girls next to me just said to the guitar player, "We're not from here."  They are from the San Juaquine Valley.  I had to ask.  At first I thought they might have thought, "who's this guy?" So, then I asked them how to spell san juquin.  They did.  Then they started talking and smiling.  I now know they don't see me as a weirdo - I hope.  If a pretty girl smiles at me these days I pretty much fall in love.  I guess I'm lonely.  

I want to be clear that I am kind of sex-addict (is kind of possible.  It's still hard for me to really come to terms with saying that.  Plus, it's really just packaged into my overall addiction.  It's a tough one.  It is very shameful and shame is a very bad thing to have.  It is what it is.).   I am not a womanizer (not that being a womanizer doesn't have it's own disfunctional reasons.  If I could have been, I may have been.  I wasn't and I'm n0t.) 

I never had an affair on Susan.  There was never anything emotional involved.  Most of my activities occurred by myself when incredibly high on that evil drug  (I'm sure you want that knowledge - it's The Truth.  I'm really not sure I should capitalize those words in this instance.  If you haven't yet noticed, I capitalize Heavenly things and I do not capitalize evil things).

Susan is the only person I have ever been with when I was not incredibly intoxicated.  It was still completely wrong and hurtful.  My wrongdoings occurred during times like black out drunks and insane and evil times I spent in San Francisco shooting galleries and other really messed up places.  It's a long story how I got to that point and it probably doesn't need to be told.  Let me just say, it wasn't just "our world" that seems to at these places.

This blog was supposed to be about something else.  I'm not sure I really want to write about it tonight.  It's going to be a good thing eventually.
 

I've never been someone who knows how to "flirt" really or even know if I'm being flirted with.  Perhaps if I see a pretty girl, I can go up to her and say, "Hey, I just met you.  And this might be crazy.  But here's my number.  So call me maybe."  Or wait, I'm sorry pretty lady.  "I can't have a cell phone and I'm not allowed to have incoming calls at rehab.  I'm not homeless anymore!"

Some of these guys from the program I was with today had no problem going up to girls and putting their arm around girls at Pride.  I guess my camera gave them an excuse. I guess it gives me an excuse to take pictures of pretty girls.  I don't want to be too creepy of an old man.  Actually, the ladies who like to wear little also love to pose - fine with me.  It is fun.  It is artistic to me.  Wait until the Folsom Street Festival comes around!  It makes the Pride Parade looks like the parade at Disneyland.  Perhaps I should stay away.  San Francisco is really an interesting place.  I get a little confused about what's Good and what's evil.  Good prevails.

Many do here - on the street!

 

I never dreamed I'd be single in San Francisco.  I guess if there was ever a city to be single in it's this one.  California girls really are beautiful.  I have a lot more to think about than this these days, but it is a nice distraction.  Is that a good thing?  Probably not.

I'm not really interested in sex.  I really never really was.  It sounds ridiculous but it really has more to do with Love.  It might take a while to sort it all out.  It's still hard for me to grasp. 

The only reason I ever even got together with Susan is because people told me she liked me.  Thank you Michelle!  I mean that.   I'm kind of an idiot like that.

Susan has became one of these beautiful California girls.  I used to love it when she would sing and dance to this song.  She is a fun person!  

I need to point out Ohio. You guys are also beautiful.  I just happen to be in California.  I'm in no hurry to be with anyone.  It is nice having them around though.  I need to leave this blog short - and sweet!

Speaking of beautiful and sweet California Gurls, it's nice to look at Katy Perry and you gotta love Snoop Dogg.

 

[Snoop Dogg:]
Greetings loved ones
Let's take a journey

[Katy:]
I know a place
Where the grass is really greener
Warm, wet and wild
There must be something in the water
Sippin' gin and juice
Laying underneath the palm trees
The boys
Break their necks
Try'na to creep a little sneak peek
(at us)

You could travel the world
But nothing comes close
To the golden coast
Once you party with us
You'll be falling in love
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
We'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

Sex on the beach
We don't mind sand in our stilettoes
We freak
In my jeep
Snoop Doggy Dogg on the stereo

You could travel the world
But nothing comes close
To the golden coast
Once you party with us
You'll be falling in love
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
We'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

[Snoop Dogg:]
Tone, tan
Fit and ready
Turn it up cause its gettin' heavy
Wild wild west coast
These are the girls I love the most
I mean the ones
I mean like she's the one
Kiss her
Touch her
Squeeze her buns

The girl's a freak
She drive a jeep
In Laguna Beach
I'm okay
I won't play
I love the bay
Just like I love LA
Venice beach
And Palm Springs
Summertime is everything

Homeboys
Bangin' out
All that ass
Hangin' out
Bikinis, zucchinis
Martinis, no weenies
Just the King
And the Queeny
Katy my lady (yeah)
Lookie here baby (uh huh)
I'm all up on ya
Cuz you're representin' California (ohhh yeahh)

[Katy:]
California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
We'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
(West coast, west coast)
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

[Snoop Dogg:]
(Californiaaa, Californiaaa)
California girls man
I really wish you all could be
California girls
(Californiaaa)